The Calendar Was Not Kidding When It Said September

They joys of being a normie passing gay is that you can hear the conversations the straight people are having in your life absolutely uncensored. I feel like KGB spy strolling around in the US during the Red Scare

meeee

wait so we're hanging out okay. when where how and oh yeah why so i can stress out about it, look at the place beforehand, plan out my every move, be on the edge of an anxiety attack until the day ends and then overthink about everything i did later

i guilt myself the most i am the one with the bugs that crawl around my stomach and make me cough my heart out so i dont have the strength to live as a real person who feels moderately and all my emotions are leaking over themselves and sinking me in im not sure how ill survive adulthood

me after my mind tries to convince me that everything that goes against my morals is something that i actually believe in so suddenly im sent into this spiral where i feel like a disgusting insect because i keep thinking of horrifying things and maybe i dont have any morals and i actually believe in the wrong stuff. but no its my brain trying to make me feel guilty and make me feel like my entire existence is wrong and im just a big fat liar and i have never been the right person my entire life

i cant tell my older brother that ill be forever envious of his first baby because i was his first baby so ill suffer

forget about touching grass, i need to touch THE SEA I NEED TO GO INTO THE WATER I NEED TO DIVE INTO THE SEA!!!!!!!!!!!!

"she wasn't your person, your person is still out there and you'll find her when you least expect it" okay what if she was my person and i lost her forever

June 20, 1944 source