So...i Lost My Voice

Tomorrows october! Yall know that means!

Time for me to crawl up outta my hole and post some art!

My ADHD brain: you forgot something.

Me: what?

Brain: what?

Do you think this is a pretty sight? This is the reality of having anorexia for 12+ years. The reality of what eating disorders can do to your body.

When I was in high school and then in college getting my bachelors degree, I spent more time in hospitals and treatment centers than I did out of them.

And then I found out

My organs failed. Permanently.

Last year, I needed major surgery that took about 4 HOURS, and after that I was admitted to the hospital for a week on heavy pain medications, being wheeled around because I couldn’t walk.

I had tubes everywhere.

I had to medically withdraw from graduate school because I had to spend that time in doctors offices, infusion centers for IVs, in the ER, or admitted into the hospital.

Now I have a 6 inch scar across my abdomen and will be on medications for the rest of my life to help my heart and stomach function enough to keep me alive.

I’ve nearly died multiple times from the ED, but I had never believed that my organs could shut down and leave me to deal with that reality for the rest of my life.

That is not a way anyone should have to live life.

This is what an eating disorder looks like. Not the “thinspo” everyone sees on the Internet. This is what you don’t see behind those pictures and it’s not pretty.

Confetti giggles hehe

I got MYSTIC DUMPLING☺️🙈🍼💕

Figured a work around for the tech error from yesterday

! Here's the complete day1 pt 2

somehow I got 95/20 on an assignment

I hope they never fix it and leave it this way forever

Day 12! Magtober, celestial, sooo here is Angel Martin!

@emerald-emerlad

Rough messy sketch but it exists now

Have you ever wondered where books come from?

Well then, let me show you, because that’s what I do for a living.

Right now, it’s this time of the year, and the little ones have just freshly hatched:

You’ll notice they’re still blind and naked when they hatch. So I make them little coats to keep them warm during their first winter:

See how they happily line up to put them on:

See? Better. Now they’re ready to go and explore the world.

And if they make it through the winter and we take good care of them, they will grow up to be strong and wise like their older fellows:

So, in case you were ever wondering, now you know.

So...I forgot that some people tie strings around they're fingers to remember things.....I forgot that was a thing....

This just happened

Okay so me and my siblings were just in Walmart our younger brother was driving her crazy she said "stop I can't focus" and this guy that we don't know said in a whisper "focus focus come on focus" he wasn't being creepy he was just joking around it was all good we all laughed afterwards and then went on with our lives