Rebloging To Remind Myself I’m Not Alone

People see me with my cane and compare me to Viktor when they really should be comparing me to House.

I’m just as insufferable and even more mentally ill

And unlike Viktor, I don’t regret my attempts of ascending into godhood, I actually embrace my grandiose thoughts and ideas with open arms.

And more than that— the homoerotic relationship I have with my rival/partner will NEVER be gentle nor healthy

How We Love

*a poem of love from someone who has never been close to it*

You love with the same fervernece Of a starved man who has been Gifted with the promise of food Sitting mere feet away.

You are all bite an snarl, You push and shove To the finish line; Your eyes trained on the flesh In front of you.

I too was hungry. You were not the only one Who was withheld lifes simple Pleasures.

I too was left to chew At the inside of my cheek To slow the decay of my skin.

I know what it feels like To cut away pieces of your body Just to feel whole.

Yet you keep taking from me; Living under the assumption That leaving my skin bitten, broken And bruised, used up from your ventures, Is an act of love, and not one Shaped from your depravity.

When I laid my body bare for you That night while the world screamed Beyond the four walls of your quiet, Cluttered room, I thought you saw how our Eyes where blurred red from the same travasties.

Naivety has always been my downfall.

It was my undoing believing you knew that We were scarred from the same knife--rather, It was careless of me to assume you would hold it in consideration before serrading me once more.

But,

With my body cut open, My blood seeping into your sheets, claiming ownership in the one place you called home, I think the hunger that had been gnawing At my insides, long before you knew me, began to subside.

There is a power in knowing You come to me to feel worthy Of being human again. That it is my body, my being That is the foundation of your Sense of self.

So I will stay quiet while your feast, I will not cry while you dismember me. I will wait, watching red stain creme cotton In a halo around us and build myself From the remnants you left, and hold you While you struggle to understand the fullness.

For this is how I love.

The marineford arc can easily be summed up as

“Oh, Ace is THE losing dog, and he’s got too many ppl betting on him right now….”

I love to headcanon that with modern zolu, Luffy is always filming, they give me late 90s early 2000s home video vibes. From birthdays, vacations, home renovations, holidays—to when Luffy just thinks Zoro looks pretty—he’s gonna film it.

hi guys, can I ask what's your current favorite zolu headcanon?

When talking abt Rin’s and Saes meeting after four years, I don’t see a lot of people talk about what Sae said to Rin about Spain

Sae changed his dream to being the best midfielder, him being the first to use the comment that he was “half-baked” and that Rin didn’t understand what it was like beyond Japan.

Sae is made out to be bitter and cold to Rin, and I agree that what he said to Rin was harsh, it’s clear from the flashbacks that Sae is very protective of Rin, so it wouldn’t make sense for him to switch on a dime.

Sae doesn’t want Rin to have the same dream as him, even saying in response that he should quit if his passion for soccer was reliant on Sae and him being the best.

The impression I got from Sae is that he doesn’t want Rin to follow his path, to live in his shadow because something happened in Spain that changed Sae and he doesn’t want that for Rin. Sae is saying not to follow him, to make his own path, that the one he’s on isn’t one he wants for his brother.

(Think of Itachi to Sasuke it feels like the exact same doomed sibling dynamic)

Sae is pushing Rin away, pushing away his soccer dream bc he doesn’t want him to do it for Sae, to do it in his shadow, because the path he followed isn’t one he should see.

And when we think about why Sae teamed up with Shidou and not Rin, the simplest way I can put it is it’s bc Shidou matched Saes freak. Shidou, for reasons we don’t know yet, is just as fucked as Sae (TRUST, they r the same freak different font)

Anyways….Sae isn’t a complete asshole, I mean yeah, he’s said some rough things to Rin but I think ppl r focusing on the wrong things in the reunion of the two brothers

Either way tho doomed siblings r gonna ruin me

It’s so strange

I can never fully express what it’s like living with a tbi and the recovery, nothing ever sounds right, all the words feel wrong.

It’s like I’m transcribing a language dead and gone, all the words I have to say you don’t understand, you don’t have the words for what I felt, you don’t have any conjugations or phrases that equate to my grief. so I’m just left saying,

“It was bad”

Zoro does care about Luffy and his newly acquired form, but in the way he's been caring since his captain started with his gears. he cares because he has to know the side effects and how they affect Luffy. Luffy is a God, but that isn't news for Zoro, not when he's been holy from the very start. if Zoro fought for Luffy, if he left light kisses on his cheeks and hugged him as tightly as possible whenever they have to separate and will bite him and let him wear his shirts to sleep, and if he prays by helping him whenever he wants to do something stupid, and if he prays when he lets Luffy drag him everywhere like he's a ragdoll, and if he prays every single time he wakes up next to him. if Zoro believes so strongly in him, it's because he's holy in the way he's human, in the way he's strong all the while he is able to bleed, how he's able to laugh and cry, the way he gets angry on behalf of his friends when you hurt them, a man who frees and helps and yet hates when they call him a hero, he's reckless and makes mistakes, he's greedy and possessive, and he learns, he gets better, he's not the same person he was two years ago and he won't the same as he is now two years into the future. Luffy is a God, Zoro cares about this fact, in the way he's been caring for a long time now because it's not new for him, in the way he will care while he makes sure his captain can get what he wants

I’ve come to absolutely love the cowboy/western Narusasu au.

At first I was like “nah I don’t really see it”

And then I listened to I’m your’n by Tyler Childers and my little narusasu brain went BAM!

JUST PICTURE THIS: Naruto humming along to I’m Your’n in his pickup truck (obv) with his cowboy hat and orange t-shirt that he always buys a size too small so it excentiates his muscles (and bc he knows sasuke loves it), tapping his thumb against the steering wheel, passing glances to Sasuke who sits in the passenger seat. Sasuke rolls his eyes playfully but holds on tight to the hand Naruto reaches over to him and looks out the window at the endless fields.

Like….

Naruto in a cowboy hat and Sasuke making fun of it but in reality it drives him crazy when Naruto gives the hat a tilt with his infamous smirk

Naruto being raised as a farm hand throughout the small town, Sasuke being from a well known ranch

Naruto watching brokeback mountain one night and then realizing “oh, oh”

THE POSSIBILITIES

Getting blood work done for PCOS bc all my life I’ve had extremely irregular/non existent periods, painful symptoms and extreme lows during times I thought would be my period but nothing happened, along with thicker body hair.

For YEARS. No one believed me when I said something felt wrong, that this was all normal. Advocate the fuck out of yourself, be annoying and push for doctor referrals.

Menstruating shouldn’t be extremely irregular and painful.

Again,

MENSTRUATING SHOULDN’T BE IRREGULAR AND PAINFUL!!!

fuck anyone who’s says that that’s normal, ur body is not fulfilling a cleaning cycle, it’s like pulling up old laundry. That shouldn’t happen.

If u feel like something in your body doesn’t feel right speak up about it. You know your body best, don’t let ppl diminish that.

the worms in my brain won today, here's a sukume sketch based on this reference photo