Sometimes Some Simple Things In My Life Can Feel So Bizarre, And It's So Funny, Like-

Me three...

*flops like a cardboard cutout*

Merry Christmas!

This whole year has been incredibly hard for me, folks. All these mental health issues, work, routine…

But at the end of the year I came across a video on YouTube with a selection of the best songs of SMG4, and there I saw him. Mr. Puzzles, who breathed new life into me, and for the first time in so many years I wanted to draw again.

I hope that things will go much better for me from now on, even if sometimes I still feel bad. But I hope that I will only grow and grow.

Thank you all for supporting me.

Merry Christmas, Happy New Year and Happy Holidays

Ohhhh, so that's how 🤔 Smart move on his part, what can I say 🤷‍♀️

How exactly did RTV win? What was the turning point for SMG4 crew to fail?

“They were doomed to fail from the START.”

It’s funny how in the Stan and ford sea-venture fan art I see it’s mostly Stan charging in, so ready to fight the creatures while ford is just in the back like ‘Stanley NO’ and while I don’t doubt that happening, I mostly think about a giant ass sea creature appearing out of the water, towering over them and stan’s stepping back a bit because ‘um ford…? What the HELL IS THAT?!?’ And meanwhile fords just pushing up his glasses, and he may or may not have stepped closer to the surely man-eating, 12 tentacled creature with stars in his eyes and the widest smile on his face as he breathes out ‘fascinating’

*looks at the staring people, and, unsure what to do, starts smiling and happily waving her hand in greeting 👋*

*stares at y'all*

Thank you.

Thank you so much

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I wasn't sure if I should've even posted this... Please don't read it if you don't feel like it. I just... wanted to vent my frustrations at least somewhere rather than keep everything inside

I helped out a friend. Well, at least I considered him one. Half a year ago he asked me to lend a bit of money. I don't have much myself. The only source of my own income is a 36$ stipend. I don't currently have a job and I live with my parents, but their income plus mine is enough to give the four of us stable and happy life. So out of pity and kind heart, of course I helped him, because it felt like he needed it. He promised to return the money. He didn't. I asked what was wrong and for my money back, because I needed them. But he just ignored my messages.

Now, after going MIA for half a year, he returns. Apologising. And asking for more money yet again. I already told him my frustrations about his inappropriate behaviour, for which he apologised yet again and told me how his life was rough, how he got his money stolen when being away on a sports competition and he wasn't able to return home, how he needed to sustain his girlfriend (and now, how it turned out, a wife) and pay rent and his parents and noone helped him. He has a normal job. He knows how much I earn.

I wanted to believe him. But my trust was seriously wavering. I gave him money. The last one for food that I had, because he was assuring me he'd 100% return it tomorrow before evening. I chose to believe him. The next day I starved. Now I don't have money for food for the end of the week. He said his paycheck got delayed, even sent a picture of the paper, said he'd give back tomorrow. I chose to believe him. I was left with nothing again.

There's a lot of emotions inside of me right now. I feel hurt, betrayed, angry, frustrated and more. I told him everything about how I felt and afterwards decided to block him. I'm tired of his empty promises.

But I also feel said, because, like, he wasn't like this before. We met eachother in a small organisation (that I'm not longer in), he was a fun, energetic, open boy, and we quickly connected with eachother. We smiled and laughed at jokes, did assignments together, I joyfully cheered on him on a dance competition. I remember him as a good person. But then he comes with this.

It left me confused and hurt... What could've happened? Why did he act like that?? Why did he say all of this? Was he even telling the truth? I really don't know...

Now I feel bad. I'm still confused. Something like this never has happened to me before. I don't know what to do... I just... *sigh*...

Am I doing something wrong?...

Mute swan (Cygnus olor)

As promised, photos of our biology project — the full skeleton of a mute swan. If somebody, for whatever reason, is in need of a photos of a swan skeleton — here you go.

A new unique piece for our university's skeleton collection. It was fun making it, though a bit tricky. I learned a lot about mute swans than I ever had in my entire life.

I need a hug

*Everyone is gathering around the map while 'Mission Impossible' starts playing in the background*

—Alright, so I'll distract the guards-

I was thinking of helping you out, but I gotta ask first...

Do you know if there's more guards than Chris and Swag, and if they take breaks? Also, can they hear us?

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Don't read if you don't want to - it's just me freaking out- 👌

(another streak of incoherent thoughts and feelings because I want to f$%# scream and cry and laugh and run an- omgomgomgkomg- )

oh my god....oh my god....oh ... mu god.... What is happening.... I.... the guy-....

Talk with each other, come to an agreement - aka confess to each other, proceed to joke, joke terribly, then proceed to SCARE EACH OTHER TF OUT for a moment (me have a metaphorical heart attack- ), panic, apologise, talk it out, set boundaries, come to an agreement, apologise, talk, hug, (via text, cus different cities- ), cry (my part), share personal bad experience ab some aforementioned things, understand eachother, hug, forehead kith, cry- (my part again- )

All in all

I got a soulmate

I still can't comprehend it-. Like, what the actual f-

What's going on-, how-, why-,

How did I deserve it??

What??

I never thought I could ever find someone who, as I call it, I would 'click with'. Turns out I did. What the what-

I feel like "Left brain and Right brain" by Bo Burnham right now. My left, analytical brain is trying to calmly comprehend what is happening right now and assess the situation rationally. But my right, emotional brain doesn't care atm:

She's running around happily, stimming and crying.

Yup.

I got a soulmate.

What the fu-

Bwehehehaha oh my gosh, this is hilarious! 🤣 I love this little creature

Yeeahhh, I guess it's my fault for not posting more art with my sona. The only times she appeared was on my birthday post and artfennec's fanart (and also my youtube animations, but most people don't know ab that)

Also RUSS SQUAD ASSEMBLE! WOOOOO!

RUSSIA SQUAD RUSSIA SQUAD

YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE My best friend Rikona will be joining us soon, she is currently swamped with studies, but she is already actively drawing the design for her blog! @dominicatale

@niranutcake

@bidinonsense

@meg-girumi

Meg, I know you've stepped away from drawing Puzzles, but you're still in the squad! A small beautiful bug o(>ω<)o Nira, I didn't find a picture of you in your blog, so you'll be a person with heterochromia ヽ(・∀・)ﾉ Bidi, I think our Puzzles would be the besty (´• ω •) Dominika, I heard about you from a friend, but only now I found out that you drew that video with Bogdan and the hand, so now you're in the squad! ヽ(￣ω￣(。。 )ゝ