I Cant Even Write About It, I Tried, Too Many Memories Of Being Locked Up In Facilities. I Know Everything

my therapist has no idea how bad she fucked up LMFAO. like- you think he thinks about me??? really??? no no no dez idc if he feels bad about what he did, he still thinks about me??? 🥺🥺🥺

i did the “safe space” emdr coping mechanism w my trauma therapist today and i literally just used a spare room in the men of letters bunker. like i didn’t have a real life safe space to imagine, so i had to think of a fake safe space, and i couldn’t think of anything safer.

thank you spn, for always being my home.

i will never admit this fact to anyone ever, the internet can know tho.

this whole being 14 thing is so lame. like girl get a grip that was 5 years ago.

notes app ramblings

the way i see blake looking back at me in the mirror and i can’t even be bothered to care right now.

oh the things i wish i could tell him LMFAO

:/

i might be doing really terrible on the emotional regulation front but in my defense ive had a gaping hole in my chest since i was 12