That Day When I Told You About My School Days..how Miserable I Felt When The Friends That I Called Mine

That day when I told you about my school days..how miserable I felt when the friends that I called mine neglected and sidelined me..how broken I was to believe them as my friends..how stupid I felt to trust them. How my whole academic years in school was a total hell and the pain I suffered was unimaginable for my younger self to handle at such a tender age...yet I passed through all these difficult phases of my life without sharing it with anyone..or trying to unburden myself from these trashy truths that never left me alone even during good days. I shared all these with the hope that at least you could understand the pain I endured during those shitty days of my life. I felt so relieved that I do have you in my life who's ready to offer a ear to all the agony I had to go through silently. For a second I was relieved thinking that no more teary nights..coz I hav you to share my tiniest problems with you.. for a second I thought..I am not alone . I HAVE YOU to listen and understand me inside out.

I was happy, yk!! Until you just flipped the coin. Until you u used my feelings as ur weapon to attack against me , blame me for being in a certain way and not attracting friends. All of a sudden, i realized that I was wrong about you... you weren't empathomizing with me, rather just sympathizing. I was an utter fool to believe that you would always be there for me.

I lost it...and it's so disappointing that you're no longer the person I loved deeply . I always felt that you would get me more than my parents ever could . I could never hate you because I do love you for being a good human being to others. I no longer wanna keep any kind of close connection with you..but you are so old to handle such a coldness from me.

I don't wanna be like you..nor I wanna hurt you, I will be there for you even if I lost trust in you💔