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a bit of a personal post. taps chin. because i've been feeling highly insecure for an unspecified amount of time and so i thought i'd make an appreciation post !

putting this in big bold letters: PROSHIP DNI

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shoutout to selfshippers with bottling problems and/or tendencies. to those of us who keep our feelings locked up inside until it pops and pours out when we least want it to. to those of us who bottle so much to keep others feeling happy. to the selfshippers who are so scared to voice anything about how they feel because they've experienced negative reactions from those they've trusted, just by voicing their emotions.

shoutout to selfshippers who can't properly gush because they often feel like a nuisance to others. whether it's the kinda gushing that's about your f/o's lore, your f/o in general, your selfships— to those of us who find it weird and at times a bit uncomfortable to gush because we're so used to feeling like a nuisance. or that we won't even be given the time of day to have our stuff acknowledged.

shoutout to selfshippers who are genuinely not understood. who's reactions at times are viewed as unnecessary or overdramatic or illogical for reacting the way we do when we're scared of opening up.

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your f/o(s) wouldn't treat you like that. they'd listen to you oh so intently, to whatever you'd have to say.

if you've been bottling for so long, whether it's emotions or interests, your f/o(s) wouldn't let you keep that up. they'd gently encourage you to express yourself, even if it starts out small. they reassure you that they won't get mad about speaking your mind, that're you're not an asshole for how you feel, especially if your f/o(s) understand what cause your reactions and why you keep things inside.

your f/o(s) will do everything in their power to make you feel safe in being you, you who expresses yourself, just like every human should be allowed to.

I've literally been reduced to burnout so many times for this exact reason, it's so unbelievably awful.

The amount of times I've wanted to write out all of my headcanons, story ideas, world concepts, and what-have-you's and then all of it suddenly just... Vanishes. No words. Nothing. Completely blank. All because I can't get over the innate fear (and expectation) of, "This person doesn't actually care. They're just waiting for me to stop talking so they can divert the subject to something else as quickly as possible." And it's just so heartbreaking to watch my own passion be doused and deflate in real-time.

Sometimes, I wish I could seriously relate to someone else who has the same level of fixation on my niche interests that I do, understands it, and has genuine care for me whilst participating, but I haven't really gotten that click with someone, yet. I still feel pretty alone in the things I fixate on, but I'm trying to enjoy it more in my own time! 👍🏻

that feeling of wanting to talk about hyperfixations/special interests to someone but not knowing how to put it into words anymore after a lifetime of being told "shut up no one cares stop talking about the things you like" By literally everyone in your life and learning to completely suppress that part of yourself into numbness

❥ For those of you with more cynical and highly intelligent f/os, like scientists or doctors and other things along those lines. Imagine them wholeheartedly believing that love is just some chemical reaction in the brain and nothing more than that, thinking anyone who believes otherwise is a fool. Then you come into their life, and oh fuck, their feelings for you are making them question everything they've ever known, finding themselves questioning how the universe itself works. Science be damned, you were made for them, and they know it even if they're too embarrassed to outright say it. You made them want to believe that love is something so much more than they had thought, something to deeply cherish always. You're their soulmate, their special person that they didn't even know they needed, but now that they have you, they can't bear to imagine a life without you in it.

(Pro/Comshippers + Neutrals fuck off! This post ain’t for you!)

self shipping will have you reading their wiki page again and again and again and again and

Ok, so the kids at my school keep changing the backgrounds in the computer lab:

So I put this as one of the backgrounds

Yesterday, I found that someone changed my background to something soccer related, so just to mess around with them, I put this

Today, I looked at all the computers around me, plus my computer and

You children…………..

You are playing a dangerous game.

hating on x reader fics is genuinely like. so weird to me .wowww someone wants to imagine dating a fictional character. wow someone did the mortal sin of pretending their fav loves them.. boo fucking hoo people are dying

Fulfilling my younger self's dreams by creating a Goosebumps OC that Slappy can pester 👌

The average Goosebumps experience (with the special bonus of autism)

i feel like being in a fandom long-term has a very specific repetitive cycle that kind of looks like this

if your selfships have 100 fans I am one of them, if your selfships have 10 fans I am one of them, if your selfships have 1 fan it is me, etc etc