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SPN hiatus creations | Week Four | Hugs and Affection

I was inspired by some mood boards on Pinterest featuring abandoned places which made me imagine Dean and Castiel spending the night in a derelict house💙💚🌱🌿

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I’ve barely been drawing anything that isn’t for work in recent months but I still have nothing but Spike/Buffy brain so here’s some no-reference and no-erase quick sketches loosely based on early S6 🪦🫀

i love that skepticalfrog post where dean realizes cas is just Some Guy to literally everyone else and then he has to chew on some leather [ID in alt]

I was reading the draft script for 9x22 Stairway to Heaven and I found this part in it hilarious. Castiel opens the gates of heaven and finds shirtless pictures of Dean plastered everywhere. The next page cracks me up the most because it sounds like Sam is implying that this is Castiel's ideal version of heaven. Is he too ashamed to admit he's got a schoolgirl obsession with Dean? If they actually included this in the episode, it would be the most wildest thing ever.

The whole idea of “if you love something, set it free” as shown in Buffy is troubling to me. Buffy doesn’t want Angel to leave. She even doesn’t want Riley to leave for some inexplicable reason. She doesn’t want Spike to leave. (Or Giles. Or her mom.)

And yet the show keeps isolating her, the people she loves keep leaving her. And they say it’s for her own good (ie they are letting her free before they love her) but what they are really doing is abandoning her. They aren’t selflessly improving her life, they are causing her pain. Joyce and to a lesser extent Spike obviously did not willingly abandon Buffy, but the effect on her is the same. And while Spike’s sacrifice does free her of the shackles of the Hellmouth, you can’t convince me she wouldn’t rather be holding a blanket over his head on that bus rather than staring at the crater that becomes his tomb.

It is not better or more worthy or make Buffy stronger to be left alone. She is strong in spite of her suffering; not because of it. And I just can’t see any of this as good. Angel and Giles self-congratulate themselves as they walk away leaving her bleeding on the floor behind them.

team free will + crowley textposts (part 2)

Supernatural 03x10 Dream a Little Dream of Me | 15x09 The Trap | 15x18 Despair

You are the most selfless, loving human being I will ever know.

ever since I watched 'lily sunder has some regrets' again I haven't been able to stop thinking about the angel magic she was using to gain powers and stay alive. so I've been thinking, what if after they defeat Chuck, Dean becomes obsessed w learning more about angels in general in hopes to find something that would help him bring Cas back and in the moment of desperation he remembers about Lily. So he tracks down the manuscripts she's been using and once he is confident he's fluent in enochian, casts the spell. And like magic, Cas is there standing in front of him, in flesh, and he is saying something but Dean cannot hear him. First he thinks it's because he is overwhelmed by seeing Cas back but when he says Cas' name out loud but cannot hear his own voice either, he understands that he's hearing is gone. Just like with Lily, he knew using magic came at a cost and he'd be burning off his soul. So he just reaches out and pulls Cas into a tight hug and prays to him 'I missed you' and 'You can have me' and 'I love you, Castiel'

When days later he manages to signs 'beer' perfectly an gets a thumbs up from Eileen, a beer from Sam, and a kiss from Cas, he once again thinks that he made the right choice. (and maybe Cas can't heal his hearing but he can hear his prayers and turns out can speak inside Dean's mind, which, interestingly makes the sex better than any other sex Dean has had. Or maybe that's just because he is in love with Cas)