Someone Said That They Miss Jude, But I Don't Miss Him I Take Him Everywhere I Go, I Let Him Wander In

me because i was actually not able to breathe by the end 🩷

Me back to when I finished Dear comrade AND Lispenard street in ONE sitting

do u understand how fucking deeply upset it makes me when i remember that anytime i say “a little life” people r gonna think im talking about “i think i like this little life :3” PLEASE NO

When your card declines at therapy so they remind you how Jude knows for certain how true the axiom of equality is, because he himself––his very life––has proven it. The person I was will always be the person I am, he realizes. The context may have changed: he may be in this apartment, and he may have a job that he enjoys and that pays him well, and he may have parents and friends he loves. He may be respected; in court, he may even be feared. But fundamentally, he is the same person, a person who inspires disgust, a person meant to be hated.

jude when he used to swim so he wouldn’t relapse:

the happy years vs dear comrade

all of my little a little life friends you are going to LOVE all of us strangers

hanya yanagihara lives in my head. she just gets it, and people don't like what she says because she doesn't sugarcoat things, she tell stories of tragic lives and unspeakable lives. People want and need to have an optimistic sight of life when that's not always the case. Sometimes it doesn't matter how much you work on yourself and how much you hope and how much you try, things that happened to you can't be heal or forget and the best you can do it's trying to live with it the best way you can, to accommodate the life that's left.

Things don't magically get better.

"I was raised Catholic," he began. "But you're not now?" the judge asked, frowning. "No," he said. He had worked for years to keep the apology out of his voice when he said this.

Hanya Yanagihara, A Little Life

a little life fashion takeover ohh i’m not ok

Both Luke, Harold, and Dr Traylor would make Jude drink milk with his dinner

Milk as a symbolism of childhood, protection, nurturing care. Milk used to regain physical strength when it was lost, because the three of them each needed jude for something (a tool, a son, a toy) and he needed that strength to take on what they wanted from him.