I Got My Results!!!

My bestie just told me I’m in a situationship. Help.

✨Appreciation✨

Just a shoutout to my friend (I’ll call him Gamer, I’m sure he’ll know who he is) for reading like every post and providing the best commentary! He got a real good laugh from something I said in one of my very first posts, I’m glad I’ve managed to entertain him lmao.

HOW

I just watched the 2021 movie CODA and omfg HOW IS THE FANDOM NOT BIGGER?!??!? I absolutely loved this movie, I cried a couple of times and could rewatch it infinitely. CODA is really a work of art and I wish there was a bigger fandom so I could gush about it with other people!

Love

My boyfriend is so pretty!!! He treats me so great and I really love him :) I think this is the healthiest and most loving relationship I’ve ever been in. He makes me SO happy, and I hopefully make him happy too lol. We’re going to prom together soon and I’m actually committing to trying out long-distance with him (which has been a strict relationship ender for me in the past) because I love him so much and we both want to make it work for as long as it will be healthy for us!

Piercing Craze

I just got my bellybutton pierced and I already booked an appointment to get 2 more piercings 😭😭😭😭

I’m officially obsessed

My friend Jayden makes music on SoundCloud, I think he’s amazing and his music has such a chill, calm vibe to it!

SoundCloud

jayden

Listen to jayden | SoundCloud is an audio platform that lets you listen to what you love and share the sounds you create.

Prom Plans!!!

So prom is happening in a few weeks and I’m really excited! I asked my ex partner (I’ll call them Avery) a few weeks ago if they wanted to come to prom with me and they were really excited and said yes!!! :) Avery lives out of state and goes to college so this is the first time I’ll be meeting them in person for the first time ever (I’ve had FaceTimes with them and have seen their drivers license don’t worry lol), I’m really happy to get to finally meet them in person and share this night with them. Since we have a guest room in my house Avery will be staying overnight too!!! :)))

Exhausted and Evaluated

So guess who got excused from school today (it was me :))!

I had a neurodivergence evaluation earlier today, it went over the appointment time and I didn't get to do a whole section so I hope that doesn't impact my results.

I get my results in about 2 weeks and I'm really nervous and excited to find out what I have!

I'm really tired cause it was HOURS of testing and I haven't eaten a real meal today :(

I'll update in a couple weeks about my results!! :)

One of my favorite wallows songs, really encapsulates the feeling of wanting someone and not being able to do anything about it.

SH Scars

(Trigger warning for mentioning of self harm scars)

I have a bit of a history with self-harming and self-harming behaviors and fidgets. When I’m stressed out I tend to unconsciously cause myself pain and one thing that I stopped doing years ago was chewing the skin on the insides of my cheeks. I have these long scars running up to the corners of my mouth on each side on the inside of my mouth from the skin being chewed off, and recently I don’t know what triggered this relapse but I’ve been causing more damage to the scarred areas and making the lines longer than they used to be.

I don’t know how to stop since I started again and I’m really worried that I’m going to cause more lasting damage. I luckily haven’t made myself bleed but I have been making the scars longer, I’m going to look into ways to try and help myself stop.