I Love Spring Because The Whole Day Feels Like Summer Morning

The last girl I kissed sent me this photo she is so sweet I can’t wait until she comes back from the sea I miss her more than I have let on

i'm terrified of the day i've grieved you longer than i've loved you

I wish I knew forever would end so soon

I wish I never kissed you in my living room

You wonder how I'm doing, well, here's a clue

I wish I never met you

seeing people from your childhood that knew you before you knew yourself is nostalgic but it kills you when you realize they dont know you now

i like playing dumb about not knowing things so someone who cares about me will gently explain it to me and i will feel loved once in a while

i also enjoy peoples faces lighting up when they get to explain something to me

i have this deep need to stuff myself full of used up dirty towels and let it soak up all my blood so i'm left with just dried organs and i am a useless vessel that is empty of all fluids so i won't be able to cry

i love by sharing my entire life with you i'm sorry i didn't realize it was a burden to you

numbness follows me like a ghost to partner with the empty heart. i shed tears for the first time tonight since turning eighteen

it feels right that it was over my mother