Latest Posts by neyso - Page 5
James: So tonight I was thinking we could stay up late playing checkers and say all the things we like about each other Kidnapper, crying: Your father paid the ransom 3 days ago, please go home
i had a dream i worked in an underwater restaurant and people kept ordering ice in their drinks and then getting mad at me when it would float away. and i’d tell them beforehand that the ice would float away & they’d be like lol no that’s not how it works just give me the ice. I’m fighting customer service battles never seen before
it’s that time of year again where i reread tsh for the bajillionth time so here is the greek class!!!
ya gotta stop caring what people think and start being extremely weird. but never cruel. i think that might save you
i feel like there’s this huge unfulfilled niche in the Dark Academia thing (kill your darlings, the secret history, dead poets society etc) for stories about women???? like can we have rakish girls quoting sappho and anxious genius poet girls, bespectacled, frantically tapping away at typewriters? wild girls trying to start literary movements and being dragged down by their own hubris? innocent girls discovering love and sex and angela carter? cute girls in 60s looking school uniforms investigating ~mysterious happenings~? going to class the next day hungover and exchanging knowing glances? can we just have. the thing
was it casual when you shoved him off the cliff and then stood over his corpse watching the warmth and light slowly fade from his familiar blue eyes was it casual when his father said you made his son the happiest he'd ever seen his baby boy was it casual when his parents gave you the honor of being the pallbearer when you stood amongst his brothers and carried the corpse you'd made to the hollowed ground was it casual when you were so lost in your own mind standing above his grave that you smeared the dirt of his grave across your chest (you killed him. it doesn't mean you didn't love him.)
Moral of the secret history is to stay in ur fuckin lane Richard shoulda just let them conjugate their greek verbs incorrectly tbh
someone probably already made a million post about the thematic relevance of julian’s lecture to the greek clique in chapter 1 in the overall narrative, how so much of what he is saying gets mirrored at various points as the story progresses. after all, this is the lecture that made the greek clique want to perform a bacchanal.
but i just noticed this one little parallel that is making me lose my mind a bit, to be honest.
I always found it peculiar that it was bunny who answered julian here – you’d think he wouldn’t remember the latin name for the erinyes, or that someone else might have said something. yet he is very engaged right now, “his eyes dazzled”.
i think there are two main reasons why bunny is the one who mentions the furies.
the first reason relates to julian’s words before his question. from a narrative point of view, by answering, bunny gets linked to these paragraphs.
“It is a terrible thing to learn as a child that one is a being separate from all the world, that no one and no thing hurts along with one's burned tongues and skinned knees, that one's aches and pains are all one's own. Even more terrible, as we grow older, to learn that no person, no matter how beloved, can ever truly understand us.”
bunny, the one often compared to a child, already before and especially after finding out about the murder starts hurting, worrying, and quickly realizes he is the only one to feel this way. the others are not sharing in his worries. they excluded him from the successful bacchanal, henry mocked him in his diary, and no one confided in him. they hid the fact that they murdered someone from him with apparent ease. after italy, suddenly henry is all chummy with richard, and the group includes him even more – and bunny feels like no one understands him, no one is willing to. they treat him like a dumb child, and try to keep him quiet.
the second reason why I find it peculiar that bunny is the one to answer julian is to be found in julian’s segue to bunny’s answer.
the book often mentions dante, who was led through hell and purgatory by virgil. while the number of erinyes/furies is ambiguous in greek mythology, virgil, in the aeneid, mentions three: alecto (endless anger), megaera (jealous rage), and tisophone (vengeful destruction). and isn’t this the core of bunny’s behaviour prior his murder? his anger towards the rest of the group, and especially henry, at excluding him, mocking him. his jealous rage towards richard. his vengeful destruction – almost revealing what the group has done, exploding at henry, mocking charles’s drinking, deriding and belittling camilla and her relationship with charles, being cruel to francis bc of his sexuality, alienating even richard, who didn’t have much to do with any of this, by trying to expose his lies about his past and how much money he has.
in chapter 5, richard wonders how come bunny was losing his mind and turning against his friends post-murder reveal (pls ignore richard being a pretentious baby btw) and we get this amazing insight from camilla.
in julian’s own words, the erinyes/furies drove people mad by turning “up the volume of the inner monologue, magnif[ying] qualities already present to great excess, ma[king] people so much themselves that they couldn't stand it.”
and isn’t that what camilla is alluding at here? as if possessed by the furies, bunny becomes so much himself, or what he thinks the others see him as – stupid, simple, annoying, less sophisticated than the others – that he cannot bear it, no one can. it all magnifies, all that he thinks the others dislike about him, belittle him for, laugh behind his back about.
there’s also something to be said about julian asking about the erinyes/furies by their greek name and bunny answering with the roman one. when it was in rome with henry that it all started to fall apart. but yeah
Some marker drawings I did :3
Tumblr ruined my quality, again
click do it to be better? Hopefully
(can you tell what the last one is from?)
This was the original idea. Statue chuuya !
It’s very funny to me that the inciting incident of The Secret History is the bacchanal but we never actually get to see a bacchanal. It occurs to me that this book easily could have had a supernatural element and indeed from any other character’s perspective it likely would have. But because Richard is our narrator, we never need to question if Dionysus was really there or if the bloody cleansing was really necessary because Richard despite being a liar and generally unreliable narrator is still the most firmly grounded in reality of most of the classics class.
TW: kinda gory??
Watched Pet Sementary (1989) and decided to bring back my Zombiezai concept and give him a zombie cat :P
do they want me dead bro stop looking at eo so lovingly
“the secret history is slow paced and boring”
GOD FORBID A WOMAN HAS A LOT TO SAY
Appreciation post for all the beginner artists who work hard despite the AI looming over us. You are fabulous. You are precious. Keep up the hard work, you are needed.
There is no way I’m gonna make my studies without killing myself but pretending that i am scientist from Los Alamos and it’s 1944
Today i was so productive. I cut my hair, pet puppies, studied physics, contemplated on my age and decided to go to sleep early
Both the real life Osamu Dazai and Fyodor Dostoevsky drew.
Fyodor Dostoevsky was known to sketch in his manuscripts. Osamu Dazai painted with oils and was very interested in fine arts. Fun fact the main character in No Longer Human also wanted to go to art school and become an artist. There's actually a lot of mention of yozo liking making art in no longer human.
So of course i had to draw their twink versions painting together. <3
just noticed a typo in one of my published smut fics where I wrote “sock” instead of “cock”. I will now go live the rest of my life in the forest where no one will ever see or hear from me again
i was doing research on donna’s life because i’m writing a thesis on the secret history and i came across this beautiful article that delves into her private life a bit more, revealing that there are a lot of personal stories she included in the book, such as her love for proust, which, in fact, isn’t the only thing she shares in common with richard as her voice because indistinguishable from his, since she spent 9 years writing a story from his point of view. people that know her described her as a great storyteller and an eloquent person who was rather quiet in real life, but also an insomniac smoking in her room at 4am and that awfully reminded me of richard as well. they way her looks were described resemble camilla - boyish haircut and boys’ suits, which is the similarity they have regarding appearance, but another thing that binds them together is the fact that donna herself was in a college clique similar to the greek class, except that she was surrounded by a couple of other literature students, making her the only girl in the group! they even had an eccentric professor picky about his students in a way that julian was. her accent, is in a way, southern yet british sounding, which is how she described francis’s accent. what’s beautiful about all of this is that it seems as if she didn’t do it on purpose but rather that her life became intertwined with the character’s life, blurring the lines between the two to the point that not even donna could distinguish it. as a writer, i know how easy it is for that to happen and how beautiful it is to look back on your manuscript and notice how you left pieces of yourself in it.
i just know henry winter would have the most atrocious blue eyed stare
“Yes I can give you a reason to live” said the man with the most dead inside stare in human history
perhaps i am just sensitive but i think if someone in front of you in line is being a dick to the cashier you should be allowed to bash their skull in with a hammer. Just how i think the world should be
that one saying " to be loved is to be changed " but its akutagawa from the beginning of the manga slowly evolving to become way softer and loving and turning into what we saw in the last chapter, i love how the artstyle also changed, he looks so beautiful atsushi must be really jn love with him
Francis’ “shit, shit, shit!” with Richard rigorously asking him to shut the fuck up after they collapsed to take Bunny’s letter from julian permanently exist in my head. Brilliant scene.
Crack concept: Atsushi doesn’t exactly get absorbed…not completely that is.
Akutagawa: Weretiger!
Atsushi: Oh my god can you lower your volume I’m right here!
Akutagawa:…Well get off the floor then!
Atsushi: Oh jee let me just get my nonexistent leg and my nonexistent arm and oh yeah the entire MISSING HALF of my body and then I’ll be right up there with you.
Akutagawa: Sarcasm is unbecoming of you.
Atsushi: When my leg comes back I’m going to throw it at you.
Akutagawa: I see nothing changed now you’ve lost half your brain.
Atsushi: I see being bought back to life didn’t give you a sense of humour.
Akutagawa: Does it hurt?
Atsushi: You remember when you cut my leg off, the first time?
Akutagawa: Obviously.
Atsushi: I would prefer having that pain over this…every day of my life over this.
Akutagawa: You damn fool, why would you protect me?
Atsushi: Why would you protect me?
Akutagawa: I asked you first!
Atsushi: I asked you second!
Akutagawa: That doesn’t even make sense!
Atsushi: My consciousness is split between here and a 4th dimensional plane of reality where I’m being guided by a hallucination of my dead Headmaster pretending to be Dazai.
Atsushi: Nothing in our lives makes sense.
Akutagawa: I suppose you’re right.
Atsushi: Oh man am I dead? Did you just admit that?
Akutagawa: Idiot you’re not allowed to die until I kill you.
Atsushi: Well I’m at least half way there-ow!
Akutagawa: Don’t even joke about that!
Atsushi: Okay ow! Jeez keep that up and I’ll start to think you were worried- stop kicking me!
Fyodor:…Did you get any of that?
Gozen shrugs.
they're matching ^^
I just love this page. Atsushi realizes that he almost lost someone who he never took the time to understand. this boy, this stranger, who has burrowed so deep into his mind, who has been completely incomprehensible to him, who died for him, is, beneath it all, just like him. they're the same. they always have been.
its regret. about the words he's said, the wound's he's inflicted, the fact that he did not see the boy right in front of him. he walked away, a specter, misunderstood, never being told that its okay for him to live. okay for him to exist in this world.
for the first time, he thinks he understands akutagawa ryuunosuke and its breaking his heart. he's breaking his heart.