Change And Development In Rural Society~

💌 ordered in AGAIN because it was raining heavily, also had some homemade food because my friend's mom is a GODSEND and started watching inside out 2 (can be read as: psych student heaven)

💌 a smol v cute flower

💌 started reading a good girl's guide to murder <3

💌 found an awesome paper title while researching for my social psych assignment (the one that says "I can fix him")

attitude and social cognition~

(i love social psychology sm, def going to take few courses in uni)

ive taken a philosophy class this term, it's an introductory course but im still intimidated lolol

that's why looking at philosophy studyblrs is nice motivation

25.07.2020

my second semester starts on monday, and while i’m disappointed that i won’t be able to attend classes in person, i’m very excited for my philosophy of religion module. i’m getting a head start by reading and annotating the class notes and reviewing previous epistemology notes on religion.

I JUST GOT THIS MAIL

slayed a little too hard🤭

not letting this get to my head tho, because there's still a long long way to go ofcourse

but the fact that i was amongst the top 10% in a batch of 750 students is so academically validating😭

why did i think taking entrepreneurship as a subject in CBSE would be a good idea

these notes are the only way i can motivate myself smh

rant coming up because why not

so i feel like im sucking at the whole "college experience" thing

i haven't hit rock bottom in terms of my academics but im so SO scared that i might. istg college level assignments are no joke and I FEEL LIKE IM ALWAYS LACKING UGH

i haven't participated in any clubs or committees or any student activities. either because whenever there's smtg, im tired or because im undermining/second guessing my skills.

LMAO recently ive also been thinking that im just plain talentless like everyone has their 'thing'. what's my thing? nothing. there's nothing that i can confidently say is my thing.

yeah my self esteem has taken a hit after coming here.

i keep comparing myself to one of my friends and honestly im envious of how she's actually experiencing college and how involved in the clubs/activities she is. and she's so funny, bubbly and smart and everyone likes her.

okay that's it for the rant, ill be fine eventually (atleast that's how i pacify myself). maybe others also feel the way i do, maybe my friend feels this way too and i just don't know it🤷

academic comeback era <3

quick study tip: brain dumping, colour coding, flashcarding

After you’ve studied your material for an exam, brain dump everything you can remember from what you studied. Write it all out on a sheet (or more) of paper. Then, go back over the notes/study materials you made before and add the info you missed into your brain dump sheets in red pen. Then, after you’re done, flashcard all the info in red. Go through those flashcards every day. This is the way to prevent overstudying things you already know and understudying the things you don’t fully know/understand.

it's barely been a week since the new semester has started and there's SO MUCH work

meetings are endless and workload is piling up im trying to get ahead of tasks but staying motivated is difficult :/

also, happy new year to everyone (⁠◕⁠ᴗ⁠◕⁠✿⁠)

rant

ive been feeling so envious of my friends lately and i don't like it

it's like whenever they achieve something that i wish for my ideal self, i start thinking to myself "why is that not me, it should be me" and then a self deprecating thought follows, "maybe it'll never be me". my mind chooses to completely ignore the struggles my friends have gone through to get where they are and do the things that they are doing

i feel guilty feeling this way about people so close to me, people who confide in me, whose struggles i know but im not sure how to navigate through this

hmm maybe i should start by making a list of things i want for my ideal self and then work towards them slowly