A Little Dump Of The Week

rant

ive been feeling so envious of my friends lately and i don't like it

it's like whenever they achieve something that i wish for my ideal self, i start thinking to myself "why is that not me, it should be me" and then a self deprecating thought follows, "maybe it'll never be me". my mind chooses to completely ignore the struggles my friends have gone through to get where they are and do the things that they are doing

i feel guilty feeling this way about people so close to me, people who confide in me, whose struggles i know but im not sure how to navigate through this

hmm maybe i should start by making a list of things i want for my ideal self and then work towards them slowly

studying spanish prior to an exam > being fortunate enough to visit Barcelona this summer

work hard, play hard💫

ive taken a philosophy class this term, it's an introductory course but im still intimidated lolol

that's why looking at philosophy studyblrs is nice motivation

25.07.2020

my second semester starts on monday, and while i’m disappointed that i won’t be able to attend classes in person, i’m very excited for my philosophy of religion module. i’m getting a head start by reading and annotating the class notes and reviewing previous epistemology notes on religion.

a small personal anecdote (⁠✿⁠^⁠‿⁠^⁠)

im not that religious but festivals like ganesh chaturthi are a nice little break from all the studying.

throughout my school time, i remember having semester exams during the festival which was soooo sad because i never let myself enjoy and was almost never mentally present at the celebrations :/

i love dhols sm, been wanting to play them for the longest time

happy ganesh chaturthi!

bhai the last few days have been a fever dream

never in my dreams had i imagined myself getting 98% in boards

it feels awesome but at the same time i cant help but wonder "what's the point of such a score"

either ways, im grateful and content w how everything is

(ab nazar na lage bolo)

i have an assignment due today at 11:59 and im so scared im not going to make it

hoping for the best because i plan on staying in my academic weapon era

(⁠｡⁠ŏ⁠﹏⁠ŏ⁠)

edit: IM DONE WITH THE ASSIGNMENT?????? ONG

nothing like studying biological bases of behaviour at 8 a.m.

mark my words, your sleep WILL be taken away. doesn't matter if you're very drowsy, it WILL be gone because there's so much content (⁠ ⁠･ั⁠﹏⁠･ั⁠)

I JUST GOT THIS MAIL

slayed a little too hard🤭

not letting this get to my head tho, because there's still a long long way to go ofcourse

but the fact that i was amongst the top 10% in a batch of 750 students is so academically validating😭

some ‘energy takers’ to avoid in the new year:

overthinking, people pleasing and unclear boundaries - 2023 is our communication era

dehydration and constantly going without rest - get a glass of water and touch some grass

negativity - everyday may not be good, but there’s a little good in every day

after the outfit pic, i was out of my dorm throughout the WHOLE day

met campus cars while going for breakfast, i think one of their names is Eevee? idk the other one's name

spent half of the day studying in one of the campus cafes and the rest in graphic design class ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ