Ignore How Shitty It Is I Did It In Like 20 Mins But This Is Roughly About How I Would Go Abt It.

Something about Nicole’s suicide ending fills me with such indescribable sadness that I don’t know how to describe. The fact she’s just hanging there, the room was dark, the computer was on, the bed was not made, the whole house was dead silent. Don’t even get me SYARTED on the suicide note either:

“People are books, puzzles and pawns. In that order. First theyre read, then they’re figured out, then they’re persuaded”

People are read, figured out and persuaded as Nicole says herself, but theyre also open, confusing or difficult and gullible. In that order can be a reference to Nicole before the game, listing to her mom’s advice and being a “nice” child, but ending up being gullible and vulnerable in the end. Being confusing/difficult can be Nicole struggling to “fit in” in society, with the mindset and attitude she has.

“Some would call that wrongly manipulative but whats the alternative? Basically any advice my mom’s ever given me. “Dont be mean, don’t judge, be open,”,”

Nicole doesnt see another option besides manipulating people or being stupidly nice, with no in between. It shows the difference between how both of them think you should supposed ply act in society. Nicole thinks you should figure out how to change people to have control and ‘not get hurt’, whilst her mum thinks that you should be respectful, and - in Nicole’s eyes - vulnerable. An open target, really.

“And yeah sure but, that only works when men don’t wanna have sex with you. Be tolerant of guys who get off by choking you, no way that goes south.”

Nicole recognises that she CAN act like her mum says, she knows it’s an option, except she’s also aware that men do see woman as objects and things to stick their dicks in, and in a place where she is mostly interacting with men, it crosses it off as something she can do, because she knows if she does, she WILL get hurt. She’s aware that she’s supposed to ignore the warnings and calls it out but she’s also aware that she won’t be heard, by a majority of people.

“Whats wrong with a pizza delivery-boy with no career goals? Whens the last time you asked a pizza delivery-boy if he’s a rapist?”

I feel you can interpret this im different ways. I personally see it in two different lights - sarcastic (people like crispin are seen as people with no career goals, or realistic ones, and he’s most likely (obviously in Nicole’s eyes) a rapist, yet no one ever checks because they’re seen as less educated) and Nicole seeing no problem with ‘settling down’ with someone who doesn’t have a bright future ahead of him (idk I feel like this is a reach and doesnt make sense but this is the best I can describe what im thinking 😭)

“Theyre called warning signs, but ignoring them makes you a nice person. And one day, if you’re a nice enough girl you’ll end up just like me”

If you call out people on shit behaviour, you’re seen as ‘disrespectful’ or something along those lines. If you ignore them, you might have a good life, but in the end you will be caught up in vulnerability. Nicole frequently called out and accused men of inappropriate behaviour, and she was both hated for it and liked for it, however in the end, she called out someone who didn’t have a line to cross and in the end she couldn’t ’handle?’ It, the pressure and most likefesr of what would happen to her, as again, the men in this game dont have a line they can cross.

“And just like my dad”

This is such a line. Nicole’s dad killed himself, yeah, and Nicole could just be referencing the fact they both died the same way, but were not told why he kills himself, we just know it’s apparently Nicole’s fault. This could open up so many different reasons on why he did it (Nicole’s mum giving him less visitation rights, the divorce, etc etc or just being under pressure). I think my favourite thoughts in this line is that potentially, Nicole knew why her dad killed himself, and only she alone had the actual reason, which is why she says it - knowing people will just think it’s because they’re both dead/died the same way

If you’re reading this, im dead.

Very obvious, shes dead.

Sorry if this is out of reach Icl as I was writing this I lwk confused myself 💔 but uhhhhhhhhh lmk how you felt abt it?? CUS I CANT BE THE ONLY ONE WHO WNTS TO ACTUALLY START CRYING WHEN THEY SEE THE IMSGE RIGHT???

Two types of lesbians

They are in love

EmiAri Night Thoughts...

ari is such an underrated villain. that girl is a manipulative evil cunt and i love her for it

This is rlly random but i headcannon that nicole used to be really close with her brother and played video games with him when she was younger and when she found out about the things he was doing it really messed her up and partook in her distrust of men

Stoppp I actually love this hccc, actually this is the one that helped me make mine 😭

I headcanons (this is actually a bit dark btw so uh) that video games were the only way her brother could get Nicole to focus on something else so he could be a pedo and touch himself 🙂 and Nicole didnt realise for a WHILE and when she did then he stopped touching himself and starting touching her instead… 💔 so uh yeah 😭

emily headcanons??

:3

cuts to see the scars

has an older brother

her bedroom is covered in posters

really likes strawberrys, but gags at strawberry milk/icecreeam/yiugurt

unintelligable handwriting

BPD, ADHD and Dyslexia

has to have noise to sleep, whether its her laptop, phone, fan, tv, or whatever

dominates at rasputin on just dance

likes watching indian men build houses out of mud and sticks on youtube dykwim

her favourite colour is blue-green

sharp ass teeth

shortens every word she possiby can on text

shameless

has no filter

lwk loves cuddling

cant go a day without swearing

u can see her ribcage

shes so silly sry if these r shit im sleepy :P

cutie :3

Tysm!!!!

(Pictures found off of Pinterest)

Hi gays im RHEA 💔 im fourteen, go by she/her and a massive lesbian and have a touch of the ‘tism 😽

I was previously @mylohve but it got TERMINATED AND I WAS CRASHING OUT FOR DAYYSSS 💔

Things I like:

- class of 09

- music

- drawing

- some animes

- writing

- BEING ASKED SHIT IDC WHAT I HABE NO BOUNDRIERES RLLY

My favourite class of 09 characters are Nicole, Jecka, Emily and Ari. Most of my posts will probably be about them in some way. It’s my current hyperfixation. I like pretty much all of the ships but my mains are jeckole, emicole, Aricole, emiari and jeckily

Some songs I like are: It almost worked (TV Girl); No one noticed (The Marías); Not (Big Thief); Anthems for a seventeen year old girl (Yeule); did I tell u that I miss u (adore); Sweet dreams (Left boy); Cigarettes out the window (TV Girl); 4 mordant (Com Truise); Poison tree (Grouper); Stars will fall (Duster); This night has opened my eyes (the smiths); DNA Guarentee (Kodi Rhianne); We hug now (Sydney rose); Velvet ring (Big Theif); Somday I’ll get it (Alex Olsen); I love you (billie eilish); Pretty (coco and clair clair); Fallen down (toby fox); Watermelon (John + Jane q. Public); doll parts (hole); in my room (Julia wolf); you were mine (esha tewari); Iris (the goo goo dolls); You’re gonna go far (Noah Kahan); Cemetery drive (MCR); Emily (MCR); Nirvana; Chappel roan

Anime’s I like: Assassination classroom, MHA, Demon Slayer, Deathnote

My AO3 is Jeckas_B1tch

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people tags (gang I’ll find users in a sec 💔):

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Now what if I just died

Nicole except when she thinks about jecka having her life together better than her she wants to kill herself just a little bit more

Nicole except when she thinks about jecka moving for college she gets so unbelievably angry that she doesn’t recognise it. The fact that she’s getting her life together, moving away and won’t be there to clean Nicole up after she gets so drunk shes sick. She feels dizzy when she thinks about it, being so fucking selfish but unable to stop because she needs jecka.