Unfortunately I’m The Type Of Person That You Can Screw Over 1 Million Times And I Would Still Be There

& Tonight;

All I can think about is you. I miss you terribly. I wish I got to see you tonight. It would have put my mind at ease. God, why can't I be happy like I was when we were together? You're my rock, my world, my everything. I don't know where I'd be without you. I want you to know that you mean the world to me, never forget that. I feel like I'm in a dream and I'll wake up any minute and you'll be right by my side telling me that you love me and everything is okay. As for now, I guess I'm forced to live in this hell of emotionless heartbreak. Please, wake me up soon, I don't wanna live in this hell anymore. I want you to know that if I ever decide to leave this world, I hope you'll be right there by my side telling me that everything is going to get better. I hope you can save me like you've done before. As for now, I shall try to sleep. Goodnight my sweet prince. I love you so much. I hope you come back. I don't know how much longer I can live like this.

you have no idea

you have no idea how happy I am that you still have me come over every weekend. Or maybe you do, Idk. But, that's one of the things I adored about our relationship. And I'm happy that you loved it too. I love knowing that you love spending time with me. It makes me feel really special. I just wish I was your girlfriend again. I miss you calling me baby, and I miss you telling me that you loved me in that cute little voice you used to do it in. I love coming over here on the weekends and spending time with you like we used to do. It makes me feel like we're still together even though we aren't anymore. At least I can dream, right? I love that when I come over, we still sleep in the same bed and cuddle like we used to. I've never been happier then I am right now being with you. Even if we're not together. You said you wouldn't be surprised if you asked me back out, and I'll be waiting for that day. Cause I know, one day you're gonna realize what you had when you were with me and want it all back. No matter how long it takes, I'll be here.

@markiplier how flipping true is this

Paramore: Grow Up

Some of us have to grow up sometimes, 

and so, if I have to I’m gonna leave you behind

you ever know what it's like to lose the person you love? that pain that you feel because you feel as though it's all your fault? I lost the man I love because I feel like I fucked up so bad. I feel like I did everything wrong. As much as he tells me it's not all my fault. I'm always gonna feel that way. He tells me that he's giving me another chance to show him I'm changing but he's out on a date with someone else. I'm so confused /: And the way he talks to me.... Talking to me like I'm a stranger when he's drunk. Why? He says he hates to see me hurt, but yet he's gonna talk to me that way.. What did I do to deserve this? Why me? Why us? We had everything. Yes, we had problems but what couple doesn't? Okay, so I haven't shown him my ambition. Alright, I get that. But if you really loved me like you say you do, you would've tried to push me harder then you did. I love him with my entire being. I believe he is the piece I've been missing all of these years and I don't wanna give that up. I've got hope that once I show him how serious I really am, he'll change his mind and want this back. It hurts so much. The sound of his voice soothes me and makes me think things are okay but then reality kicks in and all I wanna do is die... I wanna crawl under a rock and die. I can't deal with this pain and I'm afraid I'm gonna die of a broken heart because of this. I can't eat, I can't sleep. All I can do is toss and turn and panic. I don't wanna hurt anymore. I want us back. I want everything we had back. He is my best friend and my whole world. Since he left, my world has crashed down around me and I feel so alone. I'm glad he's still in my life, but I don't like not having him in my life as my boyfriend. I thought we had a future together? We talked about it all the time. All I can do now, is show him that I'm changing and hope for the best. He says he's moving on with his life because he doesn't believe that I'm changing. I can't wait to show him how serious I am. I don't wanna move on. He means everything to me. He will always be my number 1. And he'll always have my heart. And I'm glad to know that I will always have a huge part of his heart. All I can do is hope....

I do, I do. You never cease to amaze me. When I'm with you, I can't see anyone else. Damn boy, you make my heart flutter.

By terrifoss