Does Caro Ever Miss Or Mourn The Person They Could Have Been If They Been Happy With Who They Were As

sometimes i like to think that i could get that with friends, like i could dance with friends, or talk with them or them being my comfort...

but sometimes i feel as if i know that not only that wouldn't be even close, but alright simply imposible. People would not give me their comfort or their love as for they have someone else... and i would never

even if the only thing that i could get out of it is the pain of being unloved... sometimes it feels as if even that would be a gift, instead of being unable to love.

99% of the time I'm fine with being aro/ace. If the struggles of my friends tell me anything it's that relationships/dating tends to cause them more problems than anything else. 99% of the time I'm fine with simply entertaining myself with imaginary romance. A moment where I'll imagine myself dancing and goofing off with whichever fictional character currently has my attention, the moment intimate but not sexual. I imagine what it might be like to love romantically in that moment, the music that spurred the daydream playing on the radio, a ghost smiling lovingly back at me through the mundane work of my job; a ghost that will never have a physical hand to hold, the love in their eyes nothing but a reflection of what I've seen in movies. And then the moment ends, and I feel an indescribable loneliness knowing that I can't feel that way with a real person. As much as I want to, my brain and heart have decided that's not for me. I can love my friends, I can love my family. But the love of a partner that makes your heart flutter and draws your eyes to their lips, your hands to theirs, the world seeming to slow around you... That's reserved for everyone else. All I have is the imaginary, and the ghosts in my head.

WHO AM I ?

WHAT DO YOU MEAN OCTOBER STARTS IN FUCKING TUESDAY

I WASN'T READY FOR THIS

IT FEELS AS IT I HAVE NO TIME TO ANYTHING

well have i something to tell you...

It's on webtoon!!! where the anime ends its roughtly like 30 ep before the actual finale

but i should recommend to go and read the whole thing, it has some really cool moments and sometimes more inside in how everyone is doing, something that the show cuts probably in order to try and tell a whole story in just 12 eps

finally im done watching senpai is an otokonoko

it's very wholesome and sometimes i wanna cry on some episodes... lol i want more.

*doom music starts to play* I actually kindof like scheduling these kinds of appointments now...

but seriously Fellas, don't forget to schedule a pap smear every couple of years just in case. If you still have a cervix you can still get cervical cancer. ilu

this has been a psa

i love this

“what if kids identify with something and it ends up just being a phase-?” good. stop teaching and expecting kids (and adults honestly) to formulate permanent traits and ideas of themselves. everything in life is a phase. that doesn’t make it any less legitimate while you experience it. let people explore themselves and know it’s okay if what you think about yourself changes.

6 NEKO

i may be cringe, but i am free Nyah~~!

MS PAINT

now im on track and ready for tomorrow's challenge, today's one was fun tho, i basicaly invert the whole process in which i draw so it was nice

Another pride, another drawing xD

Drawing was (and still is) the only way were i could start to pick apart this complicated feelings and begin to understand myself better, and as time goes on it has kinda become the only way in which i can be truly who i am

So for everyone who just like me is still in the closet remember that pride is also for you, because we exist and we resist! Love to be trans and aro c: