I’m Still Alive, I’m Sorry For My Lack Of Posting, The Despair Of Social Media Rotted My Brain And

Google when I look for advice for my autism: "How to deal with Your CHILD WITH AUTISM."

Google when I look at advice for cane user stuff: "Canes for old people. What to do when you're 80 and your joints hit the shitter.

I am screaming and hitting the wall just give me advice I can actually use.

Reblog if you understand that disability is not a monolith and two people with the same disability do not have identical experiences ✨

the bones. they ACHE.

in a song i heard the lyrics

“he only loves me when I rot with him”

and those words tested their way through my being until they rested in the wound I cannot touch, cannot heal, and cannot see.

Rotting

love

two words i’ve often always associated with eachother despite a part of me believing in the purity of love.

A purity i reach for but cannot touch, perhaps one i never can.

“he” only loves me when i rot with “him”

when my eyes lose light as the mention of his name and i have to remind myself that i’m no longer rotting.

But it’s hard to believe that when a part of you is still stained in his sheets, when the taste is still in your mouth, when you see him when you close your eyes.

rotting

when my bones pierced my skin, my body rejecting what he gives me, shaking, when he gets near.

He only loves me when I rot when i’m sick

when he can manipulate and lie

with him.

i was not made for this world, spiritually and physically I stand out of place.

“oh but its just your shoulder!” - you may see a disabled person and think something along the lines of this.

(or whatever body part/system you can see is affected.)

but many abled people seem to find it very hard to grasp just how much of their daily life relies on such body part.

which is understandable because why would you be thinking about how much you rely on your shoulder. yours works!

but imagine if every single time in a day, where you went to use your shoulder, you had someone pinch you. youd be surprised by just how fast youd get tired of being pinched.

not to mention that having just one health issue is not exactly the norm within the disabled community. bodies are too complex for that 🥲

Morgan Harper Nichols’ ‘Let July be July’

bbg you’re not ugly, you just don’t know how to carry yourself.

Stand up straight, wash your face, wear perfume and brush your teeth.

biggest thing that pisses me off is people trying to talk someone out of a mobility aid, first off; what makes you think you know their needs more than them? what makes you think you know the amount of pain, imbalance, fatigue, etc symptoms they're going through?? Are you living in their body? NO!

To learn something new, you need to try new things and not be afraid to be wrong.

Roy T. Bennett