No, But Can We Talk About The Part Where Cardan Says Jude Has Been Frequenting In His Dreams, And More

Am I being selfish and vain and useless and over dramatic if I can't forgive my mother for making me hate me and making ms realize just how meaningless life is? I mean, she obviously didn't mean to. I think she's trying to make us closer to each other. My dad is too. But suddenly having them just feels like they're here to hurt me again. It just feels like as they're trying to get inside the walls, that they're here to hunt again. And I know they're not. They're really trying. I see that. But. Idk. I think I really hate them for not being there for me and for making me feel like I didn't deserve the air I breathed, that it would be so good if I died because then no resources wasted. But they're trying to make it better. I think. So I should just feel greatful, right? I shouldn't feel like they owe an apology, right? Idk wtf to do. Is my feeling this way allowed? Is it valid? Is it OK?

some of y’all bout to be real mad at me. but it must be said. some of the shit u call corny/cringy is actually just genuine/cute/sweet and y’all r just afraid of expressing any type of positive emotion

This just made me paste what i I didn't post from my clipboard:

Do you think this is what sets him and Luke apart? Would Luke not done what he did if he too had a mom who could have been there for him? Would he have not done it had his mom not chosen to be the Orcale despite knowing the risks? Did he know that May knew the possible consequences and still chose to do it. Because even if they didn't know about Dad's curse, they still knew that Oracles were supposed to be maidens so this was very dangerous? Did he know that and blamed Hermes still?

And as it turns out. Yes, he would have done it because he wouldn't have seen otherwise

I'm absolutely LIVING for the increase in luke and percy parallels, but something that's been rattling around my brain since I last listened to the lightning thief musical is that without luke, percy WOULD become him. I think that it's seeing the example of the cruelty and betrayal in luke that prevented percy from following the same path. he's horrified at how luke betrayed his friends, but luke believes he's doing it for the good of the demigods, just as percy would believe he's doing it for the good of his friends. percy is regularly disloyal to the gods by being loyal to his friends. he is saved from luke's fate simply because he came second and watched it unfold before him. I'm so sorry luke but you really are doomed by the narrative. you were always going to turn against the gods, even it it wasn't you. it had to happen.

How bad is it to be turned on by this?

Like scary movies?

I FUCKING KNOW RIGHT. LIKE, THEY WERE SO ICONIC FOR DOING THAT AND WHEN I TELL YOU I SQUEALED LIKE THE TEENAGER I BARELY AM I MEAN IT

THE START WITH LUKE DOING A SIMILAR MONOLOGUE TO PERCY THEIR PARRALLELS AND THE REVEQL SCENE WAS SO DRAMATIC WITH ANNABETHS CAP AN THE MOODY LIGHTIBG IM GONNA GO FERAL IM GONNA SCREAAAAMMMMM!!!!!!! JDBDJSBSHDUUDUHDDHDUIEHEHD

“I think of Cardan tied to a chair to cheer myself up. Then I think of the way he looked up at me through the curtain of his crow-black hair, of the curling edge of his drunken smile, and i don’t feel in the least bit comforted.” (Chap 23, Pg 279)

This quote is from when Jude and Taryn got into that fight after the failed coronation, when Jude found out about Locke and Taryn.

It funny how Jude’s thoughts go straight to Cardan. She attemps to cheer herself up at her accomplishment for having him hostage and as her prisoner. Instead she thinks of the way he LOOKED AT HER, and his SMILE.

Poor jude was head over heels for this man for soooo long, yet she didn’t know it and kept denying it the entire series until TQON. She confused her love for cardan with hate since the beginning of TCP. There’s so many quotes from Jude that the readers perceive are filled with hate.

For example:

“And Cardan is even more beautiful than the rest, with black hair as iridescent as a raven’s wing and cheekbones sharp enough to cut out a girls heart. I hate him mora than the others. I hate him so much that sometimes when I look at him, I can hardly breath” (Chap 4, Pg 30)

LIKE HELLO???

“When I look at him, I can hardly breath.”

Jude has had a crush on Cardan since the beginning of the book. But her drive was all directed to hate. She wanted to be better than him, she wanted to humiliate him.

AND CARDAN WAS GOING THROUGH THE EXACT SAME THING.

Cardan has had a crush on Jude for a long time (even when he was in a relationship with Nicasia, i’ll make a separate post on their relationship later) Yet, he envied her for being a mortal and having the things he couldn’t have even as the prince of Elfhame. He admitted to wanting her out of his sight so he could stop feeling the way he did.

Both Jude and Cardan were enemies because of their differences. There was a lot of misunderstanding. Both of them assumed things that weren’t true. Both of them were going through struggles. And In the end, they realized they were more similar than they thought.

(sorry for the typos! it’s really late, and im half asleep, and YES IM RE READING THIS BOOK AGAIN, expect more analysis post for the folk of the air series)

Okay but if the Mythomagic cards were so accurate about the Minotaur and his underwear, and Grover used them to “train” Percy, does that mean the satyrs designed and mass produced these cards themselves? Whose idea was it? Did they like have a big meeting about recruitment and go “What do the kids like these days? Pokey-man? Let’s make a Greek myth Pokey-man game. That’ll help,” and they interviewed a ton of campers like, “Hey, I know that time you almost got killed by a Gorgon was super traumatizing, but we just wanna make sure our cute little card design is accurate. Were her snakes green or purple? Also, would you classify her as Class A or B in power?” Did the campers get super into it too? Was it a group effort? Do they have to update the decks regularly based on new information? Which generation of Mythomagic cards did Percy use? Is the OG packaging limited edition? How popular are they in normal life? Do they get covered by the Mist, and people like Rachel think they’re just insane when they see Mythomagic in a shop window, and everyone else thinks it’s a Pokémon deck? Are there satyrs out in the world running game shops, and whenever someone asks about Mythomagic, they’re like “Do you come from a single-parent household, and also do you want to be friends?” How deEP DOES THIS GO??

“not all men”

you’re right, my favorite fictional character would never.

one thing abt thalia and percy's dynamic that is often overlooked is that percy was punished for the same things thalia was rewarded for. there's a prophecy abt one of the big three kids? percy is treated like a liar and thief and ppl refuse to talk to him. thalia? everyone respects her (including gods!) and assumes she'll do a great job saving the world. thalia is accepted immediately at camp and threatens the place percy spent two years proving he deserves. percy wants to go on a quest to save his friend? he's an attention seeker and glory stealer. thalia? well, she's the obvious choice. thalia comes up w a plan to win capture the flag that's basically "leave everything to me" and percy comes up with a plan that's basically "if you see a good opportunity, go for it," but percy is viewed as the control freak.

what i'm saying is percy had every reason to resent thalia and he didn't. he chose not to. and thalia had every reason to look down on percy and didn't.

even when they were fighting, i never saw it as a power struggle. they were being pit against each other, and instead of doing what everyone expected them to (kronos was fully expecting thalia to kill percy), they chose to love and respect each other. because they're not their parents. they're just two kids who started cracking under the pressure but refused to break.

She's a 10 but she ingests poison daily to become immune so obviously she's an 11