This Is A Bit Of Personal Post Mostly Meant For Me To See My Own Progress In The Future, But Yesterday

This is a bit of personal post mostly meant for me to see my own progress in the future, but yesterday I was granted sick leave by my doctor for my depression. Basically I started uni last fall and just,,, I don't know what happened but I just completely crashed and burned and could not do ANYTHING. I went to see a doctor last month and was diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression and now I've been on antidepressants for the past three weeks. And now I'm on sick leave.

It's really strange, being on sick leave. I'm 20 years old, super young, barely have any work experience and I'm already just,,, on sick leave. I know I'm not supposed to compare myself to other people, but I feel kinda guilty about taking a break from studying. It's not a fair comparison because those other people aren't ill like me. I have a mental illness, and I'm most likely ND too so that makes studying extra challenging for me. If I go back to uni next fall, I'll have to slow my pace significantly and try to get some accommodations. And in general I'll have to be more open about how I'm feeling and be willing to take support from the people around me.

One good thing about being on sick leave is that I'll have more time to write my stupid fanfiction afgdigyuyieu stay tuned for that :DD

This will all pass, I know. It isn't the end of the world. Like my doctor said, depression is a real illness and it has to be treated the same way that you would treat a broken foot, for example. There's no shame in it. I'll try to keep that in mind.

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4 weeks ago

i’m not saying this is healthy or good, but i do think there’s something comforting to mac about having someone like dennis in his life who “hates him” and still talks to him, lives with him, shares a bed with him, etc. it’s so unlike his parents who mostly just ignore him no matter what he does


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