[Neon Speaking] Doodled This In The Middle Of The Night For/with Our Fortnite Headmates Because Theres

[Neon speaking] remembered I made these gifs of garn because most gifs about garn47 are gifs of car and not enough of the lean green slapping machine so here

[Neon speaking] We took parts of our old username, I took the first part of it as my name because people called me it all the time online and it stuck, and our system was named the other part of the username, mirage. It got more meaning over the years for us because of our disconnect with reality and our memories at times, with memories and some experiences with reality feeling like a mirage, unclear as to if they're real or not. irl we just get called the body's name in most circumstances though, and we're comfortable with it usually

How do people come up with system and collective names?

[Neon speaking] I've acquired many forms since I first showed up a few years ago, but I first showed up in my dragon form, pictured above! Dragons where I came from very often had more than one set of eyes. As for the scar on my face, its something I got when I was a fairly young dragonet, another larger dragon was chasing me out of their territory. Us dragons could speak in various tongues but often when communicating with other dragons we communicated by broadcasting our emotions and ideas to one another via magic. Also, all dragons where I came from were the same sex, which was neither male nor female.

I really love the variety of dragons within the alterhuman community :} it's awesome how we all have so many different colours, builds, behaviours, origins, etc, how 'dragon' encapsulates such a large group of animals!! Dragon friends, if you'd like to share, I'd love to hear about you/your 'type/your identity in a reblog or reply!! ⭐️

[Neon speaking] update: i binged learning the fortnite lore until like 4am last night and my head hurts so much. but also our autism for fortnite has been strengthened immensely i LOVE fortnite sm even if the story is messy and hard to follow sometimes!!

thats not to say its perfect in any way oh my god does it have issues

[Neon speaking] doodled this in the middle of the night for/with our fortnite headmates because theres many things in the fortnite lore that confuse us or we just. remember differently lol

only person not in our system is the jonesy, he's in our partner system

[Neon speaking] Drew these for a headmate who showed up when we started playing Project Remix, figured I'd share since there's not a lot of stuff for Project Remix here :P

[Neon speaking] its kinda weird to me that the dsm-5 criteria for ptsd requires trauma from physical danger, when we have trauma from a butt load of other shit that just. doesn't count in the eyes of the dsm? its mostly confusing that only physical danger counts to ptsd but everything else is otherwise specified trauma disorder, when the name is post traumatic stress disorder, and traumatic stress can come from so many different things

idk i just wanted to ramble about that cuz it doesn't make sense to me

[Neon speaking] Coining another term as I explore my experience :P

Flightdraconic is a gender that relates to how it feels to be a draconic being while flying. It can relate to the feeling of the wind on one's scales, how the action of flying feels in one's draconic body, or any other variation of experiencing flight while being draconic, be it fluttering around in a meadow or straining against the winds of a storm.

[Neon speaking] Some various thoughts and rambling about how much I like to catalog things about our system and my experience being front

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I've started the painstaking process of cataloging/moving information about our 400+ member system from where we've been keeping it since our awakening (discord), to plain files and folders on our computer, and good god this is going to take a WHILE.

I'm having to remind myself that the template for information on each person doesn't HAVE to be filled out all the way, because sometimes specific details just don't exist ^^' but I do love having completed lists...

Related, I had the idea of making a form/survey that new headmates could fill out with basic information they know about themselves as a possible grounding activity, and partially because I like having things to put in their profile and not having to bug them later or when they're fronting. I'm the host and front like. 98% of the time, so when someone else does actually front our brain is VERY determined to keep me fully awake the entire time, as much as I wish I could go to sleep for a bit like most of the others do when not fronting. It usually leads to dysphoria and confusion for the others fronting when my train of thought is treated as a priority and just does not stop. I've considered that I may need to invest some time into in system communication and facilitating even small short switches to get our brain used to others being awake and talking again, because a few years ago we switched far more and felt more comfortable doing it. It was a much more stressful time for us so I suspect thats why, but we still miss it.

[Neon speaking] OOO THATS SO COOL THANK YOU!!! yummy art i EAT it!! hehehe

[Neon speaking] Howdy! I saw yalls mention that requests were open and figured I'd request smthn, specifically whatever yous would like to draw of the form I showed up in a few years ago, that being a dragon :] whatever is drawn i know i will cherish it.

Hey, here you go! We absolutely love your colours.... Enjoy the pic.

[THIS IS A REQUEST, DO NOT USE UNLESS YOU ARE THE INTENDED RECIPIENT]

Program: Firealpaca Approx. Time: 30m Original Date: 13.04.25 Commission/Trade/Collab status in bio/pinned! Art Of: Neon of @mirage-system (System Member Artist: Shrapnel)

[Neon speaking] drawd... the jonesy

i love him so much my heart hurts