HOW

Reflecting

(TW // sexual coercion)

With all of the awful stuff happening on Twitter I recently read an article about sexual coercion on Planned Parenthood’s website, and a lot of the warning signs sounded very similar to something I experienced in a past relationship. There were constant repeated attempts to “convince” me to let them do something to me no matter how many times I said no. There was a lot of “Up-Negotiating” like waiting a year until or just sitting near their face with my legs open. I always felt incredibly guilty and uncomfortable for saying no to them so often and eventually one day I gave in because I had been broken down so much, I thought “I’ve said no so many times, I’m a bad partner, they want it so I can just get through it for them”, and then they proceeded to react with disgust when I finally gave them what they were badgering me for throughout our whole time dating. I’ve never let someone try to go down on me since then and it’s been so hard for me to accept that I was coerced by repeated badgering and pressure. I don’t harbor any deep-seated resentment since it took me so long to realize that this is what happened to me, I had a lot of time to process it and work through it in therapy. I wish this person a life filled with therapy and love.

✨Appreciation✨

Just a shoutout to my friend (I’ll call him Gamer, I’m sure he’ll know who he is) for reading like every post and providing the best commentary! He got a real good laugh from something I said in one of my very first posts, I’m glad I’ve managed to entertain him lmao.

in a relationship, you should be able to say, "this is the healthiest love I've ever experienced." if you can't say this, keep looking. - renuka i. chemistry is great, compatibility is great, love is great, but what we're looking for now is a relationship that nourishes your soul. one that makes you want to be the best version of you - for this person, and for yourself. do not settle. follow for more inspirational quotes @renukawrites

Prom Plans!!!

So prom is happening in a few weeks and I’m really excited! I asked my ex partner (I’ll call them Avery) a few weeks ago if they wanted to come to prom with me and they were really excited and said yes!!! :) Avery lives out of state and goes to college so this is the first time I’ll be meeting them in person for the first time ever (I’ve had FaceTimes with them and have seen their drivers license don’t worry lol), I’m really happy to get to finally meet them in person and share this night with them. Since we have a guest room in my house Avery will be staying overnight too!!! :)))

Relatable

i'm at prom and this is so mid can they play wallows or smth

Love

My boyfriend is so pretty!!! He treats me so great and I really love him :) I think this is the healthiest and most loving relationship I’ve ever been in. He makes me SO happy, and I hopefully make him happy too lol. We’re going to prom together soon and I’m actually committing to trying out long-distance with him (which has been a strict relationship ender for me in the past) because I love him so much and we both want to make it work for as long as it will be healthy for us!

This song has been a constant mood for me for a few weeks

Marlee Matlin’s SAG Award acceptance speech for Outstanding Performance by a Cast in a Motion Picture for CODA (2021) directed by Siân Heder

Piercing Craze

I just got my bellybutton pierced and I already booked an appointment to get 2 more piercings 😭😭😭😭

I’m officially obsessed

TROY KOTSUR wins the Oscar for Best Actor in a Supporting Role for his role in CODA and is the first deaf man to win an acting Oscar.