Reblog To Have The Most Homoerotic Year Of Your Life 2024

Just got notified that 4CL is sending me to Germany on assigment

HUH???

Happy belated Trans Day Of Visibility!

I'm a trans guy in STEM!

I'm a trans guy with invisible disabilities!

I'm a trans guy in rigorous academia!

I'm a trans guy that falls into niche hyperfixations (currently it's the movie "Late Night with the Devil" and David Dastmalchian >:) )!

I'm a trans guy that loves alternative music and fashion and culture!

I'm a trans guy who loves his cat!

I'm a trans guy with tattoos and piercings and bad facial hair!

I'm a trans guy that is pre-t and pre-op!

I'm a trans guy who loves being trans and trans people so much!

I'm a trans guy who has found more love, support, community, friendship, and acceptance, external and internal, the older I've gotten!

I'm a trans guy who knows the sun will rise tomorrow and I am constantly striving to be the type of person I want to see in the world!

Happy TDoV!! 🏳️‍⚧️

Happy Pride Month btw :) I made these because I'm trans + queer + a TAPS researcher at Fourcast Lab and all of those things are pretty neat! It's therefore my professional opinion that the all pasts, presents, futures, and alternate realities are queer :).

Downtime at work, courtesy of my laptop's front-facing camera.

i think the reason british ppl make such good punk music is bc their country sucks so much shit and ass

will probably not be posting much for the next few days as I scramble to get all of my paperwork together - hopefully I can document some of my flight out but obviously I have to make a pretty crazy turn around lmao

mini(?) life update

graduation, amongst other things.

I almost wish I could say that I've been inactive because the Lab has been giving me crazy work, or I've been busy with something or another, but the weirdest thing is that that's not the case, but I still feel off.

I graduated a few months ago, now. I'm probably not done with academics as a whole, but I had decided before graduating that I would be taking some time off before going back to school. At the same time, the Lab has given me a psuedo-summer break - technically I work there still, yes, but assignments have been unusually slow, to the point where I haven't actually had to be in the lab for...since graduation, essentially. Maybe it's their way of apologizing to me for putting me through how hectic they made my last summer (and fall, and winter).

So my social life, work life, and inner life have all experienced some drastic changes - moving away from campus, not being active with work, the resulting personal challenged with lack of motivation, routine, energy...I know it won't last forever, that once I find my next step in life it'll change, and that I'm definitely not the first person to graduate and feel this way, but I grow tired and frustrated with my own listlessness. Even with the prospect of using the time to pursue hobbies and projects, I find myself immediately deprived of the ability to do it. I just end up feeling tired. And that tiredness and lack of achievement makes me feel frustrated. Etc.

Rambling now - it's only about 8:30 around here but I haven't slept well for almost a week now (thank u taps so cool), so writing isn't my strong suit atm. Thankfully I'm still talking with my therapist, and will see him tomorrow. This will probably be the first thing to come up. Hopefully I'll see y'all around soon.

All told I'm gonna be traveling for like 16 hours straight.

Okay I've slept off my edible and double-checked with 4CL. I am actually flying to Germany early July for work. God gives His silliest clowns His funniest battles.