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1) someone to call me pumpkin, or baby girl, or something like that. 2) someone to hold me all the time 3) someone to bring me my meds when I need them so I never forget 4) someone to cuddle when I get upset or just want to cuddle. 5) someone to talk to and play with 6) someone to always care about me and help me through everyday problems because I’m too little to face this big old world on my own…
I don’t know do you guys think the full moon energy opposes the sun’s energy? I always felt like they were complimentary. Like yes opposing zodiac signs ‘oppose’ each other but when they are linked up they work together like partners that see two sides of the same coin. I feel like opposing signs are two sides of the same coin just focusing on different directions. It’s like the yin and yang symbol how its the same shape that fits into itself, and in the case of the full moon when it’s opposing the sun sign it’s like a second source of powerful energy/light that shines on the theme of the zodiac’s season. Right now we are in pisces season so it’s one of creative endeavors and dreaming but virgo is an analytical sign of planning, deadlines and realism. Together I feel like the virgo’s intense presence in the season is a partner coming into the scene to be like: Hey these dreams and creations are cool but why don’t we apply this perspective to it to help some of these dreams become a reality? Maybe some people that are not in tune with both can easily fall prey to the lunacy of the opposing powers, (as in someone who is dreaming of something too complicated, then virgo the planner comes through and they feel like its not ready or good enough to manifest into something and the task is too stressful so they get overwhelmed), but if the two are channeled they can work together to create something very powerful. This is just my opinion and I am still researching on it. What are your thoughts? As I always said anyway I prefer new moons since the easy harmony is so delightful and it’s easy for me to focus and create something with the dual energy working from the same sign, but new moons mess me up always haha.
Instead of killing myself I’d colour for hours. Instead of killing myself I’d huddle up and watch movies intended for toddlers. Instead of killing myself I’d play with dollies. Instead of killing myself I’d play with my food. Instead of killing myself I’d spend my day with people who were the age I felt. Instead of killing myself I’d fall asleep drinking milk I warmed in a bottle. Instead of killing myself I coped.
But because I was under 18 I should have just killed myself right? ——————— I didn’t know then that there was a term for it, but are you saying that because I felt better, freer, acting 10 years younger (I was 12) that it was sexual? That I should have just saved myself the trouble and killed myself? Maybe I should have cut instead and just hoped I’d die, I know that was always tempting.
Tell me, what’s sexual about crayons? What’s sexual about dolls? What’s sexual about bottles? What’s sexual about a babbling like a toddler?
YOU turn it into a kink, YOU hunt down underage littles like a pedophile and prey on them. YOU take something that should be innocent and turn it into something vile and full of hate.
It was never a kink.
It was an “Instead.”
Daddy: Alright princess, it's nearly bedtime, let's go put on your jammies.
Princess: Nope! I'm a grown up and grown ups don't have bedtimes!
Daddy: Oh really, so you're an adult, you are not my perfect little princess?
Princess: Nope! I'm an adult grown up person who doesn't belong to anyone!
Daddy: *pushes me up against a wall* Hmm, that's upsetting. *moves hand in between my legs and beings rubbing* Well then who's princess parts are these?
Princess: M-m-m-mine. *blushes*
Daddy: Oh I guess I should stop playing then since they aren't mine. I don't want to play with someone else's toy. *removes hand*
Princess: Wait . . .
Daddy: Wait? Why? Are those perhaps, MY princess parts?
Princess: Well, maybe they need some convincing *giggles*
Daddy: *begins rubbing again*
Princess: *pushes into Daddy's hand* Oh . . .
Daddy: You are my naughty little slut, aren't you princess?
Princess: Yes, Daddy.
Daddy: And these are my princess parts, aren't they?
Princess: *moans* Yes, Daddy.
Daddy: That's right, and I can do anything I want with them. I can tease this little clit for hours and I can even . . . *slides finger inside*
Princess: Oh, Daddy, please. Please, please, please.
Daddy: Aww, does my naughty little slut want to cum?
Princess: Yes, Daddy. Please.
Daddy: I don't know, you were a bad little girl. Saying you don't belong to me. I don't think bad little girls get to have cummies.
Princess: I promise I won't be bad ever again, Daddy. Please, I will be your perfect little princess.
Daddy: This will serve as a reminder of who you belong to, Princess. *continues to move finger*
Princess: Oh, Daddy, can I please cum? Please.
Daddy: Cum for me, Princess.
Princess: *begins to cum violently* Oh, Daddy, I'm sorry. I belong to you. I'm yours.
Daddy: That's a good girl. *grabs throat and leans in close* Don't you ever say you don't belong to me. You are MY princess.
Princess: *smiles* Yes, Daddy.
Daddy: *kisses forehead* Now, go put on your jammies. It's past your bedtime.
- take a polaroid picture every month of something that makes me happy and hang it on my wall - spent more time with my real friends - journal more - create more art - buy more plants and give them names
Me: Daddddddyyyy
Daddy: yes kitten
Me: iiiiiii waaaant
Daddy: want what? Use your words
Me: * DINOSAUR NOISE *
Daddy: oh geez