I did not feel comfortable reblogging this person at all.
- Melody[host]
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[This is more tri-harmed thing at first but I do bring up, full trans-harmed things like no trauma at all.
Also these feelings I'm talking about is for me and not for everyone]
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I actually want to feel this /srs /gen
I'm already traumatized but it isn't enough? People always and will forever undermine my [cis]trauma, and my [cis]trauma is already unseen or not as important and I've internalized this for so long that words of reassurment doesn't help.
My dysphoria gets to me so bad and if this is the only way to be valid is to live ashamed, uncomfortable, emotionally unstable and with nightmares I would do it, no questions asked, the only way I can be valid if I go through my trans-trauma.
But also identifying as my trans-trauma is kinda euphoric because if not all then most trans things are valid.
Also, not all people's trauma responses is like this, that's stereotypical responses[not saying if you have stereotypical responses you're invalid, you are completely valid <3], there a different responses to trauma.
Also I would feel special if I did go through my trans-trauma.
And then people with absolute NO trauma, maybe not all but I know some of them just want trauma because it's the only way for them to be seen or heard because people make trauma a competition and badges.
But you won't. and you'll continue blaming it on rq's and transx's even though most of the time their trying to cope from society's doings.
And since you and most people won't try to stop or spread awareness to the main root of this all + it's already too far in how society and people see trauma/not normalized/not seen trauma for it to be reversed, transharmed people will always and will continue to use these labels to cope, for fun, and ect.
And you'll continue blaming them when it's not their faults.
[Also reminder not all transharmed's feel this wayz this is just my take on it]
- Melody [host]
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[Off topic/short talk about my tri-harmed-ness]
Also I might just refer all my cis-harmed ids as trans-harmed ids, idk why but it makes me feel better, when I don't refer it as my cis-trauma, makes me feel normal or something, like I said before I have contradictory feeling and in contradictory to myself lol (-ω-。).
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I am here for the "bad" survivors.
I am here for people who don't perform perfectly as they recovered from their trauma and abuse.
I am here for people who weren't believed.
I am here for people who went back, who reached out, who were unsure about what was happening to them until they were.
I am here for people who behaved chaotically and uncharacteristically in reaction to their trauma.
I am here for people who screamed, yelled, or hit back.
I am here for people who froze, stayed silent, or couldn't fight back.
I am here for people who couldn't get their stories straight, because their own memories of what happened were so fractured by the trauma.
I am here for people who's boundaries became rigid and impermeable as they tried to create a new sense of safety in their life.
I am here for people who lost all boundaries, who felt unsafe setting any boundaries in the wake of having them violated.
Whatever happened that makes you feel like you were a "bad" survivor, I am here for you.
There are no "bad" survivors because there are no "good" survivors. Surviving is hard.
— idenlock
when an individual still identifies/feels connected to a term because they have identified with it before !
— ex : identify / feel connected as gay even if that term no longer fits you !
— i will make specific versions later !
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My Little brother sucks, he's actually blackmailing me, I said something about Jeffrey Dean Morgan(my p/o)
And it was a joke, and now my two sisters, my older sister boyfriend and my little won't let it go and keeps on joking about it and now he's saying either I give him a dollar and he won't tell my dad or he tells my dad which I STRICTLY don't want to know what I said
I hate this, they’re making me have negative connotations about Jeffrey Dean Morgan and its genuinely hurting my mental health,
Jeffrey Dean Morgan is one of my safe place/haven, and their taking it away from me /srs
Update:
I'm blackmailing him back next time i see him, cause I know things he doesn't want dad to know , ty to my older sister for helping with this conclusion
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trauma is NOT an excuse for harassment and censorship *logs out*
🐜: “lesbians are allowed to be attracted to fictional men!! fiction isn’t real life and doesn’t always reflect our real life desires blah blah!!”
🐜: “all l0licons are pedophiles ew why would you ever want to see that in fiction but not in real life that makes no sense”
Did u know about Jeffrey Dean Morgan’s unknown child!? He had a child with Sherrie Rose (director and actress) and only found out in 2009, when the child was 4. The kid is now called Waylon Rose and is a model.
Yes n no ((o(^∇^)o)), I knew that he had an unknown child and who he had it with, But I didn't Know the child's name or how old she was so thank you very much for letting me more *。・+(人*´∀`)+・。* !! /gen
The opposite of “manic pixie dream girl” is “depressed goblin nightmare man,” and, judging by this site, it’s just as attractive to some.
Tw/cw: parasocial, me being overdramatic
My family is ruining Jeffrey Dean Morgan for me, I feel ashamed but I love him so much, and I wanna yap about him but their getting annoyed from me, but I love him sm (-n-。) /srs
But here soon is our anniversary, his(Jeffrey Dean Morgan) birthday is April 22nd and our anniversary is April 23rd so that's a plus.
But I'm getting two things off of Amazon to celebrate his birthday and our anniversary so yay (˶>`ᴗ´<˶) !!