Do You Ever Wonder If Jude's Aversion To Having His Photo Taken Wasn't Just Because Of Self-consciousness

thinking about how jude didn’t like having his photo taken and how after he died that meant harold and julia didn’t have many photos to remember him by

all of my little a little life friends you are going to LOVE all of us strangers

Jude with cigarette

JB talking about Jude

When your card declines at therapy so they remind you how Jude knows for certain how true the axiom of equality is, because he himself––his very life––has proven it. The person I was will always be the person I am, he realizes. The context may have changed: he may be in this apartment, and he may have a job that he enjoys and that pays him well, and he may have parents and friends he loves. He may be respected; in court, he may even be feared. But fundamentally, he is the same person, a person who inspires disgust, a person meant to be hated.

thinking about jude making gougères today what if i exploded

jude when he used to swim so he wouldn’t relapse:

everyday i get more and more like jude (pls help)

hanya yanagihara lives in my head. she just gets it, and people don't like what she says because she doesn't sugarcoat things, she tell stories of tragic lives and unspeakable lives. People want and need to have an optimistic sight of life when that's not always the case. Sometimes it doesn't matter how much you work on yourself and how much you hope and how much you try, things that happened to you can't be heal or forget and the best you can do it's trying to live with it the best way you can, to accommodate the life that's left.

Things don't magically get better.