L0n3lyc34 - Lonelycea

i want to be inconvenienced by you. i want to wait for you, i want to hold your things while you do something else, i want to make adjustments to my plans to make space for you. someone at your side who takes up no space and has no needs of their own is not a person, but a shadow. i don't want a shadow, i want you. i want my life to be altered by your presence in it. please, inconvenience me.

currently: howling at the moon

I've noticed more and more in public bathrooms that people skip the handwash and just take a squirt of hand sanitizer from wall dispensers on the way out. hand sanitizer is NOT effective against most things that come out of your ass. i cannot stress this enough. i'm begging y'all. please. please please please please please use the soap.

i'm out here immunosupressed fighting for my life to not get naturally selected while people around me touch a public toilet handles and walk back to their tables to immediately eat a burger

we are the same, i don't have any advice personally, my only guess is that we have lots of "split spikes" during traumatic situations, and that could be happening to you if you are currently in a traumatic situation? that's our personal experience though, so take it with a grain of salt, we dissociate hard when thinking about being plural which makes it really hard to think about solutions. Good luck though!!

Here's the issue:

I writing this am part of a larger system, Wanderstars.

However I (personally) experience different personality and age states as headmates. We are all together in our own group.

If I attempt to push them all together and say "they're different emotions not different people" I spend all day dissociated not knowing who I am at all.

Either way, what I know logically is "happy" and "sad" and "lonely" are different people in the mind and it's how we need to be to function. They don't like being the same person together because they're not the same on some level. Switching between them is best described as monoconscious.

Does anyone have any advice or tips on like...slowing down crazy "splits" of these new fragments? I'm guessing to bring us all together will take serious therapy, since there are dissociative barriers in place for a reason, but in the meantime is there any way to keep us at a low number?

We are traumagenic. Wondering if this is any similar to the experience of any polyfragmented disordered systems? Or just similar to any of your experience.

Any response is welcome. Didn't think we'd be questioning plurality a second time.

- Wildflower Garden

As an alternative to 'sugar, spice, and everything nice'

I present: 'salt, vinegar, and everything sinister'

the best part about polls is that by now most poll takers are on some level aware of the... the meta of polls. i'm aware that the fourth option out of five or six is most commonly chosen; i know that the final selection of polls with options that are all the same word are most likely to be chosen; i know that people like to be goofy, and will choose the silliest option. no one's voting blindly anymore because the prevalence of these polls is manipulating how we approach them. we're all playing a game together, trying to guess public consensus, trying to contribute. its just another aspect of this website thats defined by collaboration and its fascinating and so so so cool

what emotion is this

alright, my turn

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