@mi1ikan Bsd analysations are scary but also amazing
Doing my usual "lets go back and read random BSD chapters" and I can't help but notice how different Fyodor is now to when he was first introduced.
I've made a few posts pointing out how Fyodor and Dazai have similar panels, but I'm starting to think he's actually mimicking Dazai's mannerisms on purpose now.
I don't have a lot of canon proof other than, ~a feeling~, I get looking at him, so consider this a headcanon rather than a theory.
Warning Manga spoilers under the cut!
Like, Fyodor, why does this keep happening??? Fyodor's versions of these poses also all happen later in the manga than Dazai's versions.
Now, there's the argument that Fyodor wasn't there for half of these, but we do know he's a hacker and he was obsessed with Dazai for a time. I do believe he would just sit there watching Dazai's movements on cameras to learn his patterns and habits in the name of defeating him.
Compare how he holds himself now, to how he did when he was first introduced.
He's a shut in who bites his nails, doesn't take care of his posture or appearance. He's so used to being behind the curtains he's off putting to be directly around.
Whereas Dazai is a chameleon, he blends in anywhere he goes. If I was an immortal so out of touch with my own humanity and basic identity, I probably pick someone to mimic their behaviours too.
Ironic that he choose the man who doesn't consider himself human to learn from.
I'm also drawn to this panel specifically.
(Very suspicious choice of words there, considering the current manga arc, but I digress)
Typically when we think of vampires, we think of blood sucking immortals, but the vampire we have in BSD is based of Dracula. Dracula specifically poses the question of "What if vampires stole who you are as well?". The idea that you can't consume someone's very life without having their soul linger on with you.
The Count learns to blend in with modern society through Johnathan, from learning from him and by feeding off him. Mina, Renfield and Lucy all slowly lose who they are the more influence the Count has over them.
This panel says he's soulless, he's 'empty', he's a vampire waiting to steal someone else's soul to fill him up. Now, that could be a hint at what his ability turned out to be, but it could also mean how he's mimicking Dazai.
But why mimic Dazai?
Well, simply put, he was the only one Fyodor saw as an equal and we know he wanted a companion who he considered to be his equal. So why not make himself more like the man he wants at his side. To obtain Dazai, he became Dazai.
Problem is Dazai hates himself, he also seems to dislike any character that's convinced they are the same. (Note: Not characters Dazai sees himself in, like Atsushi, but characters who insist to him that they are the same, like Mori and Fyodor)
It was a doomed plot from the start.
However, Dazai is no longer his goal. Atsushi is. Fyodor knows Atsushi greatly admires Dazai, so continuing to mimic Dazai's mannerisms to connect them together in Atsushi's mind could be part of his plan now.
I made a lengthy list of Taylor Swift songs that fit characters/relationships from bsd, and I wanted to explain deeper about some of the songs listed there :]
I Can Do It With a Broken Heart for Fyolai really fits to me. It's from Nikolai's pov, and I think it describes his character around Fyodor very well
"'Cause I'm a real tough kid, I can handle my shit
They said, "Babe, you gotta fake it till you make it" and I did
Lights, camera, bitch smile, even when you wanna die
He said he'd love me all his life
But that life was too short
Breaking down, I hit the floor
All the pieces of me shattered as the crowd was chanting "More"
I was grinning like I'm winning, I was hitting my marks
'Cause I can do it with a broken heart (one, two, three, four)
I'm so depressed, I act like it's my birthday every day
I'm so obsessed with him but he avoids me like the plague
I cry a lot but I am so productive, it's an art
You know you're good when you can even do it
With a broken heart"
I just can't over how much this fits them. Nikolai hiding everything behind his emotional mask, how one-sided his relationship with Fyodor is, his obsession with Fyodor and his persistenceΒ
Ever since I first heard this song way back on April 19th 2024 (my life changed that day π), I've thought this was just such a Fyolai-esque song :>Β
Atsushi asked "why did you save me?"
Akutagawa wondered "why did you protect me?"
And that's just...sad
It's sad that they're so doubtful of the other's feelings. Atsushi doesn't feel like he deserves to be loved, and although he's connected to Akutagawa and they have a trust that runs deeper than words, I think he's scared that Akutagawa doesn't care for him, and he doubts and doubts and doubts
We don't know the full canon reason on why Akutagawa saved Atsushi, but we know it's because he *cares*, but Atsushi doesn't know that yet
I don't think that Atsushi doubts Akutagawa's strength or abilities, or his capacity to care for others. I think Atsushi doubts how lovable he himself is, he thinks he's not worth loving, not worth anything
And it's similar with Akutagawa, he probably thinks whatever he feels towards Atsushi is one-sided, and maybe he even fears that Atsushi hates him (although he obviously doesn't π)
They've been abused and traumatized emotionally so much that I think it's hard for them to realize how much they care for and about each other
I'm sure there will eventually be a chapter or two where Atsushi and Akutagawa can finally talk, and I can't wait for that because it'll really show their combined perspective on who are they are together
God they're so in love
Asagiri why do you do this to me
Now every time I hear the word "fool" I go into cardiac arrest. Thank you, chapter 121.5
Akutagawa, that's kinda sus
Bsd cats!! β‘
Taylor accepting the 2025 iHeart Radio Music Award for Tour of the Century
Do not fucking even try the argument "but Akutagawa hates Atsushi" with me
I will only respond with these panels. And probably an entire essay on their entire relationship but still
oh he loves him
OH HE LOVES HIM SO MUCH
Akutgawa watching Atsushi βfindβ his missing shoes after moving them to a more obvious spot for the 80th time that morning: My detective β€οΈπ₯°
Atsushi, smiling really bashfully:
Dazai, lazing on their couch, slept on the balcony bc he lost his dorm key and Kunikida refused to let him back in: Gross. Fucking disgusting. I was expecting some interesting shit not this bs wtf.
Atsushi: WHAT THE FUCK-
IT'S ππ BECAUSE ππ HE LOVES ππ YOU!!!!! πππππ
Can anyone be more dense omg I can't with these two
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