[Neon Speaking] Coining Another Term As I Explore My Experience :P

[Neon speaking] I've acquired many forms since I first showed up a few years ago, but I first showed up in my dragon form, pictured above! Dragons where I came from very often had more than one set of eyes. As for the scar on my face, its something I got when I was a fairly young dragonet, another larger dragon was chasing me out of their territory. Us dragons could speak in various tongues but often when communicating with other dragons we communicated by broadcasting our emotions and ideas to one another via magic. Also, all dragons where I came from were the same sex, which was neither male nor female.

I really love the variety of dragons within the alterhuman community :} it's awesome how we all have so many different colours, builds, behaviours, origins, etc, how 'dragon' encapsulates such a large group of animals!! Dragon friends, if you'd like to share, I'd love to hear about you/your 'type/your identity in a reblog or reply!! ⭐️

[Neon speaking] doodled this in the middle of the night for/with our fortnite headmates because theres many things in the fortnite lore that confuse us or we just. remember differently lol

only person not in our system is the jonesy, he's in our partner system

[Neon speaking] Decided to coin a gender term because I couldn't find one that fit part of my experience!

Swimdraconic is a gender that relates to how it feels to be a draconic being while swimming. It can relate to the feeling of water on one's scales, how the action of swimming feels in one's draconic body, or any other variation of experiencing being in the water while being draconic, be it in a calm pond or strong currents in the ocean.

[Neon speaking]

I'm having a strong velociraptor shift (jurassic park specifically) at the moment and it feels great, EXCEPT the feelings of the upraised talons on my feet 'clipping' into things, and having extra fingers that feel extremely out of place ):/ not to mention how it feels like my tail is clipping through our clothes. grr

I love feeling more like myself but its so viscerally uncomfortable to feel like my body is stuck inside objects it can't even interact with physically

[Neon speaking] This is a great guide, and there's something I'd like to add/comment about to hopefully help!

For some people counting down can be distracting or stressful in it of itself, and may not work for some. If counting down is just distracting to have to focus on, having an audio of counting down either from youtube or recorded by oneself can be helpful, sort of like a guided meditation!

If counting down is stressful/scary because it feels like something bad is going to happen (nothing will), one could try switching to counting up instead! Starting at 1, by 10-20 visualizing oneself, 30-60 listening to see if anyone is getting your attention, etcetera detailed in the post above.

It's important to cater to one's own individual needs/a system's needs, remember you can adapt guides to how you need them, while being aware of the base guide itself. Good luck! :]

The DIY Headspace guide is finally done! This is a neat little guide for designing your own space. Here is the Pinterest board I am maintaining, if you are having trouble typing in the link yourself.

Please ask for permission (not on anon) to repost. Anyone can reblog this, just don’t remove the caption. Thank you.

[Neon speaking] drawd... the jonesy

i love him so much my heart hurts

[Neon speaking] update: i binged learning the fortnite lore until like 4am last night and my head hurts so much. but also our autism for fortnite has been strengthened immensely i LOVE fortnite sm even if the story is messy and hard to follow sometimes!!

thats not to say its perfect in any way oh my god does it have issues

[Neon speaking] doodled this in the middle of the night for/with our fortnite headmates because theres many things in the fortnite lore that confuse us or we just. remember differently lol

only person not in our system is the jonesy, he's in our partner system

dr coomer hlvrai tells mr john ward faith about his hyperfixation

[Neon speaking] Some various thoughts and rambling about how much I like to catalog things about our system and my experience being front

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I've started the painstaking process of cataloging/moving information about our 400+ member system from where we've been keeping it since our awakening (discord), to plain files and folders on our computer, and good god this is going to take a WHILE.

I'm having to remind myself that the template for information on each person doesn't HAVE to be filled out all the way, because sometimes specific details just don't exist ^^' but I do love having completed lists...

Related, I had the idea of making a form/survey that new headmates could fill out with basic information they know about themselves as a possible grounding activity, and partially because I like having things to put in their profile and not having to bug them later or when they're fronting. I'm the host and front like. 98% of the time, so when someone else does actually front our brain is VERY determined to keep me fully awake the entire time, as much as I wish I could go to sleep for a bit like most of the others do when not fronting. It usually leads to dysphoria and confusion for the others fronting when my train of thought is treated as a priority and just does not stop. I've considered that I may need to invest some time into in system communication and facilitating even small short switches to get our brain used to others being awake and talking again, because a few years ago we switched far more and felt more comfortable doing it. It was a much more stressful time for us so I suspect thats why, but we still miss it.

[Neon speaking] OOO THATS SO COOL THANK YOU!!! yummy art i EAT it!! hehehe

[Neon speaking] Howdy! I saw yalls mention that requests were open and figured I'd request smthn, specifically whatever yous would like to draw of the form I showed up in a few years ago, that being a dragon :] whatever is drawn i know i will cherish it.

Hey, here you go! We absolutely love your colours.... Enjoy the pic.

[THIS IS A REQUEST, DO NOT USE UNLESS YOU ARE THE INTENDED RECIPIENT]

Program: Firealpaca Approx. Time: 30m Original Date: 13.04.25 Commission/Trade/Collab status in bio/pinned! Art Of: Neon of @mirage-system (System Member Artist: Shrapnel)