Snow In The Garden

A little guy I hallucinated. He was at a bus depot. I like to think he was just waiting for a bus, too.

my cat has Stars in his eyes and love in his heart

my 4am minecraft binges are not happy about this post

My kind of therapy

thank you and i love you for being safe.

often,

i feel like a lost sailor in a vast expanse of ocean. A tiny dot of an entity, in comparison to the hugeness of the sea. At times, waves toss my small dinghy, water pouring over the sides, soaking me to my bone. I lie gasping for air in the face of such great loss and pain.

Other days I can lay against the side of the ship, hand dangling in the water, and allow myself rest. Soft shoals of sand shimmer far beneath the calming ebb of the waves, lulling me to sleep.

Raising my spyglass to my eye provides little to no insight into the future temperament of the sea.

Sometimes I wish i could delve deep into the waves themselves. Find the tides and currents that I would ride to new destinations. No longer confined to my tiny vessel. No longer at the mercy of that next storm.

I wonder if one day life will allow for more control over my direction. My destination.

I wish to navigate this sea with the adeptness not only of sailors, but of the creatures that live inside it. I want to make this chaos known. As familiar as a home.

But for now i am battered helplessly against walls of water. Tossed from moment to moment, clinging onto my ship for dear life. Praying for the next soft day. Constantly at the mercy of the ocean. Lost without a will of my own.

I grow tired of battling for an inch of direction. Maybe one day I will know this sea better.

*probable sappiness warning*

It’s okay cuz im self aware heh. Anyways-

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i am

for the first time

truly truly happy.

Like finally breathing

or touching the sky.

I looked for it for so long.

And now he it is on my doorstep.

Sunshine

My Beautiful sky.

This is thanks to you,

and so this is for you,

I feel happy. I love you.

i et the world

it truly is lovely.

i may be kissed

in the nearish future and ah

oh how lovely.

i think me and my fellow ghostly apparitions have some scheming to do

sometimes i see someone existing and i just get so happy that they do.

like a warm summer breeze and grass and cat fur and head thrown back in joy.

Lovely people are just my favourite

wait actually rb this and name as many mutuals off the top of your head as you can in the tags i’m interested