Jonahs-human13 - Barely Hanging On To That Tied Knot

“When a flower doesn’t bloom, you fix the environment in which it grows, not the flower.”

— Alexander den Heijer

the two keys to the 12th house potential

someone asked me about 12th house placements recently and it stuck around...'will it always feel like this? like you're walking in space without a spacesuit?'

I've let this question stay in my mind for some time and I feel like an answer is being shaped in my mind.

12th housers' main issue is knowing on some level what is going on. but when i say on some level, i mean on a very deep and hidden level. the neptunian connection to the human subconscious that we all talk about is real.

so people with 12th house placements often feel naked in front of these currents. like, there is an amount of healthy delusion people have to sustain in order to not feel constantly threatened by reality. you just need to remain centered in your own self and body, in your own abilities, because this is what protects you from disintegration. and when you're so sensitive towards other people's thoughts and motivation and intentions, to the dynamics in the world, you are forced to be the witness to a lot of cruelty. it takes you out of your own skin and you may find yourself drifting, feeling lost in life.

I've actually noticed feelings of paranoia are quite a common occurrence with 12th house people. you have to deal with this sensitivity in some way. when you listen to it too much, you get paranoid because you feel like you have no agency, nothing firm to protect you. you're out there for everyone. might sound a bit too dramatic to someone but 12th housers frequently feel like they can't shut themselves off from people's "hidden" side. and that feeling of dread somehow mixes with your intuition and makes you create haunting dark scenarios in your head. this brings you to the common dilemma: is it paranoia or intuition??

another way for 12th house people to deal with their intuition is by denying it. this is even worse because you become shut out from your most valuable source of insight and you can't make choices that are fully aligned with you. this often happens to me - i shrug off a feeling i get about something and try to use my mind instead cuz I'm like "screw this mumbo jumbo, I'm simply delusional". and then it turns out trusting this feeling would've saved me a lot of trouble.

I'm not saying you shouldn't think things through as well. it's just that suppressing your intuition cuz you're afraid of this insight has never led anywhere good and you're signing up for a half life like this.

the keys to using the potential of 12th house placements instead of denying it or being consumed by it are two:

• faith.

• embodiment.

first, you need to stop shrugging off your insights. more often than not, you're going to be in situations where you sense that people say things they don't mean or that they feel something they won't admit or sometimes aren't even aware of. and you're going to question yourself:

how can i possibly know what this person feels better than they do? how is my authority on them bigger than their own?

i think these are proper concerns and it's good to not jump to conclusions or force others into conversations they're not ready to be a part of.

but trusting your senses over what others want you to believe is the right course of action. i feel somehow audacious even writing this down. because this approach takes a lot of adjusting in order to not turn into a self serving monster or into someone who just can't listen to anyone else's point of view.

but still, faith in yourself is the way to go. it's the ultimate piscean gift. when you're armed with patience and trust in the process and your place in it, it gets easier to trust your intuition. you stop being triggered by it. you stop trying to draw a "confession" out of people. you stop feeling sad and rejected without being able to explain why. you stop trying to convince yourself in things that seem reasonable but don't quite make sense to you. you stop living by the rules people expect you to follow but never made you feel whole.

second, embodiment is the next step. your body is what stands between you and getting lost in the collective, in everyone else. you need to be able to withdraw back into your own autonomy.

work out. try to sharpen your senses and to stay in touch with them. make a ritual out of listening to the needs of your body just like you listen to everyone else.

don't stay working just a tad bit more or listening to a friend's problems when your body wants food or to pee rn. don't put your body second. make it a priority. by showing it you hear it and value it you're going to be more aware of it and it's going to serve you better as a protection between you and the world. you need to be able to trust your feet and feel grounded to cross the waters of the collection subconscious. the 12th house rules feet for a reason.

Me to everyone struggling with discrimination like I am - but also worse.

To the trans femmes/trans women of colour who are systematically oppressed. Who get assaulted by "peace" officers and faced with gross uses of "power" (control) from a system that doesn't care, and so they get penalized-or they get murdered every year.

To all the other people who forget, like me, that we as LGBTAQI+ people-especially bisexual people, esspecially ace people, especially us trans people, but then again, especially all of us-legally don't have rights beyond just a very basic "workplace discrimination" catchall (and sometimes not even that). We don't have *basic* housing rights, in most cases. We get sneered at, laughed at when/if we complain.

Our families disown us, and we carry on.

Friends drop us after being profiled by the police, and don't return our calls, and we still make dinner for ourselves, run errands, smile at strangers, and pet a cat.

Increasingly, however, the more stories I read, as we're preading awareness of the things that we as LGBT+ people go through, we seem to be facing more of a backlash. And the more I am faced with unsafe housing environments, (including verbal abuse) and not only given no legal protection, but ignored, gaslit, and publicly shamed and humiliated for speaking out against these issues...the more haunted I feel. The harder it's been to fight against the flashbacks and "think positively" (whatever that means).

Increasingly, I feel like crying every time someone gives me a hug. I seriously feel like I would crumble the next time. I feel like I'm holding back tears every time I see people interacting happily, because I get the impression they don't cry themselves to sleep at night, they don't worry, increasingly, if the next microaggression from an ignorant cishet person will cause us to lose our housing, our employment, our reputation..and we'll be told it's "our fault", for being the way that we are, if not outright, then covertly.

I didn't want to say this, but I'm losing hope, I guess is what I'm saying here. I got yelled at for simply watching She-Ra & The Princesses of Power where I live the other day, after trying my darndest to self-soothe when someone on TV had similar triggers as me. I was yelled at for picking up my blockers (which I need to have, to cause me to, if not *want* to live, then at least not want to die), because I'm on an inconsistent "blackout" at this SLE. They said it would be a week. They lied.

Scrutinised when I speak up, and increasingly having limited rights in any so-called "recovery" environment. At this point, if you're not helping us, you're hurting us. If you claim my existence is "political", then please remove yourself from my life (when I am not absolutely forced to talk to you).

I'm tired. I'm tired of being a burden. I don't even have any girlfriends (I'm transfeminine) to talk to, because I was forced to live in a house full of men-even after I explained I have trauma from men.

I literally called four "helplines" I found online from desperation, several times yesterday, and was told that they were "assisting other callers". I keep trying my best to find a counselor and I keep either getting turned away or at least no called back.

I don't know what to do. I'm tired of being "strong". I wish I had a childhood that I could remember, but even beyond that, I would settle for giving myself that now that I'm older..except I know that I can't even do that right now. I feel like I've let myself down. I feel like (and this breaks my heart to say), it was silly to dream.

It matters. Can you hear me? I am holding your hands and telling you it matters because you matter

Quick reminder from Edwin: You're a MAIN B*TCH.

Stream UnPrisoned on Hulu now!

self help comic yes i cried when i thought of this and drew it immediately

Hby go forst mothafrucker?

Don't at me.

Astrology observations I made pt 14

DISCLAIMER- Placements will not play out the same way for everyone and having challenging placements + aspects does not mean that you are a bad person or that you will have a bad life. Take what resonates and leave what doesn’t

-people with Uranus in the 11th house will befriend anyone and everyone. From the billionaire to the homeless dude down the street, they respect everybody as a human being and I love them for that

-People with cancer, Pisces Taurus and Libra venuses specifically tend to have a penchant for sweet foods and baked goods

-people with the moon in the first house physically can’t hide their emotions. They may be able to bite their tongue but their facial expressions will tell you everything you need to know before they even think to stop themselves

-people with the moon in the 2nd house find comfort in material things and have the tendency to hoard items they don’t need just because it holds some sort of sentimental value, so their living space is likely to be cluttered

-people with pluto in the 11th house aren’t afraid to cut people off. They’ll burn a bridge while they’re on it just to show you they can swim

-people with Taurus moons may have seen their mother as someone who was more focused on fulfilling their (as in the children) material needs and wants than emotionally bonding with them. Imagine that one parent that’s like “you’re sad? Here I bought you a Gucci purse”

-People with a lot of Scorpio placements and mars-mercury aspects tend to curse a lot. Wash your mouths out with soap, abeg

-people with unfavorable juno-moon or Juno-Venus aspects tend to have really negative attitudes towards marriage. The more failed marriages they witness or hear about, the more those attitudes are internalized, and the harder they become to change

-unfavorable Venus-mars aspects in synastry is a sign of a relationship possibly turning very toxic if the parties involved do not have the emotional intelligence and maturity needed to work through their differences

-when people with Saturn in the 7th house get married before their Saturn return, their marriage dynamic never stays the same afterwards. It could bring the couple closer together or break them up

bureau of biting you

X:

Is there anything in astrology that can point to LEAVING houselessness, i.e., having stable housing? Is this a silly question? I would really like to know, as well, if you think I might find more happiness & opportunity in a bigger city. I'm a Cancer sun, Gemini moon, with mid heaven in Sagittarous, if that helps.

Oh so leaving it behind. Maybe to this could be more inclined Pisces Moon (might just prefer to live out of a van in older age), also Aquarius Moon might want to leave it behind.

I think to answer your question personally for you, I would suggest looking at your Moon aspects as well. And your Moon degree and house. I think Gemini Moon loves having options as where to stay. You stay for a bit at your grandma's house, at your sister's appartment, you like to have many rooms and space in your own home. But you are so back and forth with it. You become restless no matter when you end up staying if you are there for too long. Even if you don't own a house, let's say you stay in a hotel, you would want to go to another hotel in few weeks. Your MC being in Sagittarius could also point that you might be better suited to live abroad. But really study more closely your Moon sign.

Take care lovely,

@astroismypassion

All of this.

We knew we had ADHDbrain *long* before diagnosis.

We knew we had BPD *long* before even all the symptoms were showing.

We knew we even were Multiple v. early on (but were gaslit by psychiatry).

You know you better than anyone else.

Gatekeeping culture is like: “don’t get your information online it’s too easy😡!!!” Then offer “find research papers online it’s really easy🙄”

Then block you.

Self diagnosing isn’t TikTok videos and random blogs. It’s literally months to years of research. There’s a lot of reasons why someone can’t get professionally diagnosed.

Misdiagnoses happen a lot

People aren’t taken seriously

It’s expensive asf

Its inaccessible

People want to adopt

People want the right to their bodily autonomy

I’m disappointed when I go online and see my bullies are now nurses. That’s kinda the same thing when I go on here and see professionally diagnosed people who shit on undiagnosed for posting coping mechanisms.

Stop calling people “the problem” for coping. The real issue is people who post any “if you have these… you might have” THATS DANGEROUS. what isn’t dangerous is:

Finding coping mechanisms

Find organization tools to function

Therapy

Talking about experiences

Researching extensively on traits

Documenting

Unmasking

Printing off quizzes or research articles from well established resources (Embracing Autism, ASAN, AIM, awn network, A4A)

Stimming (if it isn’t harming)

Advocating for diagnosis is one thing. Being a bully online is another. It’s a disability not a quirk, a lot of self diagnosed people know it’s a disability. We can identify the actual problems in the self diagnosing community but a lot of us aren’t those.

We’re valid

Synastry overlay Sun, Moon in the 8th house notes: 8th house edition ❤️ ❤️

@astroismypassion

Sun in the other's 8th house

8th house feels vulnerable around Sun. They could feel like Sun sees right through them. Sun is very interested in secrets, fears, desires and dreams of 8th house. You could both overshare when around each other. This connection is passionate, intense, but at the same time a bit awkward. You have a lot of first times together. You might try certain foreign foods for the first time together, first serious relationship or any big life change, like marriage. You might want to do a big transformation with this person. You are prepared to go to extreme measures for this person. You might even change city, job, country for them. There will be sacrifices in this connection. There can be jealousy from others or between you two at times. You might feel a lot of sexual desire for this person. You will reach real intimacy in this connection, but it needs to be balanced. 8th house can be a bit doubtful of this Sun person at first. Or gets easily triggered. You might be reminded of the things from the past, from the childhood, from your relationship with parents. You tell this person a lot of stuff about your life that you wouldn’t tell others. You felt very comfortable, secure and comfortable, like you already know each other. This connection will be constantly changing and transforming. You will constantly revaluate things. You will want to know everything about each other. You might feel naked in front of each other, but not literally or maybe even that. You can behave with this person how you normally wouldn’t with other people. You feel drawn to each other. You just love being in each other’s energy and just talking to each other. You really stand out from the crowd to them. Even if they want to go away, they will be constantly pulled back. 8th house really means you respect individual boundaries and give space to the other to have their own life apart from relationship. So when you are too close, you have tension. But if you just allow each other more space, the person may come back on their own quickly. You can be equally obsessed with each other. You find each other irresistible. Also I noticed 8th house synastry points to wanting things fast and almost rushing it. However, I think these connections have the potential to last for 10 years, if you just don’t rush the other to please your own selfish desires first. Because usually 8th house makes you rather selfish. You only want them doing that for you for example. You are real soulmates. You can sometimes feel like a therapist for the other person. You might test each other, just so you can see that you can trust each other. There is also a spiritual lesson in this connection.

Moon in the other's 8th house

You might have sexual awakening with this person. Before one of you or both might have considered yourself aromantic or even asexual, but with this person you will feel awakened. You will feel passion, lust and desire. You will just want them. You might be quick to merge your finance, living situation or even become physical. With this overlay, I suggest getting physical as late as possible, try to prolong it and don’t give into desire too soon. Because as soon as you merge with this person, obsession, jealous and being territorial might begin. You will experience power struggles, but also understanding on an emotional, physical and mental level like never before. You might have sex dreams about this person, a lot of sexual fantasies (and vice versa of course). It’s an intense, strong bond, but a lot of times unbreakable. You could become too easily dependent on each other and learn to nurture your own individuality and have your own individual lives as well. You will mirror each other a lot. You will challenge each other and learn your mistakes, shortcomings. You might be a bit unwilling to change. One might change a lot (8th house), but you will feel like he is always the same. But this will not be true, Moon person will go through psychological, inner changes, while you might change in your actions, outlook on life. You will know each other’s desires, secrets and fears with time. But at first there might be a lot of frustrations, miscommunication and misunderstandings. You might be very vulnerable around each other. You could feel like the other person see right through you. You could feel like you are naked in front of each other.

@astroismypassion