"The Unknown Is Always More Fascinating Than The Known."

I think there is no perfect time to talk about it..

You were right ..I shouldn't delay it. But I am not gonna talk to her for sure..I want her to know that you fucking hurted me and is still hurting me and if she is really concerned about me , she might ask me what happened?

Am I alright?

Yes, I am , but one thing that always haunts me is why we never work out. Why does our relationship seem dull ? Why is it just one-sided feelings?

I am gonna talk about each and every thing I haven't felt from the time 10 to 20 yrs .

People say "what you give comes back to you"

In your case, I never did

Will I ever get it?

I want you to love me like others do

I want your understanding the most

I want that patt that I don't get

I want that bond that I never owned with you.

I really need that

I need you ..

But nobody gets it..coz I am the only one that gets blamed for not being "loving & caring & and understanding."

I have tolerated all these..ik that I still can continue with this shit..

But I pray to God for a better ending

you need to respect that your sibling has new priorities, and are likely trying their best! Be patient

World with genders, create division

I'm not alrighttt

“Don’t hold on to someone who’s leaving, otherwise you won’t meet the one who’s coming.”

— Carl Gustav Jung

When you step into the zone of love , language as we know it becomes obsolete. That which cannot be put into words can only be grasped through silence.

Well the question is "why are you sad when you get home??"

People say, stop thinking about things that pains you. It's your time at home with your parents, enjoy , have fun, spend time with them.

Well I am sorry , I tried but I can't. I ain't that person even after several trials. I am not trying anymore .

I am home. In my space where I can breathe , I can talk without people judging me. I am alone with my vulnerable self. I am sad, trying to feel my pain.

I am feeling things deeply. If I am going through something that is uncomfortable or painful or hard, I am allowing myself to dive into those emotions or allow myself to numb them. I don't wanna kill my pain through television or spending time with friends or Instagram. I chose not to protect myself from pain because it demands to be felt . Pain demands to be felt . Coz I feel it will show up in other ways if I do not deal with it now.

“Comparing yourself to others is an act of violence against your authentic self.”

— Iyanla Vanzant

“Don’t allow someone to treat you poorly just because you love them.”

— Unknown

That's what I wanna hear..

I can always come to her

But never cry leaning on her shoulder

Because we don't do that

We don't show emotions mutually

I'll never do that

Because I can control