“When Words Become Unclear, I Shall Focus With Photographs. When Images Become Inadequate, I Shall

Me about everything

I'm rewriting If You're Happy and You Know It

The new version goes: If you're old and you know it, groan loudly whenever you move. (Repeat) If you're old and you know it, then your joints are frozen and creaky, and you should probably get a walker. (Repeat chorus thing) I'm not a musician, but I think it could compete with the best of them. I'm tapping into the forgotten old people demographic.

When it all fell apart, I lost everything. When I returned, I had not come back.

Consider It A Strong Warning

No one else thinks it's disturbing?

I'm not sure when this "daddy" craze began, but it seems to have picked up in the last few years. Why? No one else finds it exceedingly troubling there are guys who insist on being called "daddy"? The only people I'd ever want to call me that are my kids. Or, is that the point? These guys have some deep-seated child rape/incest fantasies they satiate by demanding their significant other pretend to be a helpless prepubescent? And the flip side: Girls who have some father-figure obsession. I get the dominant relationship thing. "Master" and "sir" I get. Bondage, pain, biting, slapping, choking, forcing, &ct all make sense. "Daddy" makes me queasy.

Never have I been so frustrated by anything. Kyudo is possibly the most difficult thing I've ever undertaken as a discipline. Guess it goes to show little control I have over my own movement and breathing.

I've determined I am incredibly unattractive. Body is one thing; that isn't bad and can be worked on. My face, though. It's not even the skin. Its very structure is horrid. Other people have well-defined features, and mine is just this weird oval that has an uneven jaw, nose, and eyes. For your safety, I can't provide a picture.

I haven't slept well since two nights during my junior year of high school. It's been twelve years of pain since, and of the things I've forgotten, those two nights are still with me. Would be nice to have those happen again.

When the ending to one of the "great novels of the 20th century" sucks.