A text post? From me? How strange... TW before you go ahead: This is a long rant. I swear a bit, and talk about some toxic stuff in the TSP fandom, and touch on some sensitive topics.
But no, really, I want to say this because I feel like it's getting more and more prevalent and I just feel like garbage every time I see stuff about it.
And first, let me preface that I understand where a lot of these people are coming from, I really really do, but honestly I think this is the shittest way to go about things.
What is this thing I am talking about? It's the "Yaoi" "Old man" "Clock 0ut ruined TSP" bullshit. Honestly it's got me so fucking irritated because this fandom has become one of very few things that brings me comfort lately.
And like I said I understand that representation in media is essential - skinny, white, attractive characters are literally what 90% of media is, we know this. So representation is important, essential, and everything when it comes to creators adding their stuff in. But that's where my agreement with that part of the argument stops.
90% of people are entitled to their ideas, their creations, their thoughts, all of it. They are an individual who absolutely deserves to express themselves and how they feel about something in whatever way they see fit.
You can bitch and complain all you want about the "twinks" and the "skinny white dudes" of the fandom, but you aren't going to stop it. Frankly all you're doing is making amazing artists and creators feel bad about the things they've done for no reason. You're bullying people who genuinely enjoy some media. Hell you're making me feel bad. And I won't say I'm not guilty of the "skinny handsome person" aesthetic or whatever, but:
What is making me not want to do art as a whole anymore are these fucking people constantly shitting on the other people in the fandom. It makes me not want to interact with their stuff, and I admire their things! I love them! But I don't want to see that shit, I don't need to see that shit. It makes me want to unfollow artists who create some wonderful things. Just because you have a certain take on media does not mean it is right nor does it mean that you are the only one who deserves to have any say in how things are made. You can be angry, you can not like media, it's okay to not like Clock 0ut and how it goes, but to suggest that someone shouldn't have made something that is arguably a pretty neat creation is ... sickening. You're literally gatekeeping what people can do because you don't like it.
You can argue that it hurts a fandom but honestly, other than the insane things I see on tiktok (Some of it IS horrifying, don't get me wrong) I have met many amazing creators that joined because of Clock 0ut who have the ability to analyze the depth of this game more than some of the people who claim that Clock 0ut has ruined it.
Not only that but they are wildly kinder people than those who constantly shit on others, people I'd rather be around.
Don't get me wrong I know Clock 0ut has spawned a lot of people who do a bit of harm to the fandom, but frankly that's going to happen with anything that becomes popular, it's just the way things are Look at Undertale...
I joined before I even knew what Clock 0ut was because of the dialogue and in depth nature of the media. I stayed because there are people who have encouraged me to be better, do better, and have become good friends of mine. I just think it's awful that this is becoming even more prevalent, and honestly I really just want to stop seeing it. TL;DR:
Fuck you and stop following me if you're just going to shit on people for enjoying media in the way that they do. There are bad people in every fandom, but just because someone doesn't do something the way you want them to does not mean that it is bad. Promote people who are doing what you want, and stop shitting on people doing nothing but enjoying something. Thank you if you read this far - I can't not say anything about it, especially when it's from people I respect or used to respect, and especially when it runs the risk of hurting people I care for or respect.
Ok I need to know if anyone else's brain chemistry changed from the countdown ending in the stanley parable
Every time I think about a bad hypothetical scenario where I would be near death, I think of when the narrator said smth like "will you spend your last minutes in fear and cling to your life? Or will you accept your fate peacefully?" And I've just never been the same
My dudes
Good Omens is taking over my brain
I really need to watch it instead of seeing clips on tiktok
Stanley is 5'10
Narrator is 5'9¾
Narrator is constantly fighting him about this, saying there's basically no difference, and telling him to stop bringing it up
Cue Stanley signing "short king energy"
Interview tmrw :D
Stanley parable au where the Narrator allows Stanley to escape his game, under the condition that he can still follow Stanley around and narrate whatever the hell he does
Noticed my tsp posts have been lacking bc I've been busier but it's still living in my brain rent free so I think that counts right
I should maybe come up with a tag for my more unrelated posts
Learning your limits with chronic pain is such a pain in the ass. Especially if you were very active before being blessed with your new condition.
So I have fibromyalgia and arthritis, and even though it's been well over a year since this initial flare took me down, I haven't quite gotten the hang of stopping before I make it worse. I am finally able to work/be active a few hours a day provided that there is sufficient time to lie down and rest between those hours. Even sitting upright counts as part of the "active hours".
Anyway, yesterday I worked, did my grocery shopping, put some of the groceries away, and organized some yarn. At some point, I was like oh I should make some calls today but I couldn't. I literally had no energy left. And I kept beating myself up over it. Like they're just phone calls, it's not hard, I can surely make a few phone calls and get them off my list. That was the loop on repeat in my head.
But then I was like wait, how do I feel in my body? What's happening in my body right now? When I checked in with my body, I realized that I was in more pain than I was aware of and had already gone slightly overboard on activity. That's when the loop in my head finally stopped and I laid down without any guilt.
I say all this because it's not fucking intuitive at all. Learning to adjust to your condition and energy level is a bitch and nobody really tells you how to do that. And most people will fight against it until they absolutely can't anymore, making their symptoms much worse than they would be on their own. Basically this is a learn from my mistakes post. I hope it helps someone out. ✌️
I wonder if I'll ever get to the bottom of all the fuckin things wrong with me