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Nnnghhhh ~ I looooOOoooOoOoOoOoooveee Morrriiiii🤤🤤🤤

Sooo uhhh here's a little Mori drawing ^^

How i feel after finally going back onto my Oda rp blog after forgetting about it for months (i finally did an intro post, and im probably never going to go onto it again :3)

Lets all give a moment of silence for all the shit left in my inbox that I forgot to answer💔

KuniOda sketch I have no intent of finishing ^^

How is this not a more populat ship💔💔

ANYWAY, ODA HAS WAVY/KINDA CURLY HAIR, FIGHT ME >:[ plus he's tan, HES LIKE CANONICALLY MORE TANNER THAN OTHERS SOOOO ANYTIME HES DRAWN PALE AN ANGEL GETS SHOT😔

Mitu ^^

(@ranibwsprimklez I drew herrrrr :0)

I didnt wanna do the background, I got tired🥲

Im so shit at drawing, 𝓱𝓮𝓱…𝓲 𝓼𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓵𝓭…𝓵𝓸𝔀𝓴𝓮𝔂 𝓴!𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝔂𝓼3𝓵𝓯 /sillyyyy !!!!

Ame chan !!!!! :3

I might throw up or kms I'm not exactly sure yet😼😼😼😼😼

AHHH I LOVE ENA DREAM BBQ !!!

(i need to draw Mitu omggg shes so silly >.<)

AHHDHAH YOUNGER ME WOULD BE TWEAKING, I NEVER THOUGHT ENA WOULD EVER GET A GAAAMEEEE.

I think Ena was one of the first interests i ever got :3

Who want me 😼😼😼😼

SOMEONE PLEASE GET THIS KID A CINAMAROLL BOXCUTTER !!!!!

(For totally normal teenage activity's 😼😼 he js needs to erm...cut....vegetables...to eat...like normal...)

Anyway, I rlly want the cinamaroll boxcuteerrr ahhhh jts so fucking cute istggg

I know I said I would draw KAngel but I saw a pose and then was like wowa !!! I need to draw Keyto.

(Djakdhow I did the best Jirai I could lmao, but I didnt wanna draw him in a skirt :P I also wish I was smarter and had used Cinamaroll colours not Kuromi colours but whateverrr, I'll stop yapping)

i feel like a sick, shriveled up fish rn yall 😟

She/Hurts [Transfem Lucy M. Montgomery fic]

This is a REALLY old transfemme lucy fic I wrote, but I didn't really want it to go to waste, so here it is :) Note that it is poorly written and a few of my headcanons may have changed since the writing of this.

It's really short, completely SFW, and I can't think of any TWs that would apply (please tell me if there's anything I misses, though). Please enjoy <33

He/him/his: the most dreaded words in the world, to Lucy Maud Montgomery.

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   He/him/his: the most dreaded words in the world, to Lucy Maud Montgomery. Even if she hadn't been referred to by them since her days in the orphanage, before she joined The Guild, the thought of being known as them again always caused bile to rise in her throat.

She began questioning her identity at a young age. She remembered standing in front of a bedroom mirror in nothing but undergarments after a haircut she had when she was about eight years of age. She felt... "icky", as she would describe the feeling to her imaginary friends.

She often stood in front of the mirror before she dressed, her eyelids red and swollen from minutes of purely tears and sobs, dreading the day ahead of her for a plethora of reasons.

She didn't understand why she felt the way she did for a long while. She didn't know that the icky, disgusted, and dreadful feeling she had whenever she looked at her body weren't strange, weren't something that made her vile, strange, or freakish, until she was just over fourteen years of age.

She discovered the term 'transgender' on the internet, and she almost instantly felt a sense if closure when she read the definition for the first time. She wasn't alone in despising her natural body and attributes, she wasn't alone in loathing what the world said she was, what she wasn't. She was just as glad when she discovered the term 'pansexual': sexuality without any care for your partner's sex or gender.

But then, she realised the mockery wasn't exclusive to the orphanage. People like her, born physically male, female, or intersex, people who liked the same gender, both, none at all, or any other who didn't fit under the term 'heterosexual' were heavily discriminated against because of who they were.

She didn't understand it at all: "why are people cruel to others for something they had no control over?" she often thought. She'd never understood why you could be cruel to others, for reasons such as those.

But, ah, people. They're often cruel, distasteful creatures. Though at times, they can be accepting and kind.

When Lucy joined the guild in her mid teens, she was was quite surprised when her coworkers were respectful of her thoughts. The first to be told of her fellow members was Louisa.

The younger girl was strangely calm when Lucy told her about her feelings, her thoughts. Alcott suggested that Lucy should tell Fitzgerald, when she was comfortable, so he could perhaps fund or at least help her in the process of getting on HRT, and getting surgeries, if she wanted them.

Lucy, of course, did tell Fitzgerald and her other coworkers eventually. She was happy to find that many of her other coworkers were queer, such as Poe and Alcott, or allies to the community, such as Fitzgerald and Melville.

People often say to make a house a home, and that's just what Lucy did. She made her body feel as though it was truly her own.

The state I've been in these past couple days🤤🙏

Dawg I've been crashing out and lashing out at some moots (idk how to apologise, and idk if I really want to :P but my bad I suppose)

AHHH I've re-written the first chapter of my story

You can read it or not (I get rlly awkward when people read my personal work anyway, so if you don't, I really don't mind 😅)

Under cut XP

Also, I might add more, but idk this is all I have energy for :3

Tw: very brief mention of suicide.

Word count: 1090

Keyto stood beside his father, absentmindedly holding onto his arm, whacking it back and forth lightly. It amused him greatly; despite the situation he had once again found himself in.

He was back in the mental hospital after his father, Mike had caught him trying to drown again, Keyto hadn’t necessarily been trying to hide it too much though. The mental hospital felt like his home, his place where most disliked him, but feared him too much to not speak to him. Out there he was judged and not seen, he felt like a coward, a completely different person to the eccentric energy he bought to the hospital.

With his headphones on he could faintly hear Mike and a receptionist (one that was not his favourite) talking. This was a familiar routine at this point, his therapist, Ruiya would most likely be coming right now to pick him up and get him all settled in. His bag would have to be searched, but Keyto didn’t mind, he had clothes, writing equipment and stuffed toys…as well as blades, knifes and ropes. Keyto knew they’d get taken away, but he always got a small kick at watching the concerned face of staff as they carefully extracted all his dangerous equipment.

He stood there with Mike, continuing to play with his arm, resisting the urge to bite it, it was just so biteable! But then he heard the sound of the door opening. Keyto glanced over, a sobbing woman, and rather indifferent looking child walked in. A second receptionist popped her head out and gestured for them over. Mike moved to the side more, as he was still filling out the files for Keyto’s stay. This bonked Keyto a bit, causing a squeaked of shock and offence to come from him. He clung onto Mikes arms tighter, stumbling back a bit and he huffed, glaring up at Mike. Mike didn’t see, he simply bought up the hand that Keyto was clinging to, and he pet Keyto’s head softly.

Keyto kept his firm grip on Mikes arm as he peaked over Mike to catch a glimpse at the other kid.

He looked quite tall, definately taller than Keyto (although Keyto wasn’t sure if that was a feat of any sorts, he was only 5ft 3), his face set in a scowl, fluffy brown hair falling all over the place, a large swoop of it covering half of his face. There were freckles all over his neck and the sides of his face, they seemed to be covering pretty much anywhere but his direct face.

Keyto went back to playing with Mikes arm :3

The seats in the waiting room were quite uncomfortable but Keyto didn’t complain, he curled up next to Mike and stared at the other kid, who was still getting signed in.

“You’ll be alright Keyto ?”

Keyto faintly heard Mike say that, and he forced his eyes away from who he was staring at.

“Of course I will ! When have I not been !” He said, ending with a small giggle.

He saw the concern clear on Mike’s face, but he was unsure how to respond to it, or comfort, let alone care that Mike was concerned about his wellbeing.

It was a while before the therapist that usually took care of him, Ruiya came through the doors. Keyto hadn’t noticed he was still staring at the kid, that had repeatedly given Keyto filthy looks, disturbed that some random kid was watching him.

Ruiya received Keyto’s files once again with a soft smile to the receptionist, flicking through it. This was the shortest time period that Keyto had been out. Usually, he was back within a month, this time it was merely a week. But small setbacks in Keyto’s recovery were nothing but small bumps in the long road.

Keyto chirped up as he saw Ruiya, bouncing up on the seat, his fingers scrunching up into the sleeves of his hoodie as he waved. Ruiya offered a weary wave back, tensing up and bracing impact as he saw Keyto jump up and bolt towards him, crushing him in a tight hug. He was honestly just like a puppy.

“Ah, good morning Keyto, I see your back.” Ruiya observed softly, his voice aiming to be as low and soothing as to not set Keyto off into getting even more excited than he already was. It was early in the morning, 5am to be exact, so everybody was still asleep.

“I am !!!” Keyto squeaked back, his whole body squished to Ruiya, he didn’t want to let go for a while.

Ruiya didn’t make any move to extract him, his brown eyes did take another take at the other patient there in the waiting room. The, supposed, mother was sobbing next to her, supposed, son, who was occasionally glancing over at her, not saying anything. It was not as odd of a sight in here, but it was a sight that made Ruiya feel saddened.

“Ruiya.” Mike said, standing up from his seat and walking over. He nodded at the other, not caring that Keyto was clinging to him, the man was nice, and he had any pleasant chats in and out of the hospital with Ruiya.

“Mike.” Ruiya said with a soft nod.

Keyto once again fazed out of the conversation, occasionally stomping his feet on the ground, or grasping onto Ruiya’s back tighter as the two men spoke above him. He was once again resisted the urge to bite and scratch at Ruiya’s back and arms.

“Alrighty, time to head in, say goodbye to Mike and grab your bag kiddo.” Ruiya encouraged softly, grabbing Keytos shoulders every so slightly and pulling him out from the hug.

“Okieee !” Keyto swung around and waved to Mike, giving him a soft hug, feeling the reciprocation.

“Stay safe ok ? I’ll come back to visit in two days, focus on healing.” Mike muttered to him, giving a kiss to his head before letting Keyto go off. Snatching up his bag and following after Ruiya.

“BYEE MIKEE !!!” Keyto called as he left, disappearing into the facility.

Mike watched as his adoptee was swallowed by the doors of the mental hospital. His smile saddened, and he took a few moments of staring at the ground to let himself calm down. Once he had his mind back together, he straightened up, fixing the glasses more firmly on his face before making his way out, back towards the car to his always seemingly alone and quiet apartment.

OKIIEEE IF YOU HAVE ANY FEEDBACK I WOULDNT MIND ANY !!

I'm mainly looking for feedback as in did I get all the English correct, did I repeat anything, do I use the same word or phrase too often, and is it interesting to read. I'm not sure if this will be all there is for the first chapter, I might add more about Levi (the other kid who comes in)

hehe mb dude

(OMG YESYESYESYEYSYESYES FLOWERRESSS YLU GET SOME AS WELL🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸)

JUST INCASE @crumbledtoast, @koku-stars AND @fukuzaineb DONT KNOW, YALL ARE MARRIED TO ME !!!!!!

(they drew my oc's, drawing them = marriage)

JUST INCASE @crumbledtoast, @koku-stars AND @fukuzaineb DONT KNOW, YALL ARE MARRIED TO ME !!!!!!

(they drew my oc's, drawing them = marriage)

OKOKOK

Sooo yk Jessica rabbit I think she'd look exactly like that, and OMGGG SHE'D BE THE JUDGIEST QUEEN EVERRR

She'd brag often that she uses her ACTUAL hair instead of wigs and somehow she'll always be in safe or above (and if she never gets into bottom or loser, and if she ever gets to loser she ALWAYS wins over her competitor)

I think though she wouldn't always win, maybe once or twice (she's very salty about this)

(If you search up season 10 Aquaria win I think that's the outfit she'd wear to get the win :D)

Mori is in this as well !!! HES RU PAULLLL CAUSE THEY LOWK GIVE OFF THE SAME VIBES !!!!!

Higuchi also is a queen, Akutagawa, Kaji, Hirotsu (I'm forgetting the names of the other members but there ALL queens >:3)

I don't think any of this will make sense to anyone who doesn't watch Ru Paul's drag race but ermmm yeah >:3 (if you are gonna watch it, there is quite some inappropriate Queen dances and shit, but the drama 😭😭 anyway, I need to sort this out properly, but hope it's good enough)

(Apart from Eve, cause i know she does😭)

But who wants to hear about my DragChuu au

(I've thought of everything, it's consuming my mind but I can't for the life of me get motivation to draw her😫😫)

OMG YEAHH I SAW YOU BROKE YOUR WRIST !!!

I HOPE YOUR OK DEAR HAVING A BROKEN WRIST MUST BE HORRID !!!!

:(

(heh...what if I spam liked on my alt as well >:3)

hey there again.... @localmentallyillwriter love u:33

update i broke my wrist #onehandtyper

something that distubrs me a lot is how the Author of Lolita

(Vladimir Nabokov)

Has stated that he never wanted the front cover of his book to feature a girl/little girl

Although there are so many versions with girls on the covers

Something about that makes me really uncomfortable tbh :(

This one in particular, im not sure why but just thef act its clearly a little girls legs, it disturbs me :/

Ive watched so many videos on Lolita and i really wanna read it :3

I dont care if i have to wait months to retrive this book, i dont think i'll ever want a book cover that disrespects the authors wishes :(

(ALSO on this book cover, the Vanity Fair describes it as a 'convincing love story'.....If you think Lolita is a LOVE story, maybe go re-read it a couple times. Go watch an analysis video, read an analysis, I don't understand how this book has gotten romanticized and so badly mistaken)

Playing with Sigmas hair and cuddling him would cure all my mental illnesses btw 🤭 (THERES ALSO ONLY LIKE 2 SIGMA GIF BTW 😭😭)

Who would have guessed, me actually writing on my blog originally intended for writing ? Any who, I got a sudden spark to write something with Sigma, and allll i want to do is just play with his hairrrrr >.<

Gn! reader x Sigma (relationship, partners)

(sorry if the reader is more ooc)

Genre: Fluff and comfort

Synopsis: Giving this poor insecure man some cuddles and braiding/playing with his hair

Word count: 787 words

Fine for all to read !!!!

Sigma sighed softly, drawing the brush over and over through his long-tangled hair. The milky white and lilac purple colours of silky hair all mixed and tangled together. He loved his hair a lot, he thought it made him look fabulous, but on the days were all he wanted to do was sleep forever, taming the strands felt like the biggest hurdle of his life. He considered giving up, letting his hair be a spikey mess on his head, but that wasn’t professional. That wasn’t the image he wanted for himself.

“Sigma ?” You asked, tiredly walking into the bathroom, dressed clad in one of his cosy white button downs. It smelt exactly like him, marshmallows and lavender. You waddle over, the drowsiness of just waking up still in full affect, making your body feel groggy as you slump on his back, rested your chin on his shoulder, slightly looking at the mirror. He looked flustered, a soft pink hue colouring his cheeks.

“What are you doing up so early dear ? Its only 5, please go back to sleep and get some rest.” Sigma said clearing his throat before turning to instead cup your jaw in his slender hands. He leant down to rest his forehead against yours.

“Welll, you’re up, so I am now.” You say, a soft laugh coming from you as you lazily drew your arms around his waist.

“Ah…My apologise dear. I didn’t mean to wake or disturb you.” Sigma assumed that you were staying up because he had been too noisy.

“Goodness Sigma.” You mutter under your breath. You had noticed since dating him he always thought that he was the problem. Behind closed doors, or any place where he was more vulnerable, he was quite the miserable, insecure man. That no matter how good he did something, it wasn’t enough for him, it broke your heart a bit. Sigma had been as quiet as a mouse, you just wanted to stay up with him to keep him company.

Sigma felt uncomfortable now, the feeling of your arms, feeling like a vice grip instead of a gentle wrap, so he slightly pushed out of the hug, giving you a slightly awkward glance, fiddling with his fingers like he was going to say something before he simply turned back around and started to lazily brush his hair. His eyes just slightly wider now as he stared at the sink, not daring to look in the mirror in fear of catching your gaze, which he was sure was filled of annoyance.

You sighed softly, reaching out very carefully to place your hand on the top of his head. He flinches softly but soon relaxes as he feels your fingers start to trail and run through his hair, starting to untangle any remaining knots.

“Your so pretty Sigma…I love you to much for you to be anything but a treasure.” You whisper to him, leaning over to give him a soft kiss on the cheek. He doesn’t say anything, but you see the small smile finding its way to Sigma's soft pink lips.

“Your hair though…its quite long isn’t it. You should let me braid it >:3”

And that’s how you and Sigma ended up in this place. Sigma's face resting on your lap as you braided his long hair. His hair was airy and smooth, you had braided his hair, but the sleepy look had melted your heart, so all you were doing was playing with his hair, giving his face soft caresses.

His arms were draped around your waist, his thumb sometimes rubbing circles on your hips, the occasional soft sound of approval and enjoyment rumbling from Sigma throat. He was utterly adorable like this; you could hardly resist. You tugged him up more onto your body, wrapping your arms around him tightly, burying your face into the top of his head, the scent of his lavender shampoo was overwhelming in the best way possible.

This awoke Sigma a bit more, blinking a couple times. He looked up at you with his purple eyes, seeming a bit foggy and dazed from being woken and out of his peaceful state.

“Oh ! Sorry, that was a lot longer than I expected…Uhm, I don’t mean to crush you or anything.” Sigma started to push off, but you clung on tighter. Sigma hesitated, his eyes widening as instead of displeasure, he seemed to be causing pleasure and happiness for you.

Slowly, gently Sigma bought his arms around you again and he snuggled into your chest, letting his eyes close once more. Your hands found its way to those silly locks again, twirling them around your fingers as Sigma found rest on his partner.

so sorry if this is badly written or odd, i feel like this is more ooc 😅 im also editing this when im supposed to be eeping 🥺

heh...not to give away my next post but....Im such a Sigma male

*eats*

Quick drawing I’m working on

Sketching is pretty fucking fun when I don't have an asshole whispering in my ear that it's rlly bad ^^

15 sokoku play date ^^

This is semi vent/comfort art ??? Idk. I js would like to cuddle dearest, and since I'm more 'dazai' and she's more 'chuuya' what better way to cope than sketch these two up !!!!

(Sorry for not being that active, I didn't know what to post lmao)

Ill probably post the coloured version on my alt :P

I love him (I SWEAR I DIDNT EXPECT THIS WOULD LOOK SO FREAKY, HE LOOKS LIKE HES ON A BODY PILLOW😭😭 I js wanted him to be eepy😔😔😔💔)

Abyway, I love death note

I couldn't be fucked with his hands

((guys spam ask me I am so bored, I am happy every time I see an ask! I love it!! Spam ask since I am very bored and eating papers))

Here kids, have some dinner

Uhmm idk what possessed me to draw this in AN 1 AND 58 MINS💀💀💀 (that's gotta be a world record, my drawings usually take so long wtf) ignore his feet and his ass (cannot draw those for the life of me)

Anyway, I jave a headache but nothing to do tmrw, soo imma eep😊😊 (lying) ^^

KK @koku-stars i quickly drew up Mike ^^ (I made his hair lighter btw so you could actually see his eyes, but its black :D)

Y-y-yapping I fear under cut !!!

SO SOME THINGS ABOUT HIS DESIGN THAT ARE KINDA VERY IMPORTANT TO HIS CHARACTER !!!!

He wears layers/tighter sweater vests because he needs to feel compression on his chest and torse to feel safe :3

His hair is messier and longer because as a child he was in a more constrictive, Christian household, with a very heavy view that men needed short hair, sooo when he got older his ahh IMMEDIATLY grew that shit out >:D

He was always js under the assumption he needed to look old and mature hence why he looks more like a 40 year old rather than a 30 year old :P

His glasses (he's colour blind :D He cant see reds n yellows XP)

The fact that his forearms arent covered. He has texture issues, and despite really liking having pressure on his body he cannot handle pressure on his arm (due to texture and trauma, if u havent caught on he's autistic and was abused. He was grabbed a lot on his arms and dragged around, so his arms are sensitive to weight and feeling 😢)

I think thats really all, AHHH I ACTUALLY LOVE HIM SO MUCH, PROBABLY HIM AND RUIYA ARE MY FAVOURITES OUT OF ALL MY OC'S...and Han...and Aiyana...AHG-ERFVBGRWGERFS THERES JS TO MANY TO CHOOSE FROM, but Mike is very special to me :( pls be nice to him yall, hes js baby girl (a 35 year old man)🥺🙏

I also kinda fw the non coloured version, since i have no clue how to render :P

WHY SO DEVIOUS😭😭😭 thxthxsthxhrdht I explode anytime someone draws my oc😚😚😚

(It's Canon, Keyto would scream for Mike to hug him when he gets home from work☺️)

*throws this n skedaddles cause lmao why was i being so dramatic?? i can draw, i js need to take some time🏃‍➡️🏃‍➡️🏃‍➡️🏃‍➡️🏃‍➡️*

Sigghhh, this is kinda a coping drawing😔😔😔

I wish I had Mike as a father, AICHAOR CURSE ME FOR CREATING A PARENT THAT I WANTED FOR MY SHITTY AHH OC >:( it's not fair :(

Anyway I rlly can't draw cats at all😮‍💨😮‍💨 mbbbb

*throws this n skedaddles cause lmao why was i being so dramatic?? i can draw, i js need to take some time🏃‍➡️🏃‍➡️🏃‍➡️🏃‍➡️🏃‍➡️*

Sigghhh, this is kinda a coping drawing😔😔😔

I wish I had Mike as a father, AICHAOR CURSE ME FOR CREATING A PARENT THAT I WANTED FOR MY SHITTY AHH OC >:( it's not fair :(

Anyway I rlly can't draw cats at all😮‍💨😮‍💨 mbbbb

alright buddy, wrap it up we all know your lying

Bro is letting the inner freak slip out🤨🤨🤨🤨

Atsushi: “N-no! I just want to be friends-!..”