Being A Social Airhead

I think I'll use this line. It is a groaner but still a good one.

Something to study while listening to Bambi brainwashing.

blank empty brainwashed stupid happy horny obedient sleepy bimbo slut

Here’s another spiral!

Do any of you remember the modern movie version of "The Taming of the Shrew"?

Thy husband is thy lord, thy life, thy keeper, Thy head, thy sovereign; one that cares for thee, And for thy maintenance commits his body To painful labour both by sea and land, To watch the night in storms, the day in cold, Whilst thou liest warm at home, secure and safe; And craves no other tribute at thy hands But love, fair looks, and true obedience- Too little payment for so great a debt.

  (The Taming of the Shrew; Katherine’s Final Speech: Act 5, Scene 2) 

The Female Pavlovian Response

When dealing with animals, short, memorable commands such as “sit,” “stay,” and “come” are always best.

Do your traditional girl the same favour.  Instead of saying “come sit down next to me and relax,” try patting the seat next to you while saying, “sit.”

You’d be surprised how easily she complies.

-VIS

The benefits of edging. It sneaks up on you and makes you be what you fantasize being.

It will start with you wanting to look pretty.

It will develop into pleasing your man.

It will grow into the desire to be owned and collared.

You want to be completely controlled.

You want to be micro-managed.

You want each and every decision to be removed. 

How I became a good girl and stopped cumming

When I met my Master, he didn't know he was a master, nor did I know I was a sub. We had both been in vanilla relationships before. I toyed a bit with BDSM sometimes, but it never played a big part in my life. Neither of us had ever heard about denial.

To me, nothing in the world felt better than an orgasm. I had lots of them. Lots and lots. With previous partners I was annoyed with how fast they came (although I didn't complain). I always gave myself numerous orgasms after a partner had cum, because no one could give me better orgasms than me.

I met my Master online. The first time of our relationship we couldn't see each other often, so nearly all of our contact was online. That was hard, but we knew we were made for each other. The good thing about it was that we talked a lot. We trusted each other, and dared to share fantasies we had always kept for ourselves, because previous partners wouldn't have understood them. That's how our D/s relationship started. Over time he became my protecting Daddy and sadistic Master. Just what I needed.

The idea that my Master would control my orgasms turned me on. We agreed that I would cum only when he told me to, and whenever he told me to. I was able to cum by using my fingers, a toy, or just my thoughts. Even his words could be enough to cum. We both loved this game. I learned not to touch myself unless he told me to, which was both very hard and very hot. Sometimes he told me to cum 20 times a day.

But then he wondered what would happen if he would make me cum less. I was shocked. Cum less? What a terribly mean idea, it made me cum on the spot. Could he really do this to me? He could. I went from 20 orgasms a day to 20 a month. I was so frustrated and so aroused all the time. When he gave me permission to cum, it felt so good to finally cum again. When I didn't have permission to cum, it made me feel weirdly proud that I was able to edge and not tip over.

Then the time came that I wasn't happy anymore when he told me to cum. I only did it because he told me to, but I didn't feel like a good, strong, pure, horny girl anymore after cumming. It didn't feel good.

In the beginning I was very proud of not cumming for a week, a month (which seemed almost impossible!), a half year. It seemed a shame to cum again after such a long time. My Master sometimes asked me if I still was okay with this, and yes, I was, I was eager to be the best at not cumming. He never told me 'maybe I'll let you cum if you do this or that', and I was grateful for that. An orgasm would not feel like a reward. I prefer to have his cum as a reward (I guess this is what denial did to me). Nowadays he tells me he doesn't want me to cum anymore, and hearing his words 'just let it fade away, this is not for you' makes my edges even more intense.

The never-ending arousal is addictive, and my frustration from edging is a huge turn-on for my Master (and yes, also for me, though it feels so terrible at the same time). And oh gosh, what a submissive girl I became. My Master cums for the both of us, and I love it. Pleasing him is now the best thing there is, and because he learned himself to edge at a young age, he is able to last long, so I can enjoy him for a long time before he finally gives me my reward, his cum. It made our bond so strong. We were both easily distracted by others with previous partners, but we've been together for years now and still crave each other so much. We can give each other what we need.

When I started this journey, I couldn't find any information on what denial would do for me in the long term. Would it harm me? Would it do me good? I can imagine that more girls, women have the same question. I haven't cum for 5,5 years now. It didn't harm me at all. It made me strong, focused, confident, incredibly horny and submissive to my Master. And I like that a lot.

And my body became so sensitive. For example, before I started experimenting with denial, my breasts weren't sensitive at all. It's incredible how that has changed. I can edge by rubbing spots between my breasts, above my tailbone, on the top of my head. It's like having clits all over my body. I know, it sounds a bit strange, but it feels so good, and just imagine how much fun it is for my Master.

I let my Master control my orgasms, which meant that I had to learn to control myself better. Maybe self-control doesn't sound sexy, but it made my sex life better, and it made me more confident in other aspects of my life.

Do I think I'd still be able to cum? Yes, I do. I don't know what an orgasm feels like anymore (that thought arouses me), but I think I'd still be able to have one if I really wanted to.

But why would I?

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