Illustratum-paradoxon - Illustratum Paradoxon

Written: 6•29•19

Maaaan I’m tired of being left on read There’s so much shit left unsaid I’m tired of forcing relationships It’s like my time ain’t worth shit. Let me not be tired no more Let me be stronger then before. Let me remind you of who I am. Wasted energy trying to show you me mannnn. I’ve become so transparent for you to see But yet it’s like you see right through me. So here goes let me remind you what you’re working with. Let me remind you right quick, have several seats Take your pick. I’m a Bronx native, Yonkers raised Bori-Italia pero I only rep the tribe I was only sent to earth to connect & Vibe Momma-daughter “divorce” Foster care system But despite of it all I would never diss em. It made me who I am A woman who refuses to fall. I most definitely strive to do my all. I got a heart of gold & would do most for many But I stay picky with who I keep near I rather stay a loner Then look for plenty Of fakes, lies and snakes. Mistakes. They rather show you love at wakes. People don’t understand there’s lives at stake. That’s why I don’t have time for fakes.

-Illustratum Paradoxon

The devil is persistent

But my God is consistent

If it wasn’t for my God

I‘d fall far from existence

Spiritual revolution

Is happening inside of me

Spiritual revolution

Something Only God

And I can see

Written 7•15•20

-Illustratum Paradoxon

*The revolution is still happening.

The war for my soul is not over.

Clinging on to God

And anything of light. 💡

Pushing religion and bs agendas away

I just want YWHW*

Illustratum Paradoxon

With a calming atmosphere, “Harmony” by Cestica finds a perfect balance of night and day. Where would you fall in the divide? Night or day?

Dreamers Disease

I’m tired of people telling me it’s going to be ok. Yea maybe it is. Maybe it’s not. But right now at this present moment it’s not. I’m not. I’m not ok. 😔

Never feel like you’re doing nothing. You can never know where you’ve sown a seed. Keep going ♥

“I’m not here to fix anyone.”

“I now intend to create a connection with my throat chakra. May I be in touch with my will to live and may I speak my truth in this world authentically, creatively, and easily. I release all fear that keeps me from listening to my inner voice. I ask to be supportive in all forms of personal expression, so I may communicate my needs effortlessly, and trust that I will be heard. And so it is.”

Dangggg

-Illustratum Paradoxon

very sensitive very aggressive

Word

“Being alone has nothing to do with how many people are around.”

— Richard Yates, Revolutionary Road (via wordsnquotes)