“I’m Not Here To Fix Anyone.”

Every. Single. Time.

-Illustratum Paradoxon

Do you ever become desensitized to your own trauma?? Like you’ve been dealing with it for so long that when you accidentally let it slip out in conversation and the persons like “um oh my god?” You’re like wow I forgot my life has been one unspeakable horror after another #noted

They are literally talking about me. 😂 Also I AM a special snowflake. We ALL are! So I don’t feel bad for wanting to be treated like one! 💕 😛

-Illustratum Paradoxon

Little Enneagram 4 things

• car rides through the mountains with music. Don’t talk to me. I’m going to listen to music the entire time. Probably imagining and daydreaming.

• movie soundtracks

• Pinterest. Boards for stories you’re writing. Aesthetic boards for favorite book series. Boards for adaptations of your favorite books. Aesthetic boards in general. Boards for certain moods. Boards for certain memories. Boards for nostalgia. Boards that feed your interal daydreamings. Boards for quotes. And all of them are secret.

• I can’t do X until the atmosphere is right. Aka: I can’t do work on my computer until my room is picture-perfect. I can’t read until I have some hot drink and a blanket with me. Maybe a candle, too.

• “Does hot chocolate go with the book I’m reading? No, tea would be better.”

• rescuers. It’s not that I’m incapable, it’s just that I long for companionship carrying all this emotion and deep thinking. If you have a strong, confident, caring, CALMING personality I’m going to stick to you like glue because I NEED that in my life.

• keeping track of favorite quotes from books, movies, etc.

• did I mention daydreaming

• being extremely interested in Enneagram and other personality stuff partially because it’s talks about what makes you unique

• having so many thoughts that you have to write them down somehow to not lose them, and also having anxiety that you’re going to lose them because they’re important

• nostalgia

• being ashamed that your personality type is characterized by a need to feel like a special snowflake but also recognizing that it’s exactly true and hating yourself a little for it

• things have aesthetics. Vacations have aesthetics. Months have aesthetics. Music has aesthetics. Movies have them. Books have them. Friends have them. You don’t need to make a mood board or anything for them. They just have them. They exist in your brain attached to an aesthetic.

• I need. Time to be alone. Please give it to me, I promise it will be better for both of us

• if I trust you with my problems, prepare yourself for an emotional, deeply thought out deluge of personal history from the depths of my being

Sometimes trying to make someone understand you as deeply as you understand yourself is fucking torture.

-Illustratum Paradoxon

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-Illustratum Paradoxon

Me introducing myself like hi I romanticise everything, overthink way too much, live 85% of my life in my head and still can’t believe I’m a Real Person

“Some people are neither friends nor foes. They are simply another follower on your timeline of life” -Illustratum Paradoxon

“I now intend to create a connection with my throat chakra. May I be in touch with my will to live and may I speak my truth in this world authentically, creatively, and easily. I release all fear that keeps me from listening to my inner voice. I ask to be supportive in all forms of personal expression, so I may communicate my needs effortlessly, and trust that I will be heard. And so it is.”

7•27•17 | Self Reminder|

Stop trying to make people understand you. This is your journey. As long as YOU understand you and your heart is in the right place, no one else matters. They will just have opinions. Ideas of you. But never a true understanding of YOU. Don’t feel sad over it. Feel confident knowing yourself, loving yourself & being true to yourself.

-Illustratum Paradoxon

the scariest thing of having your brain blocking out bits of traumatic memories is that you’re always afraid people won’t believe you because you don’t remember enough

Ecclesiastes 1:9 (NLT) History merely repeats itself. Nothing under the sun is truly new.