Thinking About Jude Making Gougères Today What If I Exploded

everyday i get more and more like jude (pls help)

yeah and who wants to see him find love? who wants to see him get adopted? who wants to see what the other boys in his life do? who cares? he got raped that’s the only valid or worthwhile thing to mention!!!!

Both Luke, Harold, and Dr Traylor would make Jude drink milk with his dinner

Milk as a symbolism of childhood, protection, nurturing care. Milk used to regain physical strength when it was lost, because the three of them each needed jude for something (a tool, a son, a toy) and he needed that strength to take on what they wanted from him.

june 12 today. i wish jude knew how loved he really was

i just cried so hard i was screaming on the floor time to read lispenard street pt 2 to feel worse !

Thinking about JB and Jude lately…

JB, who was Jude’s first friend. JB, who carried Jude to the college hospital when he witnessed him having an episode in their dorm.

JB, who shouted and made a scene in that same hospital until a doctor finally saw Jude - and that doctor was Andy, the only physician Jude ever allowed to care for him for the rest of life.

JB, who helped Jude move into the apartment he shared with Willem on Lispenard St. JB, who brought along his friend Richard to help that day. Richard, who later sold Jude his beautiful apartment on Green Street that Jude loved so much. Richard, who secretly looked after him more than Jude ever imagined, who at one point saved his life, and at another point reminded him his birthday was worth celebrating, when Jude himself had forgotten and his world was bleak.

JB, who envied his life, his looks, his career, his relationship (even his limp!). JB, who saw him as competition, rather than someone to pity. JB, who thought he was beautiful, who thought killing something small and adorable was worth it if it meant looking like Jude.

JB, who brought him to parties, who showered him with laughter and provocations.

JB, who asked too many questions and wanted all the answers but got none of them. JB, who then asked Harold to back off from asking all the questions and wanting all the answers as well.

JB, who captured his life in galleries, on canvas, on film. The good and the bad.

JB, who’s art invaded and celebrated and decorated. JB’s, who’s art froze Willem in time for him.

JB, who was Jude’s last friend. JB, who Jude resented, who Jude hated, who Jude never forgave, who Jude wanted dead.

JB, who found him at last, who put away his suits, who handed out his letters.

JB, who outlived his friends, who was left alone, with his pictures, and his paintings, and his pain.

Hanya saying that sometimes people endure things from which they cannot recover continues to offend a lot of takes-posting individuals online who are committed to a bad faith analysis of anything they do not personally enjoy.

Her statement is descriptive, rather than prescriptive. It is not an assertion that at X point, it's no longer possible to recover from traumatic experiences. It describes the fact that some people, for whatever reason(s), cannot or do not "get over" traumatic experiences and are affected by them for their whole lives. She didn't make that up. It's not a pleasant reality, but it is true!

And the intensity of people's reactions to A Little Life leads me to wonder: would any depiction of that reality in fiction would be palatable to those readers?

me because i was actually not able to breathe by the end 🩷

Me back to when I finished Dear comrade AND Lispenard street in ONE sitting

woah careful now. you might end up getting an order from a law professor for bacteria cookies for his wife

okay but getting to see the real bacteria cookies was awesome

auuuuuGHHHH the old man in Rome. Harold being so happy that Jude is recognized as his son by others even when they don't look anything alike, but the love is so clear and so vivid that people can just tell. Like when Harold was telling Liesl about adopting Jude and she can just tell how much he loves him that she says "You love him a lot" bc Harold loves so freely and so intensely and so unconditionally and his love shines out of him like warm rays of sun

And also the old man teasing Harold for being so plain but having such a beautiful wife and handsome son,,,,,,,,,,justice for Harold Stein

literally and the way harold and jude just fit, so well so that people think they’re biologically related. :(