Decided To Draw The Current @lemonade-if MCs That Have References (Picrew Or Actual Drawings) Hanging

So, Unus and Annus are reaching the last hour of existence, and they said that if we want, we could write our last words to them and our aspirations, and.... I wanna do it

I'm taking this stupidly seriously but this, this channel became important to me, it made me expand my thoughts on what I thought death was to me and what my life is to me

But here we go

I haven't been here for the beginning, I didnt watch every video and I never bought merch, but regardless this channel and these videos worked there way into my thoughts, and this livestream made me stupid sentimental. My internet currently is shitting itself and I might not see the end properly, but that's ok.

Death to me, is the end

That's it, I dont know if there is an after and I dont care, I dont fear the emotions and pain I might feel facing my demise but I do fear one thing. I fear of what my death will do to the world i leave behind.

Will it change? Will it mourn? Will it rejoice??? Or will absolutely nothing happen, and time keeps moving forward as it does. More importantly however, how would the people I love remember me? After death I will be gone and over, there wont be anything left of me besides the legacy I have left and the memory people hold of me, so I cant help but think of the only thing I CAN think of involving my demise. But this is egotistical of me is it not? Death is normal, and I am not special for thinking this way, I am going to die and so will you guys. But in all honesty I cannot think of any other way to perceive my death, I cannot for the life of me think of anything else to say about it.

That's also ok, I'm alive

I'll never understand my death as long as I live.

But I obsess so much, about what will happen after I die, but I try not to think about what will happen as I continue to live.

I am young, and I am childish, I am naive and I am hopeful.

I only really truly desire one thing in my life more than anything, even if it may change over time.

I want to make a story I love, and characters whom can share my thoughts and feelings, in their own unique experiences, and become their own people from them as well. I want to create art that would do them justice and I want to love it so, so, so much

I know I dont draw as much as want, I should not force myself to per say, but I find it difficult to find motive to.

At this moment that is my only goal in my life, I just want to love what I create

I will one day

Even if I may die before I create such a story, I will love my art, I do love it now

I love it because I CREATED it

I made it, I birthed something simply because I wanted to, because its fun

And I really, really wish I could see that everyday.

But I do not, and that's ok, that's ok

Its ok

This channel taught me to, learn what it is that I value about my life and my death, and because I overthink MANY things this was not always a good thing lol

It will die soon, and that's ok

But that does not mean I will not feel, grief

No matter how much or little that grief may be.

So what shall I do? When it does? When it dies 20 minutes from now as I'm writing this?

Well I'll cry

I'll cry, and cry and cry

Because it is what I can do

.

I don't know what my life will be like, I cant find the words to describe what I think of it as, as of writing this at least.

But

But I

I want to live

I AM living

I AM ALIVE

and I'm so glad that I am, I used to think living was a burden, I used to hate that fact

But I'm still here, I'm still breathing and I'm so

I'm so relieved, that I chose to stay alive.

And I hope that those who are reading this feel that too, maybe not today or tomorrow, but soon.

Soon.

Because it is, such an amazing thing to be here, with you, and with my family and friends, and with strangers I'll never meet

..

This has gone in a while

This is clearly important to me so I wanted to be transparent in my feelings. I dont know how u all will react to this and I dont know if you will care.

But that's okay, you dont need to take anything from this.

Well

Except for one thing.

Momento Mori, Remember Death

Remember Life

Unus Annus

Thank you so much for reading my rambles about my existence, thank you so much

I'm glad you are alive reading this as well

I'm glad we exist :)

THIS TOOK WAY TOO LONG HOLY SHIT, mainly because 1) art rut, and 2) legs are inherently evil, anywho this is a character ref for Kaoru Tachibana! My MC that I’m planning to play as for @lemonade-if!! This one is a bit long in terms of notes so I’ll put it under a read more.

Another part that made me prolong this was that I didn’t quite know what the uniform for Mori looked like, so I decided at the end to say fuck it and go off of what I had to ref and eyeballed the colors a bit so that it’s a bit more cohesive, so idk how accurate it is but hopefully!!!! Accurate enough where I won’t have to do it again!!!!

Admittedly his character isn’t really set in stone, I have an IDEA on what I want for him buuuttt, I’m gonna have to wait till the demo comes out to solidify his character more. Due to this I literally have no idea what the character dynamics will be like with him honestly, he’s an oddball, BUUUUTT I will say that due to the existence of his childhood friends his carefully made self isolation is immediately in jeopardy, so he’s terrified and depending on how much they (Hikaru) want him back in the group after all these years he honestly should be. As seen below the clothing refs

Oh, and I tried my hand on making a spray paint-like brush to make graffiti art because that’s his art form, whether or not THATS his artstyle is something I’m thinking about, but I do want him to have a funky and loud kinda style

Finally, I DO have some song recs that remind me of him, or at least the idea of him, which I will state below :)

Dramaturgy - Eve

Law-Evading Space Rock - Neru

Matoryoshka - Hachi

Last two aesthetically speaking definitely fit his vibe, along with the lyrics and music itself of course, Dramaturgy also fits his shtick but more stylistically due to the lack of color. However Dramaturgy is the song I relate to him the most out of the three but I figured lumping them together might give a good idea on who he is a little.

Guess who has a new hyper fixationnnnn,,,

Is me,

Digimon is epic and I want to be a super cool tamer, which I will draw, when I actually have sketch paper lol

So far my faves are Lunamon, Palmon, and Gaomon.. OH and Sunflowmon, dragon flower that skips,,,, best thing in the world... they r very epic and I would die for them. I made edits but I dont wanna post em since the arts not my own :/

Regardless that's what I've been doing

Oh yeah! And PlatinumNumemon is very cool too, made them cuz I needed more exp, got attached

U know the deal

Still no art, ya know the thing u guys r here for, BUUUT I did make myself in picrew

So yeah das me, unfortunately real life is not a cartoon so irl I look less cooler u-u

Anywayyy heres the link if yall want it! The picrew babyyy

Aaaaa happy pride month! 💕💕💕🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈

And with every thing going on in the world, let’s all remember:

•Lgbtq+ lives matter

•Black mlm lives matter

•Black wlw lives matter

•black trans lives matter

•lgbtq+ Muslim lives matter

Feel free to add on :)

I HAVE FIGURED OUT HOW TO UPLOAD DIGITAL PIECES still can’t figure out how to do a proper background, good practice tho anyway I’ve been playing fuckin interactive novels nonstop and I have SO MUCH CHARACTER ART it’s not even funny, though this is of the few proper artworks instead of concept art and character design notes, on THAT note this is Isaac and Excess (still trying to figure out a name for this asshole) don’t worry about the guy behind em he’s probably fine, they are characters from @gravesofheirscog novel, so far I’m in love with the concept and the demo itself is pretty promising too :) all around their just doing a great job so far and I’m personally excited for the future of this project!

Noticed there was a tag thing in here so uhhhhh

@sycamoresadness

👁👄👁

Still no art, ya know the thing u guys r here for, BUUUT I did make myself in picrew

So yeah das me, unfortunately real life is not a cartoon so irl I look less cooler u-u

Anywayyy heres the link if yall want it! The picrew babyyy

Bb bb b b b bbbbb ebbbbbestie😳

BESTIEEEEEEEE

I’ve been thinking about the @lemonade-if game for the last couple of days, and I wanted to draw some of the mcs I’ve seen on the blog so the mcs and their creators:

Kaoru Tachibana- @little-leech-boy

Sonya Paige and Francesca D’Amore- @lorelaibeckons

Sumire Mochizuki- @rabidrobopop

Mikazuki Tenjin- @enderlilly

Kiyoko Kuronuma- @sulkcubus

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Im the resident clown gamers

Hey u guys wanna see me get dunked on by bot? Cuz I just got destroyed