I’m Not Exactly Confident In My “artist Ability” But When I Get Free Time, Why The Hell Not? ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ

I mean, fuck, I like bed. I like sleep. I like cozy blankies I like napping, I like to eep. I like Z catching and wink catching and counting sheep. I like doing beddie bye shit. Snooze it? Honk mimi

Sometimes i get so excited about the show that i have to bite my hand and or scream Im totally normal btw

Imagine this, after a whole year, South Park comes back, and the episode they return in is titled "No Tegridy", it's about Randy finally quitting Tegridy for real this time, they have trailers and promotional images showing the Marsh family moving back and everyone being happy, and when the episode airs… "Get ready for Canada's hottest action stars, Terrance and Phillip in HBC's Movie of the Week: Not Without My Anus 2: Saddam's Revenge."

it made me uncomfortable i felt like my face was naked, six months in to being strictly bare-faced wherever I went and i’m happier than ever. i love my face more than words can express, my skin, my eyebags, my smilelines, my hyperpigmentation, it’s so beautiful because its me, because its a human.

not wearing makeup was so freeing for me and if anyone else feels like they NEED to wear makeup, try going barefaced for awhile. it is uncomfortable at first but I regret nothing and for the first time in my life i love my face!!

go to work without makeup on and make a man uncomfortable

lil gender (ig?) dysphoria vent ^__^

worst part about being unlabeled (mainly because labels are uncomfortable to you) for me is that my feelings towards gender identity are fluid—so much so that i used to be genderfluid and pronounfluid but all the labels were confusing.

I felt like I was constantly boxing my identity instead of living it to the fullest. (if that makes sense?)

The thing is—when you say you’re “unlabeled” (in which i sometimes feel dysphoric for labeling the term and other times not)

people usually opt for all gender neutral terminology, and I have nothing against gender neutral terms, like I said my feelings are fluid which in itself is so annoying.

because like?? one moment i’m like “this is it, I’m actually just [label] i’ve finally figured myself out” and then my feelings change.

i genuinely have NO CLUE why i’m like this, and it’s frustrating, i do stay with genderfluid crowds when i’m having these issues but even then I don’t want to label myself—especially when my feelings change and it makes me feel dysphoric.

but back to what i was saying, i have nothing against gender neutral terms, and also like i said I sometimes prefer them. but sometimes when it’s ONLY and STRICTLY gender neutral terms i feel dysphoric because sometimes i don’t feel gender neutral.

but i feel uncomfortable hounding anyone about my gender identity (and it’s shifts (and because i mainly have a white cishet christian conservative community and i’d rather not be publicly outed and shamed)) so i just sit through the dysphoria.

i just hate not knowing, i hate it fluctuating and i hate not having a solid feeling about my gender. i look at other lgbtq people in the community who seem like they have it all figured out—hell i look at other genderfluid people who also look like they have it all figured out too—but i don’t.

there’s not much i can do, and i know people will say (as they always have) that it’s a phase—which is like

1) life is all a bunch of phases

2) what do i do when my phases constantly change and have been changing most of my life?

i don’t expect to be accommodated 24/7 about this—trust me it’d be nice but i understand there are people in need who’s priorities are higher in which i want them to be accommodated first before anyone else.

i just dream of the day i have a small close knit group of other people who not only relate but are able to help validate me through my identity.

this might also be a relevant time to wonder if i may have autism or adhd. not saying that i have either

(although i’ve been getting close to self diagnosed and i’ve been wanting a screening for awhile)

or that having either is in any way inherent connected to my feelings in general—but i have a hunch,, suspicion,, dare i say hope? to maybe explain it all to me?

sorry if i don’t make sense this is just me rambling :>

so many people have blocked me on Pinterest and i’m always confused. what comment of mine was their breaking point 😭😭

Sans chronic pain headcanon my beloved

THE BLORBOS

a few month ago i posted wip of them, here the full art!

i have so many rants i wish to post write

so many long rambles about completely random things

i swear if i wasn’t in a state of burnout for the past 2 years i would write until my hands went numb

burnout gets the best of us, and unfortunately it’s got all of me

for now get this picture of a character from a game ad that i thought was making a kyle reference because she had a green shirt on and had green hair that looked like kyle’s hat

i find it so funny how transfem kenny & butters hc are so common when

this is happened multiple times with new outfits each time LOL

obviously no hate to transfem kenny or butters hcs, i love them dearly

but.. can we please see some transfem eric hc love soon?

i genuinely would love to see a transfem eric and how that would affect his character and the people around him, how his perspective would change, how it would stay the same, how would he realize, what would he do when he did? do you think he’d ask mr garrison? what outlandish plot would he scheme up to confront who he is? ect ect