kodyfae-the-1st
Stuff might be posted:) P-did system. The voices never stop, but hey, at least they seem nice:) endos f off
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The Human Brian
alt ver under the cut
Shes so sweet carrying her itty bitty husband about:)
Remembered that post of Chise carrying Elias and had to search this particular drawing by Yamazaki. Like what was she thinking.
congrats you're now the president of hell.
whats you're first decree
-satan
Uhhhhhhh, im givin everyone a cool hat
Been misgendered?
Try walking into a gay bar as a trans guy with a lesbian haircut!
"that time of the month" "monthly visitor" "feminine hygiene products" GRRAH!!! SHUT UP SHUT UP!!! PERIOD!! MENSTRUATION!!!! TAMPONS!!! PADS!! MENOPAUSE!!!!!!!!!!!
Breakfast has been served
Ive heard lettuce is a most nutritious cereal
Some weird ass ai "art" account followed me today, so ill make clear now that i(and the system as a collective) is fundamentally against the use of ai.
Glove too btw
do you breathe with you're eyes, tongue, teeth or hair?
With my ass, like any respectable creature, duh
i hauve a cold
do you breathe with you're eyes, tongue, teeth or hair?
With my ass, like any respectable creature, duh
do you like to eat rocks. I (personally) love the way it feels when they break my teeth.
You have problems.
This is incorrect, its a traumcentric system bot and app, but it is endo neutral.
Its just made with a focus on trauma, its all on the discord.
Do your research.
Hey singlet roleplayers! You feel guilty as fuck for using a plural focused bot like pluralkit? I got good news for you, a discord bot made for singlets roleplayers called “Octocon“! Have fun fucking shit up as your favorite character using this app made for singlet roleplayers! - SCALD
Hes naked
My frog is *naked*
This is a blatent affront to humanity as a whole and im frankly insulted
Heres him next to a more socaly acceptable peer
Such behaviour as this should not be accepted and he will be beheaded immediately.
I: basics
❤️ - P-DID
🧡 - We are not diagnosed, but do have plans to be diagnosed in the future
💛 - Current count of known alters is 66, though we expect many more that lay hidden
💚 - Honestly haven't got a clue
💙 - As we cant fully switch and i as host am always here, but there's almost always someone cocon
💜 - Yes, mostly from various interests from throughout life, and a lot of them
🩷 - Yes
II: alters
🎥 - the list is prone to changing often, but we almost always have someone parental in cocon
📼 - Bird hybrids would be our best guess
🎞️ - We use a mix, but stick mostly to medical, really depends what feels right
📽️ - We are all very distinct
📺 - Not really, id love to, but others wont allow it
🎙️ - Yes, tons actually
📻 - There are couple romantic ones, but we mostly have platonic and familial
III: switching
☀️ - A lot given the no switching thing, but when someone's taken over the body and im just watching, i often barely remember after a couple days
🌙 - No, mostly Grey out and emotional
⚡️ - Weve come close a couple times, and it feels mostly like kinda falling and being forced to sleep? very blurry and unclear
☄️ - N/A
🌈 - N/A
☁️ - I rarely notice if anyone is near until a friend points it out.
💦 - N/A
IV: headspace
🌱 - We do have a pretty big and complex one, it has five circular layers, most live on layer 2 or 3, but at least one on 4. 1, 4, and 5 five are mostly unknown to me, but 2 is a pinewood forest with a little cottage, and 4 has 5 cottages around a little lake that leads to a river with paths around it, and benches scattered about, the eccess space is mostly oak forest.
🌿 - Fairly easily by most
☘️ - No clue
🌳 - alters have rooms in the cottages, i think they're bigger on the inside? and i think some subsystems have whole areas
🌵 - its pretty big and fairly complex, i only know a fraction of how it looks and works
🍃 - I dont know, but dont think so
🪴 - It was just kinda there, all i did was make a little coffee table in the front room for meetings
V: general
🍭 - had a friend help us, the came with entire lists, ended up choosing The cottage collective:)
🍪 - no we just go by hosts name mostly, though the people who know us will call us by our names
🍬 - I dont know, some of the teens have said some wild shit
🍫 - Dont know, im almost never there to hear any arguments as they happen mostly in headspace, but id guess they just talk it out
🧁 - there are a few yes, but i will not be sharing names, thats up to them
🍰 - our friends, sister, and some of our parents, along with some family friends know
🍦 - its pretty ok, but can shut down partialy or completely in some circumstances
🍡 - yes, but i dont know all of them, some are scene, punk, maybe skater, emo, etc, and then there's surfer guy,
system ask game for traumagenic systems!
reposted due to us deleting our previous sysblog <3
remember that you are free to decline any question if it feels too invasive, this is for fun and you are not forced to answer anything 🤍
I: basics
❤️ - what type of CDD do you have?
🧡 - are you medically recognised/diagnosed? if not, do you plan to? (no judgement either way!)
💛 - if you are comfortable sharing, what is your headcount? do you keep track of it?
💚 - do you have a high or low split tolerance?
💙 - do you switch frequently or do you go longer periods between switching?
💜 - does your system have introjects of any kind?
🩷 - do you have any subsystems?
II: alters
🎥 - who are your frequent fronters?
📼 - do you have any non-human alters? if yes, which species are the majority of them?
🎞️ - do the alters in your system use more medical coined roles or more community coined roles? or both/neither? do you find them useful?
📽️ - are the alters in your system more distinct or less distinct from each other?
📺 - do you make/buy gifts to other alters in the systems?
🎙️ - does the taste in music vary a lot between different alters?
📻 - does your system have any type of in system relationships? (familial, romantic, platonic etc.)
III: switching
☀️ - how much amnesia do you experience?
🌙 - do you experience black out amnesia?
⚡️ - what does switching feel like for you? does it vary between alters?
☄️ - do you experience quick switches or does it take longer to switch usually?
🌈 - do you get frontstuck often? what do you do to try to get ‘un-stuck’?
☁️ - do you ever not notice you’ve switched, and suddenly realise that ‘you haven’t been you’ for a while?
💦 - can you switch ‘on command’ or is that something that is hard for your system? does it depend on the alter?
IV: headspace
🌱 - do you have a headspace? if yes, describe it! if no, do you want one?
🌿 - how easily accessed is your headspace?
☘️ - is there a place in your headspace where dormant alters go?
🌳 - do alters have their own rooms/areas in your headspace?
🌵 - is your headspace big, or smaller? is it complex/less complex?
🍃 - do you have specific alters that cannot access headspace at all?
🪴 - did you have to build your headspace over time, or was it just there?
V: general
🍭 - how did you pick your system name?
🍪 - do you have a collective name/identity/orientation? if yes, how did your system make those decisions?
🍬 - what’s the funniest thing another alter has said to you? (internally or externally communicated)
🍫 - how does your system handle in system disagreements in general?
🧁 - is there anyone specific in your system you don’t get along with?
🍰 - are you ‘out’ as a system to anyone? (online friends/partners etc. count!)
🍦 - how good is your communication with the rest of the system? does it vary much between different alters?
🍡 - are different alters part of different subcultures? which ones? (we are!)
Thats exactly how we feel too, so good to see were not alone
A comic about how our system (especially our host) feels about our experiences as a P-DID system, and our place in the system community as a P-DID system.
text written out under cut
"I wish we weren't a P-DID system."
"I've been the lone host of this system for 11+ years. The dominant part of it."
"It's been a lot to deal with."
"I wish I wasn't the host of our system."
"I wish I could switch out with someone willingly,"
"Because sometimes it's all too much."
"I know it would probably be just as - if not more- distressing."
"But sometimes I find myself envious of system that can switch and share responsibilities."
"I want to switch, but I'm also scared of the idea of letting go of front. Maybe that comes with being a P-DID system."
"I'm scared of what might happen if someone else fronted, alone."
"I feel guilty for thinking that, because I know of a handful of instances,"
"and all of them were FINE. Nobody even suspected it was Titan or Harby, not me."
"Of course, they only front very rarely. I can count all instances I know on two hands. And only when I physically can't front. Due to sleeping\being unconscioud or something similar."
"I feel bad that the others don't get time to do the things they want to."
"I feel like none of this might be real, because I rarely see people talk abt [about] P-DID experiences."
"I feel like an outsider in the system community."
"I wish there was a bigger P-DID community to share experiences with."
[text in boxes say: "*something about switches* #pdid" "*talk abt switching* #pdid" "*switching meme* #pdid" "*switching* #pdid" "*switches* pdid"] "I feel sad everytime I see post[s] about switching in the PDID tags. They remind me that's not me."
"You can't do that."
"I'm -- we're -- tired of constantly hearing P-DID is just the OSDD-1 of the ICD. We don't think they're the same at all."
"When we hear people with OSDD-1 share their experiences, we can't really relate. Neither subtype reflects our experience as a P-DID system."
"I feel broken and wrong."
"I feel like we don't belong in the system community."
"We don't share a lot of the common system experiences, because we have P-DID."
"But we don't feel like we belong to the singlets, either."
"We feel alone with our struggles."
As a disabled user i have tried this many times, but that is a myth and may insted trigger the drowning debuff.
i don't get why people are scared of dying. you do know you can just disable it in the accessibility settings, right?
They aren't available for disabled users, the devs refuse to fix the bug.
i don't get why people are scared of dying. you do know you can just disable it in the accessibility settings, right?
A response, i guess
Alright so I saw this pretty shit post recently, and I cant help but say I'm a little pissed. I will not be sharing the name of the blog that posted this, as i do not wish for them to be harassed.
So here's my response.
An open letter to you who wrote this.
"Hating endos is lame, hate on us instead ! We’re a DID system that believes people shouldn’t have to have their own entry in the DSM5 to be respected , apparently a controversial opinion these days !"
So though i agree in part that hate is lame as all hell, i do believe that listening to science is more punk than throwing it out the window. Yes system diversity is important as a working point in the community, it is still important to listen to the science.
Though some may not fit the diagnostics 100% doesn't mean they aren't valid that is true, but even so, there have been no scientifically supported exception to one. trauma is a necessary part, and the mind cannot and will not fracture like this without it, that should be without dispute.
"Being unapologetically plural is punk, ESPECIALLY if you don’t fit the “scientific” idea of what a real system should be."
You are right that science is not all inclusive, but i will say being anti science seems pretty conservative for a self proclaimed punk. but asides from cheap digs like that, id really recommend reading a couple scholarly articles if you are ever in doubt of the science, there is a lot to learn, and a lot left to be learnt.
"Systems should support other systems regardless of where we come from. The world doesn’t understand us and they don’t want to have to understand us, if we want to have a future where we are proudly and loudly ourselves we have to work together to make it."
Yes systems should absolutely support each other, and i do feel we fight too much sometimes. And no. the world does not understand us, but that does not mean it is ok to spread misinformation. Im sure you do this with good intention, and i too do my part with good intention. but we are fundamentally opposed, and i do not wish to support endos in a journey for recognition.
Some may genuinely have it, i do believe that, and others may be suffering from something else, so similar it may be difficult to know the difference, but i do not believe that they can be systems without trauma.
"I have to fight to be accepted as gay, i have to fight to be accepted as polyamorous, I have to fight to be accepted as trans, I have to fight to be accepted as non human, I have to fight to be accepted as autistic, I have to fight to be accepted as plural."
A lot of us have fought those same battles, i at least have, and a lot of systems still fight for this, and i do not believe that it should be a thing everyone goes through. And we still fight to accept ourselves in this, But i do not support endos fight for recognition. But i will fight with all i have to get them the help they need, because a lot of them do desperately need help. and i think that the fight to give them a support system and help is much more punk than this fight to support misinformation.
"I do not want anyone to have to fight me to be accepted as who they are, I want to fight alongside them because we’re fighting the exact same battle and it’s hard enough without us stabbing each other in the backs."
There is absolutely too much backstabbing in these communities. And i am willing to fight here alone to get them help, im not saying here that they aren't systems, some may very well be and have forgotten the trauma, but i do not wish to stand beside them in a fight against science. Im sure we'll all know more in the future with more studies made, and maybe itll turn the view on systems upside down, but until then i stand with the science, and with those that want and need help.
I do though want to mention lastly that as per the dsm-5 trauma is not noted as a criteria for diagnosis, and thus i am open to read articles of exception to this rule if they can be provided from credible sources.
I will also ask that if ever i said something incorrect i hope youll tell me and ill do my best to make amends. Please do also feel free to share your opinion, id like to hear more perspectives, and learn the faults of my own.
Well wishes.
-Kody, and a very tired system
Per request, here is the lord in all his glory!
so friendly looking, this is a face you can trust
remember to say a prayer for our lord and savior ms paint
Ill be praying to the lord fire alpaca instead
remember to say a prayer for our lord and savior ms paint
Our sister has started posting here, and im ready start an all out war, and I will win.
He is
He's just an eepy lil guy:)
losing it at this photo of the counts puppet not being used. literally he looks like hes just taking a nap on set or something
i....found a rare shoegaze tape. legit. band does not exist online. tape is at least 20 years old. This is so Sam
dumb idea