♡ 19 | vent blog | tw suicide, obsessive love, stalking, gore | diagnosed bpd she/her
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I wish i could have a normal crush... but no, my brain wants to worship every little detail of you until it drives me insane
You ever read something and it just feels like a gut punch? Yikes.
me irl
are you thinking about me? think about me. think about me think about me think about me think about me thinkaboutme
I would kill to hear you talk to me the way I talk to you. To see you get obsessed and possessive with me. To hear you tell me I belong to you and you alone. I want you to get jealous when someone gets too close to me. I want you to want to monopolize my time. I’d willingly spend all my time with you anyway so that’d be easy hehe.
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being a slut but only for this one man who is completly obsessed with me and looks like he could murder me in one sec >>>>>
NEED a man to be absolutely psycho obsessed with me. Jerk off to my photos. Micromanage me and control every aspect of my life. Get upset when I talk to other guys. Call me fat and ugly and force me to change just so im more attractive to you.
Do anything you want to me, im just a toy for you to mess with