I’ve Been Thinking About Riordanverse Demigods And Their Mommy Issues.

Please just ignore this

(In case you don't:

Tw:sh, suicide attempts, and idk anything else that might trigger anyone from this but sorry)

I feel so fucking pathetic. Idk, I feel like I don't actually feel what I say I feel and am just lying because it's what I used to feel. I feel like I'm lying because the problems aren't even real problems and even if they were the reason I was messed up is trying to make things better. But I just don't. Idk. I can't seem to appreciate what they're doing because they didn't see it in the past 6 to 7 years. And now they're trying just after I tried to overdose on medicine at my hostel(I stopped before it would have been too much, I knew it wouldn't kill me when i stopped). They knew I used to SH. They knew for sure I still did it for about 2 years. They thought I stopped after that. Idk, they just assumed it was all better overnight. It's not like I hand tried to kms before, but they never found out about it. So yea, I feel like they're here too late. So I blame them for it and for the stuff they said, they stuff they did and didn't do. The part that makes me feel worst is that when I'd told them about it, they said it was just an excuse. After I told them that I was hurt about that(about 1 week later), they retracted the statement and said I that I might be trying to punish them but really it's just me I was punishing. I know its me I'm punishing. And it still hurts that they think I am doing this to punish THEM, that they still don't understand how deeply I hate myself(also a feeling I feel like I'm lying about, idek why I would lie about that but eh) even after I told them. And now I feel like I have no friends to talk to about my feelings. My almost 15 year bsf has .....idk, changed (she has a lot going on) so we just never talk about deep feelings. I have my cousin, almost like a twin, same age and the bond and all, but she is always trying to make me see their side of it and sometimes I just need someone to listen. I had more really close friends but we sort of just drifted apart. Idk what to do, feels like I have no one to talk to, life doesn't seem worth living, nothing worth fighting for, i dont seem worth fighting for. 2 people I grew close to at hostel made me swear I'd never cut again and it hurts so bad not doing it I feel like I will kms this time without coming to reason and be gone, it's like I'm waiting for the moment everything gets just too much and I finally snap.

Percy Jackson and The Olympians episodes 1 and 2 + text posts

If Camp Half-Blood and Camp Jupiter were to fight CHB would win. This is based solely on the fact that they actually know how to think outside the box.

They’re also crazy.

Madoc: you think Cardan will just hand over his power? To you?

Cardan: come home and shout at me. Come home and break my heart if you must. Just come home 

Remember that one time that Feyre and Lucien were fleeing the Spring Court and they got to the doors. Feyre was all “I can’t go to summer 😭” and Lucien was like “but dood, our other choice is Autumn.” And then her selfish ass was like “Autumn or bust! Lolz 🍁 ”

And Lucien still went with her knowing there was a price on his head just as much as Feyre’s in the Summer Court.

And SJM still gave him the dumbest line ever when he tells Feyre she’s a better friend to him than he was to her.

Can we retcon this because I can’t keep explaining it as Lucien being self deprecating…

As much as I loved the Thrill Ride O' Love scene, it feels.......unusual, lacking. 1st off, I kinda wanted to see Annabeth freak out about the mini automaton spiders and how they actually rode them out. But that's not the point. What I mean is, it's strange. To think that a god, any immortal being, would so easily accept the words of a 12 year old girl, unless Hephaestus had been thinking them himself for a while now. And isn't that a bit out of character for how he's been portrayed so far? Like, wasn't he about millenia of escapism? Of not thinking about people and being bothered by it? Or have I completely missed the point? It HAS been quite a while since I read PJO but idk, guys, idk

So I read this one quote somewhere "And now I'll have to live longer remembering you than I did knowing you" and this hurts. Because Pads was sent to Azkaban after 10 years of them knowing each other. He was there for 12 years. So during this time, Moony lived longer remembering him than he did knowing him

It's 2:10 am and here I am with salt water dripping down my eyes :')

I really love how they are focusing on Annabeth’s view of transactional love, because it also strengthens her relationship with Percy. They don’t love each other yet, they don’t even consider each other friends yet, but Percy is willing to protect her in ways her mother- a literal goddess- does.

Not only this, they become friends, and later develop romantic feelings with each other, because Percy legitimately cares about Annabeth, not because she had to earn it. Because Percy is one of the few people, except for Grover, and MAYBE some of the seven, who loves her no matter what.

hazel defender for life btw

As a person who has shipped Percico the moment they said Nico likes Annabeth, this is soothing my heart, i can't-

No one attack this post or I will curse you

Nico as Percy's unintended Ace in the Hole. Nico is his secret weapon, able to give him the key to victory when he feels lost or that death is a certainty. Whenever Percy is in danger or destined to die, it's Nico who gives him what he needs to keep going, to survive. He's such a secret advantage that not even Percy knows he has it.

Think about it, everyone just gave up and accepted he would die at 16, Nico didn't. The battle of Manhattan was a lost cause, with them heavily outnumbered, and Nico arrived with Hades and the Cavalry. Nico finds out where the Doors of Death are, he talks up Percy to Bob and he's key in helping him and Annabeth go through Tartarus. Nico is always there, and he's the reason Percy is successful.

And the moment he realizes this, the moment he sees that Nico is his greatest asset, he'll also turn into his greatest treasure. Nico might have fallen first, but Percy definitely will fall harder.