don’t stalk spotifies unless you want to be fighting back tears in the bathroom LMFAO :’/
when i think of you my heart is filled with anguish. i pray that when you think of me, yours is filled with penitence.
i literally go to sleep and have dreams that you come back to me. i know you aren’t even thinking of me. i cant figure out which part hurts worse.
the realization that if Uriel was smart he would in fact know about this account, but i don’t think he cares that much to silently stalk me so for now i think i’m safe??
the way i see blake looking back at me in the mirror and i can’t even be bothered to care right now.
oh the things i wish i could tell him LMFAO
Had a session about why closure is hard today, both because of him and because of me. Wrote another goodbye letter. I can't bring myself to post most of it but here was the ending. A proof of existence if you will.
the urge to bleed out on the bathroom floor while music plays in the background
life is so bad i literally want to kms lol :’)
tonight the black hole where my heart is supposed to be feels as if it will eat me alive.
✩ 21 ✩ bpd, bipolar, & cptsd diagnosed ✩ helpol ✩ “Freedom is a length of rope. God wants you to hang yourself with it.”
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