The Feminine Urge To Go Back In Time And Tell My Mom To Not Marry My Father.

"Being myself will get me killed."

I plan to use this in my fanfic but don't have the motivation to write it yet. I'm writing it here so people don't accuse me of stealing just in case someone else uses it by then.

I have made my OC's over the course of ten years. The most recent one is name Sayumi Uchiha.

Sayumi Uchiha has dark hair, brown eyes, fair skin, and no hope or life. So I want to talk about how she came to be.

Sayumi Uchiha was originally supposed to be named Katsumi but I figured I like names starting with the letter S.

Like any of my oc's she was too overpowered. She was suppose to have a Sharingan, a byakugan, Telekinesis and Mind reading, along with Uzumaki ancestry.

Later, I decided to not make her a Hyuga and discarded the idea of her having a byakugan as it was way too much for one person to have. Same with the mind reading, it made it difficult to create obstacles for her.

I wanted to give her red hair but I created her for the sole purpose of shipping her with Gaara. So I decided to change it because they looked like siblings. I also ended up giving up on any ideas of her being a Uzumaki as I didn't know much about the clan's kekkei genkai. I also ended up switching her ship from Gaara to Itachi. I decide on a forever one-sided love on her end [he is her thirteenth cousin but it's okay because they are clan kids.]

That left her with a Uchiha and Kazeshima bloodline that gives her the Telekinesis ability. She was born in Sunagakure to a Uchiha father and a Kazeshima mother. She was found in the forest in the land of fire at the age of 6 by Konoha Jonins after her mother’s dead and was brought to the village. This led to her being taken in [not adopted] by Mikoto Uchiha, and her husband was reluctant to let her as he didn't let her take in Naruto four year prior to that.

At the beginning, I planned for her to be the lead character of my fanfiction and make Sakura the 2nd lead as her best friend but it didn't work out. I tried to make obstacles for Sayumi but she was way too strong, physically. If she was in the story it wouldn't make past six chapters as she would solo everyone. So I changed the positions and had her killed in the Uchiha Massacre.

But the thing is, she could've killed Itachi right there when she found the entire clan dead. She didn't because she lost hope and her second family. She didn't even try to fight when her beloved peirced his Katana to her heart. Rather, she gripped the blade just to twist it and make the blood gush out. In a way, she committed suicide.

This decision changed a lot of things, mainly the way I wanted to portray Sakura. I originally wanted to make her a career chunin and have her solely focused on healing as it was difficult to bring a civilian out of Sasuke, Naruto and Kakashi's shadow. But she had to fill the role of the lead character of my fanfiction and it wasn't it. Having Sakura wanting to torture Itachi for Sayumi's dead was what made me write it further. Making her a person with her own ideology of art, her own creations of medical jutsus used to kill and torture, and her own goal of bringing Sayumi back to life was what I needed.

Sayumi was gifted with talent and strength since birth. She was destined to be the strongest. And she wanted nothing more than to give it away and live a normal life. She was emotionally weak. Too matured for a kid, to childish for an adult, abusing her power to get her way and not holding herself accountable for the pain caused to people. She died before she could do any real damage.

I just wish I can get enough motivation to write the fanfiction someday.

I wish all my writers a happy new year. May all your stories finally be written, sentences be completed, emotions be evoked with beautifully crafted words, readers be moved to tears, the urge to create be satisfied.

Old people in love>>>>>

Screaming! Trippin'! Creaming!

Sakura Supremacy

Just remembered how good my life was when BTS World came out.

Sucks that I couldn't get a coffee date with Yoongi.

Sakura fans are now called Cherries pass it on.

I wanna live in the idealized version of Japan.

To Itachi,

How are you gonna be a son and still manage to have the eldest daughter trauma?

Yours truly,

Yumi.

Japanese High-school dramas and movies>>>>>>