It Just Hurts To Have Such A Strong Word Used Against You. And Not Even Any Gesture Apology Has Been

mmmm bacteria lab specimens, yummy :D

‘Prowling Cats’ by Tim Southall

The whole, "K*lling urself is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" bullshit is spouted by the ignorant lucky ones who have only had temporary problems. Some people's problems are permanent so maybe try offering actual help and support to them rather than regurgitating an overused phrase that means nothing to people with real struggles.

currently trying again tonight to open my frozen over heart, wish me luck

i hate being emotionally deregulated, why can’t people just care?

i pray so often for my friends and chosen family, but i just know that no one is out there praying for me.

i hope everything gets easier soon. or at least funnier.

12.9.22 August in december. (excerpt)

I now may have the same diagnosis, but it does not make me the monster of a man that you were. I am pursuing a degree in fisheries & wildlife at a very small school. I want a house in the mountains where me and **** can rescue dogs. I like filling my head with poetry, fluffy romance, crystals and astrology, gaming a little, indie folk music, and looking at the stars. I stopped playing softball and I like being outside, but most days I just want to curl up in bed. I still play ukulele but I started learning guitar. My favorite color isn’t yellow anymore, it is green. 

I am no longer the me that you knew, and you my dear are no longer you. 

being aware that your behavior is shaped by childhood experiences is so cringe every time i notice it im like ooo look at her can't even get over what someone told him when she was 7. grow up