8.21.23 - Second First Day (excerpt) I Wonder How Life Would Be Different If He Was Just A Little Nicer

hey uh reblog if you’re a vent/mental health blog? I want more people to follow.

TW for SA and R*pe

READ AT YOUR OWN RISK

TW: TALK OF SA AND SA FLASHBACKS

to my person - i will love you forever. thank you for giving me the universe <3

i did the “safe space” emdr coping mechanism w my trauma therapist today and i literally just used a spare room in the men of letters bunker. like i didn’t have a real life safe space to imagine, so i had to think of a fake safe space, and i couldn’t think of anything safer.

thank you spn, for always being my home.

i will never admit this fact to anyone ever, the internet can know tho.

WOMP WOMP

(i took this pic to post and the app asked if i wanted to send my streak to someone LMFAO)

don’t stalk spotifies unless you want to be fighting back tears in the bathroom LMFAO :’/

i don’t think anyone actually cares about me, i wish someone did. i wish things could just be enough, but there is a void inside my rib cage. and the thing is that no one gets it, there is no one around me anymore who actually understands because i just push everyone until they can’t handle me anymore. i want to not be here anymore.

“The greatest loss is the kind that you never had in the first place. I am reeling from the missing out on something that was never mine to begin with. This tragedy cuts me deep.”

— remnant-thoughts

struggling to eat again, my therapy for this week had to be cancelled, and i feel like i should die. will i be sent back to the psych ward? probably not. do i want to be? kinda, i don’t feel good :/