Names Luffuur and I do Weird oc's shit Hyperfixation: IZ, sonic, miku and madoka
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Ur ghibli Ai-crap looks disgusting bruhđŹ
Te lo doy todo, ni modođđЎ
"Don't look at me with tose eyes.
"Because I give you everything, there's no other way"
Ooomg I've been DYING to draw something and show you guys,,,, I have a lot of drawings about IZ but I don't feel like they are very good.
BUT Then!!!! I remembered that I still have my favorite lesbians and I drew ma girl. Hope u enjoy đ
Work has been breaking my ass (â ââ _â ââ ),,,, BUT I HAD SOMETHING PLANNED FOR TODAY THAT WILL MOST PROBABLY COME OUT ON SUNDAY SORRY *â シâ ăďžâ (â ^â Oâ ^â )
It always makes me happy to see the ask notification.... BUT IT'S ALWAYS A BOT đ DAMN IT TUMBLR!!!!
I did something a little simple just to see how I have improved in some things. OLD ONE â´
My two comfort characters who have never felt a hint of comfort
Im not a fan and a lot of people dislike it because of the age difference.
In my case, if you ask me, I donât really believe that Jhonen created Zim as an adult (or maybe he did, and in that case, eeew). Mainly because of all the merch out there where they refer to him as a child. I fervently believe he only did it because he hates shipping with all his soul, and because heâs a troll (respect).
I see Zim as a very hyperactive child, terrifyingly intelligent, with emotional regulation issues, pretending to be an adult without truly understanding what it means, simply because he was forced into it.
Then what is it?? Why I don't like It?
And donât get me wrong, I perfectly understand where the appeal comes from. Theyâre so different, yet so alike at the same time. Add the âenemiesâ factor and you have a recipe for shipping: âThe person I hate the most is the one who understands me the most.â
Still, I canât help but see them as platonic soulmates, with such a deep friendship that only the two of them truly understand each other. Iâm a big fan of putting Zim in dresses and acting "cute" just because I like cute things, but thatâs not the character. Nor do I think heâs particularly tough. Heâs more of a mass of desperate need for approval that manifests in chaos because of that desperation⌠and in being a total jerk. Heâs defective, so he feelsâunlike the other Irkensâand I LOVE THAT. But I canât imagine him feeling romantic love, and itâs not just because of an aroace headcanon. I just donât see him loving Dib that way, and vice versa. A paranoid and very creepy kid who just wants peopleâor rather, his terrible dadâto look at him and say, âWell done.â
Sound familiar?
They both have this tendency toward drama and doing the impossible to prove theyâre better than everyone else (and specifically with each other, because the existence and mission of the other validates their own) that almost always ending in chaos, all because of this deep-seated insecurity of never fitting in. I like the idea of them being inseparable, but as friends or a kind of found family without levels (Gaz included).
Dib is so weird that only an alien understands him, and Zim is so emotional that only a human understands him.
No problem if you like it too, reallyâI couldnât care less. As I said before, I donât see Zim as being written as an adult in the original material.
I could be wrong, of course! If someone gives me really good evidence to the contrary, then yes, all ZADR fans are freaks. But until that day, I stand by my opinion.
I could go on talking about these two for hours because they are my all-time favorite characters. Many of my other favorite characters are basically them, just with different faces and names.
(specifically Zim, because, oh boy, those are industial amounts of angst my friend).
Hi,,,,, so, this is what I've been working on- I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE GOING TO SAY, IT'S NOT THAT LONG FOR THE TIME IT TOOK ME TO MAKE IT!
but to be honest this isn't the finished version. Just wanted to show a little bit of the process (in case it ends up being just a wipjeje) i'm a slow worker jiji.
I don't plan to do a full âanimationâ I want it to look like an animatic, but polished(? if that makes sense.
SOOOOO I'm still not done with what I'm working on(â â˘â  â â˝â  â â˘â ;â )âŚâŚ BUT HAVE THIS BILL'S REDESIGN, take it as a wip (â ďžâ ââ ăŽâ ââ )â ďžâ *â .â â§
ALSO HERE ARE DOODLES BECAUSE I CAN'T DRAW ANYTHING WITHOUT SHITPOST
Sleep walk animatic
youtube link (don't tag as ship)
âokay but are you normal about-â no. Iâm an insane pervert.
sketch I did just to warm up :))))
a clue!!!!! ....pathetic old man
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what a trailer uh?? im so normal about them,,,,,,
Some doodles I made because I'm losing my mind.
Btw I have no idea how to write in cursive, sorry for my hieroglyphics, it says, "you are wonderful"
he's trying to tell you an elvis story man can you please just pay attention
anyway
Hey, is it like,,,, normal to receive so many asks about Palestine and Gaza asking for donations???? I don't know if they are spam or true, I would feel very bad if they are true đđ I don't want to fall for a scam
'Cause my insides are red and yours are too đŤ
Y'ALL HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I STRUGGLED WITH THE COLORS
I AM STILL A LITTLE UNSATISFIED!!! But I've been like this for over an hour now⌠so enjoy the toxic old man yaoi!
I'm sorry(ăâ˝ă;) ,,,, I really tried to finish it but the truth is that I knew from the middle that I couldn't do it anymore jaja lol
What can I say? Iâve always loved the canon ship in almost every fandom I was in.
Welcome, everyone. Welcome to the third part of my endless rambling about Bill Cipher, The Book of Bill and Gravity Falls in general. Now itâs time for the ship, so sit back and relax, because there is a lot to talk about here.
Yes, I was one of the people who shipped these two eight years ago. And I shipped them as soon as I finished watching the series, because⌠well, there was more than enough proof that something was going on between them.
Unfortunately, the mentality at the time was âBill tries to kill Dipper as soon as he has the chance? True love. One trillion proofs that Ford and Bill have something going on? How dare you think that, you are a Bad Personâ˘â.
And yes, I know I couldâve written one post years ago and tried to explain Billford back then but⌠it wouldâve been so, so tiresome. Especially considering that pedophilia was a-okay, but Billford shippers were terrible people Because Yes.
But hey, times change, people change and TBOB gives us enough proofs even a blind person can see them. So. itâs finally time to extensively talk about this ship - this time, from Billâs point of view.
(For the disclaimer and everything else, refer to the first post. And read the previous ones too, if you like! They will help you understand some things I take for granted here.)
<- Previoust post - Masterlist
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Billford has always been canon
The thing is: now as then, Billford has never been a ship about âand they ended up happily ever afterâ. There was never an intent to glorify abuse or to say that Bill and Ford had the healthiest relationship and everyone should have the same.
What was so captivating of this ship was the tragedy of it. The clearly evident infatuation. The obsession these two had for each other.
This is what pushed people (me included) to ship them: because itâs interesting. The dramatic possibilities, the angst, how deeply an obsession can go to the point you lose yourself to your partner⌠and yes, of course also the interesting images that can come up by imagining such different beings having something physical (if youâre not a coward and give Bill a human form). Itâs not the typical fluff with a couple being lovey-dovey 24/7: itâs a lot more. There is a lot that can be explored. Itâs wonderfully challenging, both on the writing plane and purely mentally.
⌠and yes, it's funny for crack and parodies. These two being cringe and pathetic or married and divorced at the same time is always funny.
Sure, at first we had just the show to support this ship. But oh boy, if there werenât enough proofs already:
Fordâs house was filled to the brim with images, pictures and stuff of Bill. His goddamn windows are triangular-shaped. Not even the Vatican is filled with so many images of God - and I can assure you the windows are not Jesus-shaped.
Ford made a deal with Bill to be together âfrom now until the end of timeâ. Until the end of time. Thatâs basically a marriage, only even more extreme, because fuck death, we will be together until the last supernova evaporates. And before you ask: yes, it takes such a stupidly long amount of time, itâs bonkers. Thatâs real infatuation.
Ford consensually gave his body to Bill for possession. Just imagine the sheer trust you need to surrender your whole self to someone else. Not even a married couple can reach this level of trust. And definitely not âjust friendsâ. Maybe BDSM couples can come a bit closer to what these two had.
As soon as Ford returned home after 30 years, Bill greeted him in a dream, called him âhis old palâ and was all nice and friendly. No hard feelings, no reprimands, nothing but flattery and threats because, as we learned from TBOB, these two things go together in his head.
Bill asked Ford to join him 200 times more or less.
Bill gave Ford 200 nicknames more or less.
During Weirdmageddon, right after Ford tried to kill him with one of the things that couldâve destroyed him (the quantum destabilizer), Bill welcomed him with a smile, offered him a place among his freaks for the umpteenth time and, when Ford refused again, he turned him into his literal golden trophy wife and carried him around.
By comparison, when Preston Northwest offered his help, Bill shuffled the function of every hole in his face and ignored him completely right after.
Also: Ford tries to shoot me and fails by sheer luck? Please please please, be one of my freaks. Dipper tries to throw me a punch that will literally do nothing? Death. Bill doesnât have double standards, nope nope.
To convince Ford to give him the equation, Billâs first thought is to bring Ford into a private suite, serenade him and ask him to join him for⌠what? The 220th time?
When Ford refuses, Bill puts chains on him in the kinkiest possible way known to mankind, with an iconic image that screams of BDSM.
Somehow, all of this wasnât enough. And so, we had Journal 3, in which:
Ford called Bill âhis Museâ. Oh, my mistake: he called Bill âhis blessed Museâ.
Literally lavishes Bill with compliments. So. Many. Compliments.
Says Bill will âseduceâ you with never-ending flattery. Interesting verb choice here, Ford, are you sure thereâs nothing else you want to tell us?
Ford named a constellation after his Muse.
Once he went through the portal, instead of hiding away forever and good luck finding him, Ford held a 30-years-old grudge and decided HE wouldâve killed Bill, no one else. Thatâs not a simple obsession between friends.
But after all of this, something was still missing.
Until now, it was quite certain that Ford had a COLOSSAL obsession about Bill. The religious fervor, the sheer trust, the depth of his grudge all made it very clear that Bill carved a deeply rooted place in his heart and mind - a place he kept for most of Fordâs life.
But what about Bill? Did he even care about Ford?
We had no idea. Sure, he showed some kind of care: he gave Ford special treatment during Weirdmageddon and seemed to value him enough to offer him a place among his freaks multiple times.
But when did this care start? Was it just because he needed Ford? What about their pre-betrayal relationship? Did Bill even care before?
The most plausible explanation at the time was that pre-betrayal Bill was simply flattered by Fordâs lavish adoration. Maybe he liked the guy a bit (otherwise, why waste time with him?) and humored him in his fervor, but nothing more than that.
But then the betrayal happened and Ford switched from adoring him to opposing him. He actively ran away, found ways to keep Bill away from his mind and came back with the sole intention of killing him.
At the time, I thought this was the moment when Bill started to be truly interested in Ford. Before Ford was just an adoring pet. Now he was more. Now he was interesting. Now he was worthy.
And that opened the door to even more angst possibilities! If Billford was just a âone-sided relationshipâ before, now it couldâve been the story of two beings who loved/cared about each other, but at different moments in time: Ford in the past, when Bill didnât love him yet. And Bill in the present, when Ford wasnât in love with him anymore. The perfect tragedy, ton of angst, love that.
But now, with TBOB and thisisnotawebsitedotcom, the tragedy that is Billford gets a new, angst layer. A beautiful, angst layer.
Because itâs not that Bill never cared about Ford or cared at the wrong moment in time: Bill cared right from the start.
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Deeply alone
One detail about TBOB that people arenât talking too much about is the sense of solitude that permeates it. There are parts in which you can literally feel Billâs loneliness.
One example? The Bill Tells All section. I know itâs supposed to be a funny parody, but itâs also a perfect image of how alone he is. Heâs so alone, he has to be host, interviewee and audience at the same time, because no one else is willing to listen or talk to him.
And in light of the information we got about his past, I think this is an extremely important part of Billâs character and personality.
Letâs come back to Euclydia: the anthem/poem on the website emphasizes how close people are (âLOVED ONES WILL BE EVER NEARâ), so itâs very possible Bill grew up surrounded by his loved ones.
And then, one single event and everyone disappeared. All the people who surrounded him one second ago, were gone the second after. âThere was no one left but me, covered in blood, alone in the universe.â: if this line means solitude for us, just imagine how much, much stronger that same solitude would be for someone who, until that moment, has always been surrounded by others and knew no other reality than that.
Thatâs another level of solitude: itâs a black void of emptiness, something all-encompassing and all-consuming. Itâs a hole carved inside you that nothing will fill ever again. And it was you, the one who carved it.
Of course Bill became insane. Of course he chose to find a justification for his action, by saying that he liberated his dimension and that his people were holding him back. I donât know what he wouldâve done, if he hadnât. Probably, he wouldnât have found a way to survive.
But he survived. He repressed his trauma, justified it and kept going towards the stars he was aiming for.
Still, that void was inside him - and we know he tried to fill it. He tried by dating a literal void, for godâs sake. And he tried by surrounding himself with people.
Thatâs probably why he became who he is: a flashy, flamboyant figure, someone who loves to be the center of attention, because that means having people around. It means people listening to him and being with him and surrounding him again. It means not being alone again.
I mean, just look at this book: every page has something new and interesting, every page is a different attempt to keep you involved, to keep you around and listen.
But an audience can always leave. An audience can stop being around. And thatâs probably why Bill searched for someone closer, someone who wouldnât leave him so soon.
He searched for new loved ones.
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Love and hate
Billâs love advice put a real smile on my face, because sure, theyâre funny, but at their foundation, they all share the same goal: to show to your potential partner your qualities and how you would be able to carry/provide for them and your offspring.
Why is it so funny? Because thatâs exactly what every single living being does to attract a potential mate: showing off your colorful feathers, singing louder than others, fighting other rivals, showing how clever you are, using pheromones and special smells. And, for humans, something like, idk, showing how wide your hips were as proof that you would carry healthy babies. Or showing off how wealthy you are, to prove you can take care of your partner and your offspring.
Bill himself follows this mentality, considering advices like âhave two of everything to show your wealthâ or âshow how much calcium you have (aka how healthy you are)â. Heck, he even has a seduction hat which is basically one huge phallic shape!
And, again, this makes me smile, not just because itâs a clear parody of those men who keep showing off their huge, large vehicles. But also because he usually wears a tall top hat. And how funny it would be, if a tall top hat was indeed a way to win a partner in Euclydia? What if thatâs how his father got his mother? Please, I want a fanfic or Mr. Cipher entering a place with a top hat big and wide enough to win Mrs. Cipherâs heart (while not accidentally piercing through another shape). I bet it would be hilarious.
Funny love advice aside, I would also point out these two things Bill says:
Love and fear are right next to each other in the brain and, like most humans, Bill also canât tell the difference (he doesnât even think there is a difference)
âlove is the pupa stage for hateâ
The fact Bill mixes love and fear explains why he is like that in general - and with Ford too. If love and fear are the same thing, then there is no difference between flattering someone and threatening them. There is no difference between partying with his friends and scaring the shit out of them. Thereâs no difference between helping Ford and hurting him. And thereâs no difference between allowing him to see Fordtramarine and âjokingâ about someone coming to steal his eyes.
Also: if âlove is the pupa stage for hateâ, then Ford coming back after 30 years hating him was completely normal for Bill. It was just how things were supposed to go: first he loved him, now he hates him. Still, same thing. Still worth a place among his freaks. Still worth flirting. For Bill, nothing has changed - just evolved in a natural way.
And yes, this is uber duper fucked up and great material for toxic Billford. But it also makes me think: how did Bill get this mentality? How did he manage to mix love and fear so much? When did it happen?
Inevitably, I think about Euclydia. And inevitably, I think that âthe incidentâ is when Bill mixed the two things.
When he still lived in Euclydia, Bill clearly experienced both love and hate: his mother at least seemed to love him, the other kids didnât. Bill doesnât like his optometrist either and we have no clue about his feelings towards his father. Later in his life, Bill recognizes his family and his world tried to blind him/âsnuff out his potentialâ - so, again, something more similar to hate than love.
Then, Bill destroyed his place. He had to deal with a trauma so huge (i.e. experiencing solitude for the first time in his existence), it left a void inside him. A void he decided to suffocate with lies - lies that, in the end, are just half-truths. His place was bad and his family was holding him back! But that was also the place that showed him love for the first time. His people were flat minds in a flat world with flat dreams! But among them, there was also the one who loved him right from the start.
I believe this is when the two feelings got mixed in his brain. In his attempt to justify and cope with his mixed feelings regarding the universe he just destroyed, Bill ended up mixing love and fear together and believing that love is just one stage of hate. Unable to deal with the vastity of solitude, Bill put together justifications for his actions and messed up his own perception of feelings.
The result is someone who is deeply, deeply alone and who desperately keeps searching for love to fill that void⌠but is unable to do that, because he cannot distinguish between love and hate anymore.
Thatâs why he has a lot of exes. And thatâs why theyâre all exes.
But hey, at least there are friends, right? Right?
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Billâs friends are full of potential (especially one of them)
The perfect friend for Bill should be:
alone, outcasted, rejected by society, possibly an orphan looking for a purpose in life (so exactly like him)
completely devoted to him
Which you can see by yourself that this isnât exactly how a friendship should work. The friend exactly like you can still work, but the friend completely devoted to you who should do everything you want⌠well, thatâs not a friend. Thatâs not even a pet, because even pets do not follow you around with such lavish adoration.
But somehow, in the vastity of the Multiverse, Bill managed to find some friends. And oh boy, what friends:
Pyronica is a beauty queen AND she has a twin sister AND she dated Hectorgon. Cool, but not enough. I need details. But, like, a lot. Her entire story would suffice (maybe).
Amorphous Shape is invisible to most of the Henchmaniacs. How? Why? Who is she, really? Where is she from? Where is her backstory? Why isnât it here? I need it here.
Hectorgon was a goddamn sheriff and Bill just throws it like that?! I want his backstory too! I want to know everything about him!
Keyhole hates Pyronica? Why? What happened? Where is all the juicy gossip, Bill? We need the gossip!
And most importantly: a certain someone was part of Billâs gang. Someone with a photo that has been covered, but itâs still partially visible. And as soon as I saw it, I jumped up on my bed and asked: âWait⌠is this Jheselbraum?!â
The answer is yes and thisisnotawebsite confirmed it: she was one of Billâs Henchmaniacs. And now the right question is: how much do you want The Book of Jheselbraum, from 1 to 10?
I mean:
In the partially crossed-out part about her in TBOB, Bill says she figured something related to dimensions
In the shaman page (TBOB) there is a code: WHICH HENCHMANIAC RATTED ME OUT
In Journal 3, Ford has been saved by her, who sucked him out of the 2D world of Exwhylia
Jheselbraum told Ford that Billâs âthirst for power caused him to destroy his home dimension - including his parents and everyone else heâd ever knownâ (Journal 3)
Still in Journal 3, Ford says she spoke of Bill âwithout anger, but with a calm, steely, clinical resolve to see his reign of terror endâ.
In addition to that, let me add this part from thisisnotawebsitedotcom under the code TANTRUM:
I KNOW YOUR CRIMES, CIPHER. TAKING A NEW HOME WILL NOT MAKE UP FOR THE ONE YOUâVE LOST. WHAT YOU DID TO THE COUNTLESS SOULS OF EUCLYDIA- Cipher stopped in his tracks. YOU CHOOSE YOUR WORDS VERY. CAREFULLY. Ciphers henchmen murmured amongst each other, confused. They seemed to have heard conflicting stories about Billâs past. âYou said you liberated the people of your dimension-â LIBERATED THEM FROM THEIR BODIES! DONT LISTEN TO HIM! HEâS A BABY!
Can you see how HUGE the potential is?
What I believe for now is that:
Jheselbraum figured out what Bill really did to his home dimension (i.e. destroying everything and not âliberatingâ it, as he said to his Henchmaniacs)
She started to actively find ways to stop him from doing the same thing again
She âratted him outâ with Billâs new potential puppets on Earth
Bill found out she didnât just rat him out, but found out the truth about Euclydia too and thatâs what led to her escaping
She settled closer to a 2D world - maybe to learn more about Bill, maybe because she knew Ford wouldâve appeared there
And speaking of that, we have the message on thisisnotawebsitedotcom under the code SEVENEYES:
This is something someone else wrote to her. Someone who told her to escape to a crossed-out Dimension (who guesses that the crossed-out thing was the number 52?). Someone who told her it was against the rules, but it was also the only way to escape him (aka Bill).
And from her code, you can find out the other criminals found new homes as well.
In other words, we have a hidden spy story, in which someone helped Jheselbraum escape from Bill and, in turn, she helped all others escape Bill.
If you donât want a book about her, about her story as Billâs henchmaniac and about this whole thing, you are a huge. Fucking. Liar.
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And with that, letâs close part 1 of this umpteenth endless analysis. The next one will come soon and it will be all about Billford.
Yes, I know I already talked about Billford here, but we still havenât talked about the details in TBOB and Billâs perspective on it. Also, itâs always nice to talk about Billford.
See you soon~
-> Next post
(How about a coffee? â)
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It's official, I'm obsessed
One thing I've always loved about Bill Cipher is the kind of body horror he handles, for the same reason that it's a series for children, they never put anything too explicitâŚBUT!- The fact that he finds pain âfunâ and thanks to the content of the book gives me a lot of ideas.
It's our own little warm, cozy beautiful đď¸âđ¨ď¸hellđď¸âđ¨ď¸
I gave up at the end,,,WHY DOES THE QUALITY LOOK SO HORRENDOUS? AAAAAAAAAAAAA
Guys, I want to draw human Bill sooooo bad,,,,but I can't help but imagine him as a twink.... Am I abandoning my values? đđđ
A knight filled with rage
HERE IT IS WITHOUT THE TEXT BECAUSE IT LOOKS JUST AS COOL
Me rn
HIIIIII THIS IS A SONG THING!!1!1!1!1
FIRST OF ALL I LOVE YOUR FIC, I'VE GOT MY FRIENDS TIRED OF ALL THE YAPPING I DO ABOUT YOUR FIC đđđ
Sooo this song that I hear repeatedly while reading your fic reminds me a lot of Sonic,,, in some ways Shadow too but I'm not sure which one I lean more towards
https://youtu.be/M7_8H1UWQKE?si=vGNLJ4v9R920w9tj
omg bgvhefnjmk thank you that's so flattering ;.;
You might have found the fic's actual theme song. Wow LOL
"If I had waited, nothing would have happened - Nothing would have gone the way I wanted" reminds me a lot of the inner thoughts Sonic had at the beginning of the fic, where he didn't want to take initiative because he was too chicken to ask Shadow directly about his feelings. Then we have him getting corrupted, becoming a bit more impulsive, and he realizes that without this change he wouldn't have gotten what he wanted. 'Nothing would have happened'.
"I wanna climb inside - Be someone impolite - Wanna eat you alive - Should I, should I, should I? - Should I?"
I can't go too into this yet, but know I'm applying it to both hedgies and it's just... :> Very fun!!
"I answer - To words I won't remember - The slow surrender - A feeling like no other"
Man........ Man..... Wish I could tell you what this reminds me of for a future chapter....
I have been sitting here since 5 o'clock,,,, I have not made any progress,,, send help.
Something small I did to warm up and practice my perspective a bit :]
sorry nana, I had to...
The world must listen...
LET'S MAKE IT LOUD!!!
Miku... save me... Miku Save me Miku
I also like it without the lights :]
Look at her
so pretty