Christmas Season At The Wolfstar Flat

ohmygod my heart this is so beautiful

delicate - November 17 - jegulus - @taylorswiftmicrofic - word count: 163

He probably should've been upset. He'd been training for ages for this match, put every minute of his spare time into thinking of plays.

Not to mention, he and Regulus had been talking about it for weeks. Teasing each other about whose team was superior. Mumbling to each other in between heated kisses that the other would definitely be the loser, would have to spend the rest of their life living in shame.

But he wasn't upset at all.

Because as Regulus came running toward him, eyes bright and hair wild, the most stunning grin on his face that James had ever seen, James could only be happy for him.

And when the younger boy smiled cheekily and handed James the winning Golden Snitch, delicate gossamer wings fluttering gently in his hand while he said, "Caught this for you, Potter," James just pulled him in a kiss, happiness spilling over him in waves.

Because, Quidditch Cup or not, he'd never been more thankful.

this is literally wolfstar.

new ship dynamic called schrodinger’s divorce where characters are simultaneously bitterly divorced and fondly married for twenty years

james potter meeting the black brothers and going “im gonna love them so much it will change the trajectory of their lives”

and win. that scrawny ass bitch is more beard than muscle.

If I could fist fight Dumbledore right now I’d do it

definitely don't read it and protect your peace. i absolutely loved choices and it makes sense that in a canon compliant world he somehow has to be able to move on from regulus. but ohmygod. the love they had was so magical and beautiful and seamless and then it crashed and then boom hes with lily. AND ITS ALL WRITTEN SO WELL THAT LIKE. THE WRITING WAS ON THE WALL BUT U ARE STILL FLABBERGASTED. I was clawing at my chest praying for death to just take me honestly.

One of my favourite things about Choices is how thoroughly interwoven jily and jegulus are. they're always present like a lingering shadow but I wish we had seen more of the time inbetween the end of jegulus and the start of Jily. The guilt James must have felt at moving on, despite everything that went down between him and Regulus. the fact that it was with LILY, who regulus always felt insecure about. And when I think about it too much my heart aches.

Because it was truly so insane. Like I think it hit him so hard. because he loved regulus, truly loved him. Regulus had him, unconditionally, with no strings or games, all of him. and all james wanted was for him to love him back more than he hated himself. more than he was scared. to try another path. to not give up. and he had SO much hope for them, that they would work. And in those moments with Regulus he just felt so full and so happy and then Regulus was gone and left this humongous hole in his life and the only person that can fill it is the very person Regulus was always scared was really meant for james.

i miss them so much it aches like a physical space in my chest god

James turns his head, nose brushing against Regulus’s temple. “You will always belong with me Reg. Always.”

-Choices

i genuinely cant think about crimson rivers without feeling completely sick to my stomach and tearing up its like reflex it truly changed my life.

hardest part of watching arcane for me is having to admit that heimerdinger was right. For all his flaws he predicted exactly what the hexcore and magic would end up doing to their society. His issue was that for all the wisdom his experience and aged lent him, it robbed him of empathy for humans. Yes he cared, but he failed to understand the human desire for progress, that we don't have hundreds of years to sit around and test things and he conveyed just how little he empathised in every conversation. But ultimately he really was right and it's a bitter pill to swallow.

i think reading crimson rivers as my first jegulus fic and then choices did something irreparable to my psyche.